Don't know what to do...really need help

Ergh

I have a history of eating disorders so to try and sort this out, I decided to stop weighing myself much and just focus on eating well.

Just weighed myself and I've gained a rather considerable amount of weight :(

I don't understand how I can gain weight when I walk for 40-60 minutes a day, ride my horses for 40 minutes to 2 and a half hours every day as well as general looking after them duties plus poledancing for 30 minutes a couple of times a week AND 3 sessions of strength training a week when I eat reasonably healthily - not perfectly I admit but better than most people I know. I eat good portion sizes too.

I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm not very overweight but TERRIFIED about gaining it - now I have, and I don't know how to make sure I don't..I really want to lose weight, but have given up with dieting as twice now I've dieted (healthily and slowly) down to the weight I'd like to stay but when I stop calorie counting it creeps back, and I can't live with calorie countign everyday forever. Also it just makes me obsessive and EDish.

I don't know what to do anymore, I'm so stressed too as I have 3 big exams in January but I just don't seem to have time to revise or just can't settle down to it and argh.

So do you need someone to talk to? I have a history of ED too. I know it's hard, especially on teenagers who already have so much new stress going on.

What are your stats. (Age, height, weight) And how much have you gained over what period of time?

how did you feel before you weighed yourself? were you happy? did you feel healthy? did you feel like you looked great? if yes, then who cares about your weight!? just pretend you never stepped on the scale and MOVE ON! ignorance is bliss.. if you wouldn't have known you wouldn't be depressed, right? so why torture yourself by stepping on the scale? you say you're exercising and eating right? so obviously any weight you've "gained" is not fat.. i mean seriously, logically think about it. ditch the scale and maybe find other ways to track your progress.. measuring tape, body fat calculator, the way your clothes fit, etc etc. i've recovered from an ed and i know how hard it is to get over the scale obsession. what's working for me is weighing myself every morning, tracking it on the cc weight log and forgetting about it for the rest of the day. doing that makes it easier for me to see the trend in my weight. but more importantly, i track my body measurements every monday and keep the in a log. i'm losing inches but gaining weight! should i be sad about that? NO. as long as i still fit in my skinny jeans, i can care less what i weigh. remember, you want to aim for fat loss.. not weight loss, so keep up your exercise and diet and you'll be ok. scales are stupid, don't let them bring you down

msg me if anything!

I know how you feel! I have an ED history too. I want to lose weight but calorie counting and meal planning can easily become obsessive. I'd say just stick to eating healthy foods in reasonable portions & try not to stress over the scale. Sometimes you can be retaining water & that adds a few pounds. Someone said track your size by how your clothes fit - that's a good way to do it.

With all that activity it's more than likely you put on some good healthy muscle which doesn't really count as "gaining weight" since you've increased your ability to metabolise calories.

Stong tone bodies look GOOD!