ED Recovery Club

Someone suggested to me that I start this. I'm trying to come back to healthiness because I've been dealing with Ana for a while now and it's really ... not a good thing.

So...Ana (nervosa and athletica), Mia, BED/COE, Ortho, Bigorexia, whatever it is you might have had or are trying to recover from...I was thinking a good support topic in the motivation forum would really keep us on our feet.

Now if I'm the only one, well, then, just ignore me... *whistles and looks around nervously*

:)

~ waves hello to our other new people & returning friends ~ tcj1414 ~ sweetieforever87 ~ luzing ~ sounds like you are all working hard to have healthy days!  *yay* :)

sohooot ~ congrats on a purge free day :) *yay*

Stress = bad days... and i'm having a lot of extra right now, so the days are a bit harder.  Trying to stick with my plan to eat regular meals and snacks....  When I am super busy and stressed like now,  I will forget to eat, so I'm going to go get a watch that beeps me! 

Sometimes, you just have to take a break for the important stuff in life ~ taking care us you/me/us :)

actress - three days?! CONGRATS!!!

hi united =) i'm trying to do better with eating.  i'm considering going to a nutritionist at my college to get some help... i've only been averaging around 900 calories a day again for the past week or so and i know it's not good. i was doing great for awhile and trying to at least hit 1200 but i've been slipping. i'm scared to see it go up though... even though i know i'm still underweight.

thank youuu everyone!

haha i find that happens to me too united. i forget to eat.

i also just don't liek to eat when i'm not hungry. and lately i haven't been hungry at all. i didn't eat a ton of food before i went to bed last night....just had some fishermans' soup at a thai restaurant with my mom...and she fed me some donettes :( theyre my fave :(

i slept for a LOOOOONG time and i woke up this morning just not hungry. i used to wake up hungry and i never eat 3 hours before i go to sleep....but i just was not hungry. after i took a long shower (about 30 mins) which was after a good 30 mins of just chilling i was hungry. had 2 pcs of whole grain/wheat toast with butter (ew i know) and raspberry preserves. why? i don't know. i can barely taste.

that was a a couple hours ago and i'm just NOT hungry. soon i'll be studying for finals (AHHH!) and i know i'll forget to eat. it used to be that i would eat absentmindedly during studying....but now that i can't deal with that...i end up forgetting and then it's like omg its been like 8 hours since i've eaten and whaaaaat do i do.

i'm also getting over a really bad flu and i NEVER get sick (havnt gotten this since i was 9) and that makes me way less hungry.

but i know wat some of u r saying...i stop feeling hungry after ive had a certain amt of calories it seems, sometimes. and it's not 1200 lol. i try to eat snacksthroughout the day but i'm not hungry that often. i even bring all the food i'm going to eat to school (sometimes not including dinner but i dont always get to eat dinner so i will eat what i eat at school as i come home late) and i don't always eat everything or buy other stuff at school.

what's really funny about this is that i also exercise...yuo'd think i'd be losing weight rapidly and even dangerously but no, i'm not really losing anything. *shrug* hardly motivation to be healthier.

well, pink, maybe it's just because you've been sick that you aren't hungry.

guys. it's officially been four days that have been purge-free. =D

Pink! I sure hope you get over the flu soon!  It always kills my appetite too!  In fact all I want then is to sip 7 up, slurp chicken noodle soup (just the broth) and my mumsie to coo and comfort me.... geez!  Like when I was a kidlet!!!  but yanno, sometimes we need to eat anyway... "to get our strength up" Hah!  sounds funny, but if we don't eat well when we are sick, we make it harder for our body to heal!  so pink... the 3rd thing the doc made us eat was jello, followed by ice cream followed by mashed taters or mac & cheese!  Now what kidlet can resist that stuff :)  :::giggles:::  Now that we're older, we can choose a variety of foods we prefer...  i find yogurt and smoothies are easy to eat when I have a cold...  I luv toast & jam for some reason for breakfast then too.  :::sigh:::  really, it's just better to be well!  so get well soon!!!

sweetie ~ sounds like a gr8 place to start!  I saw a nutritionist every week for awhile.  She had me keep a food log and gave me some gr8 suggestions to create a meal plan that I could enjoy... No beets!!!  :::gags @ the thought of beets:::  

I can so easily understand not wanting to gain weight.  I hear ya! 

but, honey, that is your "irrational" brain talking...  and sometimes our irrational brain lies to us. 

