eating 10,000 cals plus some...

I don't get to talk to people much who do this, or at least who will talk about it when they do.  I just ate, probably around 6 or 7,000 calories after dinner.  For lunch, I had about 3,000.  Tonight I planned on having a bowl of soup and studying all night.  Instead, down in the dorm some girls made free tacos, and guess what, cupcakes, and so I had to try one.  I left the kitchen and took a shower and brushed my teeth, swearing I'd not eat any more becaus I had such a huge lunch.  Then on my way out to study I grabbed 2 more cupcakes... then said ahh screw it, I've blown it.  So I spent probably 15 bucks on candy at the bookstore, and then fries at checkers, and then an arbys meal with a huge jamocha shake.   I'm in pain.  I do this some days, then all the other days I go on a carb fast and work out a ton, and probably lose tons of muscle b/c of it.  I'm going crazy!!! Help!!!  I don't know how! But part of this is because I don't have time to plan out healhty meals, and I'm thinking about damn food all the time!!!!

Good stuff, I think the most I've ever eaten is 5k calories a day.  But if your body is craving 6 or 7 thousand calories a day - I see no reason that you should fight it.  Sure you'll be able to will power your way through it for a couple of days.  But there really is no way around the power of genetics / positive enforcement that inclines you to crave that much food. 

Uhm? =/ I wasn't going to answer this because I don't really have any advice, but 7,000+ calories a day is NOT normal or good. I don't know if pro athletes need that much-- I'm assuming you aren't one of those, though. Also, you're eating a lot of those calories in junk food, and that's never healthy.

It sounds like a binge/restrict ED; but don't let people online diagnose you.. you should probably talk to a doctor about this. Please don't feel to down on yourself in the meantime. =(

 

 

I know how it is when one can't seem to stop... I hope you'll find all the support you need here!

How about next time you feel like you're going to cave in, you go out "forgetting" your wallet -and any method of on-campus payment- in your dorm room? ;) 

I don't think my body craves 6 or 7000 a day...I wasn't even hungry at dinner time.  Food is my first (and really only) response to any kind of unpleasant feeling.  Especially the anxiety I get when I eat too much.  So I fix it by **** eating??? What the hell?? Sorry.  I just hate that I do this to myself.

Here's the estimate for the day: (this my be a little bit over or under)

Mon, Feb 11 2008GradeGramsCalsClementine Tangerines - CitrusA-8440Large Egg - All-Natural Eggs with Omega-3C+200280Kraft Natural Shredded Cheese - Fat Free Cheddar - Shredded CheeseA-4268Onions - RawA4519Milk, Nonfat, Fluid - With Added Vitamin A (Fat Free Or Skim)A3111Sweetpotato - Cooked, Baked In Skin, Without SaltA144130Cinnamon, GroundA513Specialty Items Sugar Free Breakfast Syrup - Smucker's3116Kraft String-Ums Cheese - Mozzarella - String CheeseC2880Milk, Nonfat, Fluid - With Added Vitamin A (Fat Free Or Skim)A24583Puddings, Kraft, Jell-o Brand Fat Free Sugar Free Instant Reduced Calorie Pudding & Pie Filling ChocolateB-2268Nutter Butter Granola BarB-28100Nutter Butter Granola BarB-28100LEAN POCKETS Brand Turkey, Broccoli & CheeseC252270Mrs. Freshley's CupcakesB51140Caramels Sugar-Free62258Star Crunch Comic Snacks31146Swiss Cakes62270Toaster Pastries, KELLOGG, KELLOGG'S POP TARTS, StrawberryC+104410Pizza - With CheeseB176393Cinnamon Sugared Donut Holes1359Cake, Yellow, Commercially Prepared - With Chocolate FrostingC-28106Ice Creams, VanillaC144289Blissful Blueberry Cobbler760Deluxe Cake Mix White - Cake, Cupcake & Cookie MixesC78315Frosting Vanilla Ready-To-Spread - Baking Decorations/Icing, Food Coloring, etc.32130Mission 6" Low Carb Whole Wheat Tortillas, 10ct.2880Beef, Ground, 80% Lean Meat / 20% Fat, Crumbles - Cooked, Pan-brownedB-149405Mexican, Queso Asadero CheeseC28100Deluxe Cake Mix White - Cake, Cupcake & Cookie MixesC156630Frosting Vanilla Ready-To-Spread - Baking Decorations/Icing, Food Coloring, etc.64260Candies, Twizzlers Strawberry Twists CandyD+47165Cherry - TWIZZLERS Nibs128440Whoppers Candy112480Jolly Rancher Hard Candy Jolly Rancher Rocks31120Cowtales295Sugarfree mentos65Checker's fries210Jamocha Shake - LargeD510647Regular Roast Beef154320Curly Fries - Sides & SidekickersC-106338Total Calories Consumed9,107

I forgot to add the refried beans I had on my one burrito tonight... but given how much I ate, I don't know that that amount matters.

