depression is coming back

and I can't talk to anyone about it.

Hubby doesn't believe it exists (i've even taken him to dr's with me)

friends are going through their own ****, and either way i just feel like a burden with my whining and stupidity.

But I'm falling. down. down. Each day seems like I can't go further, tomorrow has to be better.. but then it isn't. Its worse.

I can't keep up this schedule. but we have 2 more months of it.

crazydiamond-

Umm two more months? Why two more months and of what?

I never know if you're serious or your joking! But I have suggestions either way!

2 more months of the crazy practice schedule.

Today its worse due to my other issue. Its inescapable!

But to help with my craziness I quit caffiene and I quit cigarettes and am now taking supplements for my adrenals. I think I burnt them out. I have more energy the last few days... is it the adrenal supplements, or just the quitting smoking?! I dunno. I never know.

now it is the holidays and it is DEFINITELY back. Crying, can't make decisions, making hubby angry because of my whining... Its like I can't stop when I start flowing hot molten crazy all over him and he doesn't kno whow to help and I don't know how he can help. Nothing helps.

I'm on your boat too without a life jacket...

Original Post by mypuppymylife:

I'm on your boat too without a life jacket...

 What are we supposed to dooooo??

this is pure suck. how are we supposed to make it through the damn holidays?

Yup and on top of everything my idiot (for lack of a stronger term) stepson is about to destroy our marriage.........

...by talking, sharing.

I just joined the group, and reading your posts struck a chord with me. Too often have I felt like nothing can go right, like I'm just in everyone's way. Like I'm the planet's problem, and there is no one out there who could possibly understand (and anyone who I do try to get to understand just agrees that I'm nuts).

Fact of the matter is, we aren't alone. Never think that you are the only one going through what you are going through. One way or another, life will always go on, and nothing hurts worse (not even depression) than looking back at the time lost because those emotions took over.

I had a breakdown saturday night. Scared my friends. I have bad alcoholic tendencies right now, apparently. I am not going to be drinking until I'm in a better place (when I can moderate myself, unlike this weekend).