We have to ask ourselves...   Does that make sense?  Would you tell your best friend that they should weigh too little?  Would you want your daughter or niece to not eat enough?

I bet the answer is Heck No!!! eh?  So, do you really want that for you?  In your real brain?

Tell me... what do you want???  To be healthy?  To be able to live, love, laugh and be happy???  To be strong???

Then talk back to your irrational brain and tell it you are going to be healthy!!!

let us know how it goes with the nutritionist!  I think that is a tres fabu idea :)

{{{Actress}}}  Proud of U Girl!!!  WTG!!!  What are you doing instead?  Is someone with you?  Are you getting out of the house?  Doing something to keep your mind busy?  Could you share your strategy with me, please ;)  :::smiles & bats eyes:::

Me???  Oh Lord, had a super rough day and a meltdown in the middle when nothing was going right.  I did not eat from 9 this morning until 4 this afternoon when someone brought me a snack and then I finally made a can of chili (legumes = kidney beans = part starch and part protein), added some cheese and ate it.  Then I had a banana.  But see, I told you.  I forget to eat!!!  Dang it.  This always happens when I get too much stress in my life. 

So Pink?  Want to go watch shopping with me???  Hehehe ~ it would be more fun!  I really think I am going to get a beeping watch because I reallly reallly really need to commit to eating my regular meals!!!

Ladies!  Make your plan!  What can you do this week to eat appropriately???  Tell us about it, k?  I would LOVE to hear your strategy!

Some people here say that "ANA"-Qoting them is just a little game thta you start and then stop.  I was like that too.  It's not.  And when you think you have recovered you only tend to get more obsesseive.  Basically the illness is there wih you for life.  It will mess you up and it's something that goes WAY beyond your control.  I still need help myself.

Hi thebledx3 :)  Glad to see you here!

you know, I've never researched recovery/recidivism rates for this....

but the Gr8 news is that many people do get better and move on to have a happy life.

I'm sure that we will always have to watch for warning signals when we have times of stress or unusual circumstances happen in our lives.

I know I can do pretty well during the normal routines, but it's much harder when things are stressful, like right now for me.

So, I have to really make a daily commitment and effort to take care of myself.  I am important and i R E F U S E to give up!!!

ok, on that note, i need to turn in & see if I count sheep all night or if i'm lucky, actually sleep!  keep your fingers *x*'d and will ttyl :)

Hewwo, Im Ornella :)

I am new here & well im in recovery for anorexia ( I was anorexic for about a 6 months, slowly decreasing the amount of food i ate until all i ate was cereal and water) i went from 120 to 100 pounds..had anxiety attacks and all that. But the good news is is that im eating good now (aiming for 1200+ calories) so i can gain 15 pounds and go back to karate (im a blue belt).

so thats me lol..... :) how is every1 else doing???

p.s.s.s- Its hard to gain weight..ive been in recovery for 2 weeks and as much as i am eating..ive only gained 1 pound & it stays in the range of 100-101 :( why is that?????

united--- i've just been out a lot. or surrounded by friends.  so it's not something you do easily when theres lots of people around you.

hey i'm 13-years-old and i'm ana 2. this wuz a really good idea 4 a club! makes me feel better already! btw, has anybody ever posted a reply to any of my journal entries? it seems like no one has...and i wish someone would *hint hint*

haha ive actually read that fasting can help speed up the process of healing. did you know that 30-40% of the oxygen in your blood goes to digesting food when you eat? hence why when you eat a lot you get all sluggish haha. essentially the doctors/specialists/people who've water fasted or juice fsated when sick have gotten better in like 3 days...its said that it gives your body the ability to concentrate on healing instead of processing more food, keeping you sick longer.


of course i didn't water fast. i'm still a bit sick but i think i should be over it by tomorrow. thank god because i have an ap government final tomorrow ><

but it is making me not hungry. i havent eaten a damn hting yet and its 1:20 in the afternoon. bleh.

actress: i am SOOOO PROUD OF YOU! congratulations!!!! keep it up...i havent purged in weeks now and i used to every day, you can do it too!!! it feels so nice, doesn't it? you dont' feel dirty anymore...