All that food is brand pre-packed stuff. Stop buying it and buy INGREDIENTS and make your own food. You can't limit your calories well if it's all pre made crap.

You're having binge and restriction problems. Do you go to college? In my college, we had a free counseling service to help us if we were having disordered eating. What you are doing is an eating disorder! Please don't listen to the other people who aren't addressing this as such.

When you restrict some days you actually set yourself up for a binge on other days. I know, because I've been struggling with binge eating for years. It's so hard to fix. Please see if there is any way you can talk to a doctor about your problem. For now, check out websites that discuss binge eating and alternatives to going on a binge, like somethingfishy.org. Feel free to PM me if you have questions.

Yeah I'm in college.  I'm seeing a counselor about it now, but I still feel like I havne't gotten a handle on this yet.  He's getting me to see a psychiatrist tomorrow to get prescribed drugs for OCD actually.  I'll check out the somethingfishy website.  Thanks.

 Where are you in college?

I went to college in Massachusetts at WPI. I started with my binge eating in my senior year of high school and I'm actually struggling with an episode right now. My eating gets worse in winter, which is connected to my seasonal affective disorder (SAD) so I'm trying an antidepressant that is supposed to be good for helping with this particular problem. It's a difficult thing to get under control, and I'm sorry that you are going through it like I am!

Here are some of my tips from college. Not all of them will work for you (not all of them worked for me, but they are worth trying):

• It is helpful to try and keep all food that you binge on out of the house and out of sight. I know it's hard if you live with someone who likes junk food, but maybe you can have them keep that in their rooms instead of the common areas where you can be tempted. I used to demand that my roommates hide their jars of peanut butter in their rooms, where I would not have access.
• Prepare as many healthy, balanced meals as you can and try to eat as normally as possible outside of your binges. Obviously binging on candy isn't very nutritious, and your body still needs the nutrition in things like fruits and vegetables and protein, no matter how many calories of sugar you have eaten.
• Follow a schedule as much as possible, eating small meals and snacks. Eat at a table with a set portion of food, and make sure you eat without your books or TV or anything to distract you. Try to make it a rule that you never eat mildlessly.
• Exercise in moderation and make sure to include weight lifting. Try not to see exercising as a mode of purging your binge calories, but rather as a way to be healthy, strong, and good to yourself. If you get into a stable habit of moderate exercise, perhaps one hour a day several days a week, once you get your eating under control your weight will settle and/or drop.
• Do things to treat yourself. I find that binging makes me hate myself a LOT, which is really bad, both physically (I despise myself, so punish myself by binging more) and mentally (it just increases my depression and negative self-image). Try to talk back to that negative inner voice that yells at you when you don't eat as well as you would like. Do things to pamper yourself and try to find things about yourself you like to emphasize.
• Sometimes it helps to keep a journal of moods, and every time you feel the urge to binge (you had a bad test, it's a rainy day, you miss your family, for now reason at all that you can tell, whatever it might be) write about it. Go for a walk (without money! never carry cash if you can help it, since you will use it to buy food). Try to figure out the real reason you want to eat. I actually learned a lot about myself by talking to myself while walking around the park trying to avoid binges (I know, it's weird) and some of the things that used to set me off don't send me to a bag of Reece's anymore. It's a long process of healing.
• Always carry one healthy snack with you, whether it is an apple, carrots, a protein bar, or something else. Real hunger, as well as emotions, can set off a binge, so you want to at least be able to take off the edge if you need something to eat.
• If you feel like you are in danger of going home and eating everything in sight, eat your healthy snack and then go someplace where you know there will be no food. I used to like to go to the library, where no food was allowed. I found that without getting distracted by binging I was actually able to get my work done faster and focus even more on my studies.
• When you find something that helps you avoid a binge, right it down in large letters on a piece of paper and post it where you can set it to remind yourself. I used to post "Go for a walk!" on my cabinet door so I wouldn't dive into a loaf of bread when I got home from class. It didn't always deter me, but every time it helps is a victory.
• Finally, if you mess up and have a bad day, forgive yourself. Worrying about what you've already done will most certainly perpetuate the binge cycle. As my therapist said to me, "Tomorrow you can start over and have a better day. And who says that tomorrow has to start in the morning? Tomorrow can start this very minute and go until this time tomorrow. Make your decision to do better now, not later, and you'll do better overall."