I dont know what to think....

Something with my diet just doesnt feel right.

I used to be the HAPPIEST person like ever! i was doing awesome in school, very kind to everyone. I was liked by alot of people and was thought of as being very pleasent. everyone loved to work with me at work...my boyfriend and i had the happiest relationship ever! i was close with all my friends. I'm not bragging, but thats how my life was.

i was 5'3...138 lbs and now, a little over a month later im 126 lbs and i've become OBSESSED with counting calories. Its affected everything. I go to work and i cant stop thinking about calories like...i cant stop thinking about how much i will burn do this as opposed to that. I've been obsessed with going to gym. i HATE HATE HATE HATE eating. i used to lvoe it...now i despise it. i eat, about 1,200 cals a day like im supposed to but i HATE doing it. i feel so grosse and fat afterwards. I feel like i failed myself when i eat. Even though i know i need to.

basically im starting to look great but feel like crap. Its effecting my relationships and everyone around me is noticing. They notice the weight loss but think something else is wrong because im loosing weight AND my "happiness" and "pleasentness" has changed. I'm scared im heading towards an eating disorder....i keep telling myself "just 1 more lb and i will stop being like this" and i loose that one pound and i do it again!!! i dont WANT to be this way but i cant control it. Im embaressed to tell anyone because im not fat by any means and no one but my boyfriend and my mother know about my "diet". where as others like... "Your looking thin are you ok?"

btw...im not "thin" as you would think...just thinner than before! i want to be 115...i dont want to be anorexic. Im just not liking feeling this way anymore. has anyone else had this?!? or gone through this "stage" iw ant to continue dieting but im like scared its going to change who i am and this weight loss is completley taking over my life.

Just take a break from counting calories for a bit to start. Instead, eat foods that you know are good for you and try not to think about the calories that are in them...Make a new plan that involves the food groups and servings maybe? Grains, Fruits, Veggies, Dairy, Meat, and even (eek!) some sugars and fats.

Maybe involve your friends in your workout activities? That way when you go to the gym you can bond with your girlfriends and not think about how many calories youre burning. Its up to you to take the emphasis off of the numbers, the scale and your pants size-but by reaching out to your friends and staying busy and social, you may develop a nice balance of fitness and happiness. :)

Hi...I started feeling the way you do...I actually couldn't believe your post it is so "me" too.  Ok, the first thing that helped me was stopping the obsessive counting-just stop.  Keep a healthy eye on your food, you know "how" to eat well by now right?  You will notice a weight off your shoulders just by quitting the incessant counting.  Relax your exercising a bit your body won't gain weight unless you overeat unhealthy amounts.

  I am not a qualified psychoanalysit or nutritionist so I don't feel comfortable about giving any further advice-but if you feel you are in the throws of an ED talk to your mom or a trusted friend now, so it doesn't have a chance of getting stronger-please ok?  It sounds like your life is being taken over by this "thing".  Takes the steps to STOP "it".

Messge me of you want to --my name is Kristy

My post sounds just like the one above me-lol!

i appriate it...thanks.

i am being healthy, and i am getting what im supposed to...im just obsessing over it. I have one friend i go to the gym with, as she is super supportive. however we are on christmas break and she went back home for break. All my other friends are not likin' it. They are anything but supportive. So i go to the gym by myself. i usually find myself covering up the calorie burned thing so i cant look....or getting discouraged when the person next to me ran 10 minutes less but burned 100 calories more. Where is that even fair!?

i just dont want this taking over my life and affecting my relationships. Im trying to loose as much weight as i can this month since i have a month off school, so i dont have to worry so much about it when i get back to school.

Acid test.... over the weekend you have a day where you a) don't exercise, b) don't weigh yourself  and c) you get the full 2000 cals that someone your size and age should be able to consume without gaining an ounce.   If you can do it and be relaxed about it then you haven't got a problem.  If you find the whole idea completely impossible or frightening then your fears may have some grounds.  Brains need food if they're to think rationally..... starvation can make your thought processes irrational and delusional and can quickly lead on to depression. 

BTW...  If you're only 20 years old then you should be taking in no less than 1500 if you're very sedentary and trying to lose weight and no less than 1800 if you're at all active. 

Original Post by gi-jane:

Brains need food if they're to think rationally..... starvation can make your thought processes irrational and delusional and can quickly lead on to depression. 

So very true!!!