*.. clear the air .. *

hey, i was reading a topic thing in this group about 'young teenager  girls' thinking they are fat when they are not?

i just want to clear the air up before i ask this question .. iv had anorexia before, im not going back down that route, i am not one of those stupid little attention seeking kids !

so, anyway, yh , i was overweight when i was 10 and a half , 11 years old, i was about 124 lbs, but i was pretty tall , about 154cms, so i got put on diet by my mum and doctors, and once i got to 110 lbs, docs said i was healthy , so i was taken off diet. But i couldnt eat healthy after that , even though my mum never noticed at the  beginning, things were getting out  of control , and within 5 weeks, my mum had taken me back to doctors, since my weight was then in low 90's. thats when i was told i had 'anorexia'. trust me you dont want to go there

i was a normal weight by the time i was 13, and now 15, iv lost weight again, im 114, but im still eating, so does that mean i now have to increase my calories to maintain my weight ?

also, have i ruined my chances of growing/ having kids ? im only 157cms tall, im really flat 'chested' and iv never had a period. Does anyone know if all these things are happenning because of my stupidity when i was a kid , or because im growing?

nice to meet everyone

First I would like to say Hi and welcome to the forums! (:

According to the teens bmi graph, (http://www.bcm.edu/cnrc/bodycomp/bmiz2.html) you are actually at a healthy weight! On a low activity level you should be eating about 2010 calories every day to maintain your current weight. If you are more active you should be eating even more. Check the calculator and put in your stats there to see more. Maybe you feel you might want to gain a couple pounds? Thats fine too and you will still be at a healthy weight. Visit the weight gainers subforum for more information.

As for ruining chances for having kids that is simply crazy talk! (: Some people are just late bloomers, as some would say, and don't get there period till they are older. Some people can get it when they are really young as well. Don't worry, you will get yours eventually too. Most likely really soon!

If you have any other questions please don't hesitate and once again welcome to the Calorie Count forums. (:

First of all, I think it's important you redefine something. You were not stupid as a kid. You were actually placed on a diet at 11 years old at a height and weight that really should have been left alone to work itself out.

Many doctors are under-educated when it comes to the development of eating disorders: while we don't know why some girls are more prone to developing anorexia than others, we do know that the primary trigger is that first diet. Which is why there should always be sufficient and immediate medical reason (obesity, pre-metabolic syndrome) to place any child on a diet. And your mother was only following what she thought was professional and educated advice.

However all that aside, as dark beam has pointed out your BMI is healthy. And beyond that, there is nothing that has happened in your body that will not be completely reversible over time.

You will need to be a bit patient. Your period may not arrive until 17 and your breasts may not complete maturation until even later than that. However everything will develop and you are not irreversibly harmed at all.

For everything to recuperate and to avoid any permanent issues, it will be important to keep your metabolism up, so avoid calorie restriction at all cost -- plus you do not want to trigger any relapse at all. As darkbeam has again recommended 2000+ calories a day.

And I'm assuming from how you worded your question that you actually dieted to reach your current weight of 114? In which case, it might be a good idea to involve a nutritionist in creating meal plans that are 2000+ calories to get you solidly on the road for maintenance.

Every time you restrict your calorie intake, you risk relapsing -- that's the only change in your body that is irreversible -- your neurological receptors have been permanently modified by that first diet. Now, that does not mean that anorexia will hang over your head for life and that you can never get beyond it -- far from it, but it does mean that calorie restriction for you will always be a risk in ways it is not for those without that neurological shift.

You will find lots of support for maintaining on these forums so welcome and best wishes!