I don't know if I can do this again. Vent! Caution!
I started calorie count in November and I was 175 lbs. By June I got down to 153...now I am 158. My original goal is 145, unfortunately I never made it that far. But I want to get there now, I was comfortable at 153. At 158 I feel like a blob. I can't stop eating wtf. I don't have the will power to do this. I got way to comfortable at 153 and told myself nothing would happen I won't gain weight. I was sure as heck wrong about that one..I just want to rip my skin off...I hate who I am right now. I feel nasty and ugly and fat and disgusting. I hate comparing myself to other girls, at 153 I thought I fell into that catagory of skinny or pretty girl now I am back to nasty and gross. I don't want my boyfriend touching me because I feel this way. I want to lose the weight again but I don't know where to start.....AGH! I HATE WEIGHT LOSS!!!!!
You have a boyfriend and I'm sure other friends. Start planning activities that burn calories. Go dancing, swimming, skating, hiking and the list goes on and on. Sitting in a movie house is not always the best date. So get going. Also, I'm learning that if I'm full of crunchy salad, I'm satisfied with the limited food I eat. If your dancing, skating or hiking, you are staying away from the fast food place where you get those nasty little surprises. You hang in there, take one day at a time, and I bet that 5 lbs is gone in no time.
One last peice of advise, stay off the scales. It' messes with your mind. Don't do that to yourself. Relax and enjoy life. Take it from this Nana, its too short to be worrying about 5 pounds
I am influenced by the media very badly. I feel like I have to look like them. Lately i've been swimming a lot it's the food that is getting to me. I'm trying harder though. Thank you soooo much, your reply really helped me think things through a lot more
