I dont feel normal..please help

Hi,my name is Megan.I'm 18 and currently fluctuate between 108-115 pounds.I recently lost about 15 pounds this summer.I used to weigh about 122-125. I would run EVERY morning and then do some ab,leg,arm exercises EVERY morning also. During the day I was very busy babysitting little kids all day,running after them on the beach,changing diapers,etc. After work i would usually go for a surf for about 2hours,depending on how the waves were co-operating. I can't drive yet,so I was walking or riding my bike everywhere on top of that. In the evenings,I would help Mom cook dinner,clean up,help with younger brothers and sisters,etc.I never felt like sitting down to watch tv,computer or anything like that.Whenever I did,I would feel guilty that I was being lazy,and should be up doing something.I actually hated it when I would go the the movies with friends because I had to sit for a full 3hours in the movie theatre. On top of all of this obsessive exercise and lack of rest,I was obsessed with what I ate and how many calories I consumed.I had to know exactly how many calories I was eating or else I would feel bad about what I was eating.I still ate but it had to be healthy and a certain amount of calories.Sometimes if I didn't have a choice and had to eat pizza or something when i was out with friends/family,I would go for an extra run that day because I ate the pizza. I guess all of this was what caused my weight loss. My periods have completely STOPPED and its been almost a year since I've had one. A lot of people tell me I've lost a lot of weight but the thing is,is that i don't feel like I've lost ANY. I still feel like a have a fat ass some days,or that my stomach is losing its definition/getting flabby.I hate the feeling of not being able to run and I get fidgety if I can't go for a run one day.I know I have a problem,but its just so hard to stop exercising and I can't force myself to eat if I don't feel hungry. If anybody has this similar problem please leave me a message and share your story/tips/advice.I would really love to talk to some people with a similar issue:) Thanks guys:)

Hi there. My name is Rosa and I use to have the same problem as you do. I would often feel horrible for the things that I ate and would often do more to make sure that the calories that I ate would go away. I was not what I would consider anorexic but i was eventually under weight. I now weigh around 126 pounds and this is the most that I have ever weighed. I feel horrible for my weight although doctors say that I am at an average weight for my height and age.

Take it from me; nothing good will come from you over obsessing about it. I know that it is hard to look at yourself as being pretty when you feel like you weigh a ton but if you don't take care of yourself you can have a lot of problems.

I am one of those people who live with a bad situation because of the way I ate and exercised. I now have heart problems, I am anemic to the extreme, I have high colestorol, oh, and did I mention that I am only 24 years old? I faint a lot for no apparent reason and the doctors blame this on my lack of blood count. I have a lot of problems.

If you feel like it is something that is getting out of control then you should seek the help of a profesional and don't be ashamed since there are many people who have the same issues as you do.

I don't know if you know this or not but you lose calories during the day even while you are doing nothing so to maintain your weight you should check out how many calories you are loosing per each thing that you are doing.

I came on this site to maintain my weight by eating healthier and not to lose weight. You should have the same goals and if it is a problem for you then you should talk to a loved one that you can confide in and as for suggestions on how to deal with it.

I wish you the best and please don't end up like me since now I am working hard to eat healthier and be a healthier person instead of the way that I was.

Wow  meghan,

it sounds like you really need to make sure that you keep your doctor informed of these issues.

Nancy