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How could I have been so stupid????? I got down to my goal weight at the beginning of September 2011 and even had grand ideas of maybe going a little lower as things were going so well.
Then a few trips & holidays later and the weight had crept up by 3.6lbs; I had left off doing the log and 3.6lbs was not so bad, I thought, as I had been having a great time eating and drinking and thought I could control it.
We spent nearly 3 weeks of December up to and including Christmas seeing family all over the country so big meals, drink, chocolates, Christmas pudding and mince pies etc at every house we stayed and now on 31 December I have tipped the scales at 151lbs, meaning I have put on 11lbs since September when I achieved my goal and a whopping 7.4lbs in LESS THAN ONE MONTH.
Now I am right back where I was at the end of June 2011. Aaagh! I was a complete idiot and have thrown away all that hard work. Nothing fits me anymore as I got rid of loads of the bigger size when I got down to 140lbs in September. I feel HUGE, STUPID and SHAMED when I think of the awful things I have been shovelling down my throat in the last few weeks, especially. I have started again today with the log, and decided not to go out tonight to a New Year's Eve party - I don't want the temptation of buffet-finger food and drink and, besides, I look awful in anything I pick out of the wardrobe to wear!
I have learned my lesson the hard way - I'm angry and disappointed with myself but am channelling the anger to make me do the weight loss all over again.
Happy New Year to everyone who reads this and thanks for reading my rant about myself! Good luck to all those who find themselves in the same position.
Yep, hear you! As I sit with a venti full fat latte - thinking why did I order this when I spent months getting used to black coffee! And why do people feel obliged to bring chocolates every time they come over! Okay, it's not them, it's my lack of self control My scale has gone on hiatus (battery is low), so I don't even know where I am. That means put the coffee down - and pick up the weights. Let's DO it!
Please don't be so hard on yourself. The important thing is that you have proof of how important a food diary is in adhering to mindful eating. You know what you need to do, and you will stick to it next time. Weight loss is not a destination, but a continual journey.
