ED and boyfriend?

Long story short i guess:

I was informally diagnosed with anorexia last winter, i "recovered", gained too much weight, lost it in a healthy manner, then now i'm back in my anorexic tendencies. I feel like such a failure that i went back to that route. I now have a boyfriend, and quite honestly he knows nothing about my ED. He just thinks i'm naturally thin (im all bones basically), and i don't know if i should ever mention it. I get triggered by rejection a lot, and i'm afraid if i tell him about my eating disorder, he wont like me and will treat me differently. I just don't know how long i can hide my "tendencies" before he'll think somethings up. Also, theres a huge chance i'm going to be sent away to a ED clinic in the next two months...

ahh help!

In your situation (saying that you might be in an ED clinic soon) I'd lay it out on the table.  I understand about being triggered by rejection, but if he rejects you simply for being honest to him, he's not a positive person to have around you. 

if he rejects you or treats you differently, he's not someone you need in your life. one of the things i've learned from my eating disorder is that the people that matter are there for you and with you every step of the way, and will still treat you the same whether you're 90 lbs or 800 lbs.

I agree.  If he rejects you for having an eating disorder, then he's obviously not someone you should have in your life.  It's too short to not surround yourself with only positive people.  I know it will be hard to see him as the bad one in the case of rejection, but really you deserve so much more than that.

Be honest with him; if you really do care about him, you owe him that.  If he truly cares about you as well, he will be there for you.

I agree with gadzooks.

being a guy, and given the circumstances, if i thought my girlfriend was naturally thin, but tells me later that she has an ED, i wouldn't really be too suprised but i would think that you kept secrets from me. Personally i would not mind at all, but if you are going to tell him, make sure the time is right, don't just say it because it may impact his view of you.

Most guys don't secrets too much but if he really likes you than he will not take it personally that you didn't tell him. Just be cool about it and wait for the right time if you are going to tell. Like she said ^ if he actually loves you than he shouldn't have a problem with it.