ED Recovery Club

Someone suggested to me that I start this. I'm trying to come back to healthiness because I've been dealing with Ana for a while now and it's really ... not a good thing.

So...Ana (nervosa and athletica), Mia, BED/COE, Ortho, Bigorexia, whatever it is you might have had or are trying to recover from...I was thinking a good support topic in the motivation forum would really keep us on our feet.

Now if I'm the only one, well, then, just ignore me... *whistles and looks around nervously*

:)

there seems to be a real need for ED support on this website, was wondering whether it's something we should head up to the Calorie Count Team, make it a forum title, rather than just random threads?


Queen, I think it would be an excellent idea for ED's to have a forum of their own, especially where it is directly related to eating, dieting and so on, and there are so many different ED's, not to mention the issues, concerns and nutritional information for those with ED varies.  How does one go about getting something like that done?

On a personal note, I was diagnosed in mid-1994 with BED (binge eating disorder), shortly after the birth of my 2nd child.  I've been dealing with it since.

Hi
I think I have an eating disorder, though I often feel like a bit of a fraud saying that, because I do eat. Just not...everything. I don't let myself snack, I eat only the bare minimum, and if no one is home, I skip as many meals as possible. I am trying to get better though, honest. I've been to the doctor, and I've got another appointment this Friday, when I may be referred to other people who can help me. I have been trying to eat more, I've started drinking hot chocolate for some extra calories. Granted, the low fat kind with only 40 calories a serving, but still. I've even eaten dessert at dinner a few times, and had a couple of chocolates.
 I'm 16 years old, I weighed 121 pounds at the doctors a couple of weeks ago, but I think I've dropped some since then, and I'm 5'11" tall.

So, just....looking for some encouragement. I want to be normal again. One of my New Year's Resolutions is to be able toe at what I want, when I want, and not hate myself for it.

hey erisja...take a chill pill. i wasn't asking for help on weight loss. i think i know how to lose weight all by myself, healthily or otherwise. and i'm sorry you feel that calling anorexia ana or bulimia mia is insulting. if you're in here you certainly know that it's a common practice among anorexics and bulimics to call both the disorders and themselves ana(s) and mia(s). personally, i'm not comfortable using the full names yet, as both ana and mia have become personified to me and in me and that doesn't just go away. its not meant to lessen the disorder in any way or cheapen it if thats what you think. and i'm sure to your abject horror, this IS a place for venting. i intended it for use in many ways when i made it. people with ED's or recovering from them have slip ups and this is somewhere they can vent a bit about something which you can't just vent about in the "normal" threads nearly as much. this is a place where you know the people who come inside will understand and not just say "oh honey its ok itll get better" because while thats well meaning its less than helpful. in any case i dont really feel the need or desire to educate you but just understand that part of recovery is slip ups, having people to talk to, and venting. it doesn't just go away. it's not as easy for us to just "eat healthy well balanced meals between 1200 and 2000 calories and do 30-60 minutes of exercise a day and lose the weight in a couple months". if it were even ABOUT that, we wouldn't be in here in the first place.

cheers!

Welcome, laeille!

.......

so how's everyone doing?!

:D

wow this is interesting.

i was begining to feel like a freak..
wanting to make an account on this site. 

but this forum makes me feel better.

idk why anyone would want to recover though >.>...or how..

I am continually surprised and pleased with all that C.C. has to offer. I justed joined the BA (bingers anonymous) group and am interested in the ED group as well. I went to treatment in August for trauma and BED. I've also been sober for over two years. But I will be the first to admit that as hard as kickin' the drugs and alcohol was, nothing has paralleled the ED recovery process, because we have to eat, multiple times a day, every day, for the rest of our lives. In OA they say we have to "pet the tiger at least three times a day". I like that image. I feel it is accurate. There is a beast, an addiciton, a disorder, an obsession that lives within us and it is about taming it not hating it or resisting it because, at least in my own experience, that only makes it more powerful. I am glad there are resources, like support groups, this website, this forum, and all the contributors for those still struggling.

-waves hand shyly-

i have a terrible time breaking my old patterns.  i considered puking and laxatives and other extreme measures like laxatives and fasting and getting my teeth wired shut and the stomach surgery.

i don't want to do this anymore.  I WANT to get better.

as much as it upsets me to admit this, i believe that i'm not only suffering from one, but two eating disorders.

i've become more and more obsessed about what i eat and how much i eat and i am a major calorie counter. i watch everything that goes into my mouth.

then, i purge.  it's awful.  i hate the feeling it gives me and i know i need to stop.

but, being only 15, i'm scared to tell my parents.  i've got 2 really good friends, one who is still recovering from annorexia, after 2 years, and one who is currently bulemic but is trying desperately to stop.  we're all trying to help each other.

if anyone has any really good websites with information on these two disorders, i would appreciate it.

thank you.

You might want to check out these threads in the public forums:

http://www.calorie-count.com/forums/post/9165 .html

http://www.calorie-count.com/forums/post/6584 .html

thank you.  i know i need help, but i really don't want to tell my parents about my problem, since i'm really not sure how they'll react.

BIG MASSIVE WELCOME to all the newbies in this thread! :D

i think united2gether has pretty much summed it all up...haha.

so i'm going to shut up now :)

united~ thank you so much for everything you just said to me.

i still can't tell my parents.  like i said before, my mom's been pushing me to stop loosing weight. and my dad's been pushing her to let me go until i reach my goal of 120, since he doesn't think it'll hurt.  telling them will just make them fight. a lot.

my three best friends in the whole entire world know.  and other than you guys, they are the only people.  i think my other friends may be suspicious, but they haven't said anything to me.  one of my friends started stuggled with annorexia about a year ago, but she is getting a lot better now. my other friend is still struggling with bulemia and has been for over a year and a half.  and my third friend is the normal one out of all of us, but he knew something was wrong with me and accused me of lying to him about things.  he eventually pried it out of me last night.  he's going to try to help me. he said he's not going to push, and he said he won't tell anyone, not even my parents.  but, that if by april, when we get back from our school choir trip to london, i can't fix it, he might have to tell them, depending on how bad things are.

i ate my whole tuna fish sandwhich for lunch today. that and 2 pieces of gum, but that's it.  still, that's better than yesterday. =]

i'm having dinner with my parents tonight. so, we'll see how that goes. we're having pizza or chinese food. either way, i don't think i'll be able to keep it down.

i attempted to explain to my best friend last night that all of this was purley psychological anymore, and that i'm trying to fight it, but it's hard.  he's going to attempt to help me, but i told him to be careful, because even though i want help, it may piss me off, and i may snap at him and that he would need to be okay with that.  thankfully, he's amazing and totally understands, and he's just going to try to be there for me whenever i need it.  we have an agreement, that whenever we need to talk to each other, we call each other, so i told him he may be getting a lot of phone calls from me soon.

thank you united, and i'm trying. i really am.  but i'm just NOT hungry. and i've only eaten 267 calories today.

i just don't know how to tell my parents, you know? and i know that once i tell them, they'll send me straight to therapy. and i don't know if i can do that.

but i want to get better. really, i do.

Edit: added more text

Hey Pink, and others! I'm back.

I've been binging since last night, I stayed up all night (not binging all night) I've eaten almost 3,000 calories? Yuck yuck.

How do you recover from a binge?