Don't you hate slowly watching yourself gain weight?

mhm try my life. i was always the chunky kid, until about 8th grade when i went through a starve myself stage, which clearly didnt work and all through ninth battled anorexic like tendencies. so this year i did xc and it kept the weight off but once it ended so did my oh so nice weight. i went up and down and up and down until about christmas when i was 99 pounds and damn did i love it. who wouldnt?

so after christmas i started bingeing a few times a week and then starving then bingeing then starving, and now i've been stuck on a binge cycle for the past like month and slowly have gone from 105 to 115. IT STINKS. i dont fit into any of my clothes and i cant bear to have to wear size medium. so please,

HELP ME!

honestly is there anyway to get back down to 105? up my cardio by a lot? i mean i run everyday.

UGH.

Honestly, at 5'4", 115lbs is a perfect weight. I would love to be 110-115lbs. I don't think you need to lose that much weight, thats very close to eating disordered, I think, sorry if that isn't what you want to hear. I can give you support if you want to get out of binge/starve cycles and maintain, but I really don't think you need to lose weight, dear.

The best way to deal with this is to see a professional doctor. The way you are thinking is not a healthy way to think about food or your body, you will only be able to contol the way you eat once you have dealt with the real problem at hand.

I hope you feel better soon, and that you speak to someone too, I don't want to sound preachy but you need to love and look after yourself.

xxxxxxxxx

holy sounds like youre reading my mind! from like july-before christmas for the most part stayed between 130-135 then christmas came and I made it to 139....now I will have like a couple good days and lose a pound, then binge and then starve myself the next day I am now 141 pounds! in the morning naked....the binging cycle is hard to break....today has been my frist decent day for about a week....for the past 2-3 weeks my calories have ranged from 2200 on a good day anywhere up to 4100!

pm me if youd like!

I've gone from about 107 to 116 lbs at 5'3"-4".  I still wear a size small though... and my torso has become rather fit.  There's really not much of a difference in my clothing fit.  It could all just be in your head.