disordered thinking? is this a healthy binge/too much at once? need some help :(

so i usually get up around 9:45-10:30 and go run and then eat some fiber one cereal with yogurt and like strawberries or something after. is it ok to eat so late? i mean i know you guys say we need breakfast but does that go by when your body wakes up? if i wake up in the morning i am never hungry, after going out for a run by the time i am back and showered i have a small appetite. i usually go to bed late though at i'd say around 1 am on average sometimes later or closer to 2 am even.

anyways my question is today for instance i got up at around 10:15 ran for 35 minutes then had a watermelon wedge before heading off to go to the gym a little after 11:15 am. all i did was about 5-6 arm machines and some crunches, 3 sets with reps of 12. anyways so by this time of course i was pretty hungry but i stopped at my friends house really quick for some help on some hw. by the time i got home it was like 1 something. so i came home had about 3/4 cup kashi go lean with 1/2 fiber one, i put some dannon nonfat plain yogurt in there (a little over 1/4 cup), some cinnamon, and cut up about four strawberries to put in there. i also had a glass of milk with it. after i finished i had a craving for something sweet so i went and cut up one of those phillipino mangoes (not the bigger ones you usually see at publix for these you go to the oriental store), cut up some more strawberries (about 4 more) and had another wedge of watermelon and another glass of milk. i think this puts me at around 700 or so calories. i dont know if this would be considered a binge? it seems like i ate a lot all at once i am assuming i should have spread it out a bit more what do you think? my stomache feels pretty full. i don't know i never know what to have after i weight lift.

i had been doing lots of cardio before and eating less than i should have so now i am trying to lift weights to try to gain the muscle that i lost from all the cardio. mind you it wasn't crazy amounts. i usually do 4 miles everyday and sometimes i would go for 1 hr 10 min. either way, today was my second day of doing weights and i am not sure what i should eat after it. i probably should have had some bread or more protein instead of all that fruit but i have so much fruit here and i am living by myself i am scared it will go to waste plus i LOOOVE mangoes. anyways what do you guys think? should i try to eat not so much the rest of the day? i was thinking a turkey sandwich later and then maybe some grilled chicken with veggies and perhaps another glass of milk (although i already had two???) i really would like some help because i don't know if my thinking is disordered!

i know this post is kind of everywhere but i just would like some guidance. i feel lost! i need my muscle back! my arms look so thin and bony its gross and i lost so much muscle. my ass is all bony now i used to have a nice bubble butt. :/

also does anyone know how many calories are in one of those mangoes? cc says they are around 130 calores per mango but i am thinking these are the regular ones that you get at publix and those seem a tad bigger than the ones i get. and 130 seems a bit high for a mango no? even higher than a banana...

 

i have ones like these:

http://torque.oncloud8.com/archives/images/IM G_9347.jpg

http://www.filipinasoul.com/wp-content/upload s/2007/12/philippine-mangoes.jpg

http://cache.virtualtourist.com/2733297-Guima ras_Mangoes-Philippines.jpg

versus these:

http://www.freewebs.com/fruity-people/mangoes .jpg

 

i would really like so advice because at this point i am considering going out and running for another 35 minutes to help digest all this. i feel like i had too much at one sitting which i should have spread out better over the day. i feel like because i ate so much at once and my stomache is full running will help burn it off and give me some more room to eat a regular meal later without feeling guilty. what do you think? i am 5'3 by the way

700 calories is in no way, shape, or form a binge.

you ate a serving of cereal, a mango, watermelon and some strawberries, and that's AFTER working out. nothing to feel guilty about at all.  

yeah i know the serving of cereal was fine, i had two servings of watermelon, probably about a little more than a cup of strawberries, two glasses of milk, and not to mention the yogurt. my stomach is still feeling bad. i dont know if it will be bad to just have dinner later on and thats it then go to bed what do you think?

I find it hard to believe that you were even close to hitting 700 cals on this meal.  It is in no way a binge... in fact, I am rather concerned that you even think that it may be... you mentioned 'disordered thinking' and I think you should look into that.

As far as skipping meals or excersing more, I think you need to rest, read a book, and have some whole grains and definitely some lean protein!!  Your run this morning was plenty considering the fact that you dont want to eat all that much.  And anyway- YOUR weight IS fine.

Forgive me if I am coming across harsh, but I think that you know that this is def distorted thinking...

quote form you on another threadyou started and titled "please let me know if i am doing better about my nutrition " found at: http://caloriecount.about.com/forums/post/853 99.html

 "I know I was very stupid and did not eat much which also dramatically increased how much weight I lost. I started at about 122 now I'm at 110 in about two and a half months. I don't think this is very healthy for me. I am scared that I screwed up my metabolism and am going to end up losing all my muscle."

 

yeah i think you are right. i was just mad at myself for eating so much at once and not spacing things out. i tend to do that a lot. i try to space out my food so that i can try to get my metabolism up but i guess im the type of person who when they sit down to eat won't feel satisfied until they get that "full" feeling in their stomach. i ended up having a big 6 oz piece of chicken that day with tons of veggies i also had a grapefruit later as well as an orange, kiwi, and yogurt again.

so i took a break from running today as well and tried to eat as best as i could as i was out with friends and we went to the beach and what not.

i'd appreciate it if you let me know what you think:

today i got up had fiber one with yogurt at 10 am

then went to the beach and stopped by subway had a 6 inch turkey breast on wheat with no cheese and tons of veggies and mustard.

after that i had about two handfuls of kashi heart to heart cereal with a couple raspberries and strawberries. my friends tried to get me to eat some pizza but i had the cereal instead. i know i need to gain weight (i'm at 100 lbs now) and they were pestering me about eating more but but i would rather do it on healthy food than on something unhealthy like pizza.

anyways after that i went to my friends house and her mom had made some rice and beef with a couple veggies (i haven't had beef in god knows how long or white rice for that matter) and half an avocado. i also had a small glass of 2% milk.

i came home at about midnight tho and felt a bit hungry or maybe just guilty feeling like i should have eaten more and had a grapefruit, a mango, and watermelon and then had some more yogurt and finished it off with green tea.

i dont know if this is bad eating at midnight though! what do you think? does this sound like enough for a day's calorie worth or should i have eaten more/less? sometimes i feel like i don't know how much i should be eating.