<33 love you guys.

it's been five days now.

honestly. it's boys. they helped build my self confidence.  my two best friends and now my boyfriend. who i just got sunday, but it helps. because i saw him tonight, and the way he looked at me made me feel good. =]

actress - that is sooo awesome! keep it up!

united - haha, i don't like beets either *crinkles nose* i stopped in the nutrition office today and they actually didn't have any information for me and said they don't deal much with eating disorders but suggested i make an appointment with one the registered dietitians. so i emailed the office asking about making an appointment. i guess well see where that goes. 

no, i wouldn't want my daughter to eat too little or have my best friend weigh too little. i would want them to be healthy and beautiful and never have to really worry about the number on the scale.  i do want to be healthy and happy. and i used to be. i was over the summer, too. i want that back. i really do. things have sort of been stressful in my house right now which always seems to throw me back down the road of restricting what i eat. but i don't want to stay here. i want to fight and beat this ed. thank you for your encouragement.

i hope you're having a better day and that life is starting to settle down for you.

sweetie said:

no, i wouldn't want my daughter to eat too little or have my best friend weigh too little. i would want them to be healthy and beautiful and never have to really worry about the number on the scale.  i do want to be healthy and happy. and i used to be. i was over the summer, too. i want that back. i really do. things have sort of been stressful in my house right now which always seems to throw me back down the road of restricting what i eat. but i don't want to stay here. i want to fight and beat this ed. thank you for your encouragement.

:::sniffles::: into kleenex...  Me2.  {{{hugs}}} We need to want that for us too!  Hold on to that thought, because you are worth it and it will take you far :)  We'll walk the rest of the way together, k? 

Hope they set you up with the dietician.  If they don't, let us know and we'll chat some other ideers!

Actress!!!  5 days!  WTG!!!  U Rock!  (& so do boys ;) :::giggles & bats eyelashes:::  ;)  ;) ;) 

Pink!  Are you feeling better yet?  Or should I come make a big pot of chicken soup for you?  Some wiggly jello?  Would it help if I made jellow cutouts in Little Nemo characters, maybe Snow White & the 7 dwarfs to bring you tissues & makes u laff?  :::giggles:::  feel better soon dahling, k? 

Dollface94 ~ Welcome :)  Keep making friends!  Add people and leave comments in your friends journals too and before you know it, you won't even have enough time to chat with everyone!!!  Promise!  That's how I did it... I just started shamelessly adding friends (usually said something in the thread... like:  Dollface ~ added you as a friend ~ hope you don't mind?  :)  And I always add people after they add me... and b4 you know it... you're surrounded by friends :)  Now... about leaving comments.... remember everyone has a life and gets really busy with school and work so... a lot of times people only come here once or twice a week... so not everyone leaves comments all the time... so don't be discouraged, k?  Chat here and on the forums where you are interested and before you know it... ;)  {{{hugs}}}

Ornella ~ Welcome!!!  Congrats on your Blue Belt!! and Congrats on your recovery process!  Proud of u! So when did you start working on your belts?  Very cool.  I want to do the kick boxing i think ~ for self defense and to release stress ;) 

And can you tell us how your recovery strategy?    How did you get started? 

You know... it takes at least an extra 3,500 calories just to gain 1 extra pound... so that is a lot of food... especially if you're eating fruits or veggies... it would be a humongo pile of food to chew through.  Maybe you could try some higher calorie food like a big old spoonful of heart healthy peanut butter on fresh bread with milk... mmmmmmm or some nuts or yogurt or even choklit milk???

teehee ~ I adore choklit milk especially when I exercise!!!  I'll be right back with the info I found about it, k?


 

Ok ~ Choklit milk ~ Perfect to restore yourself after or before exercise! Even better than Gatorade, because it has the perfect combination of carbs and proteins :)  It restores your electrolytes, gives you needed vitamin A and calcium for strong bones... yada yada yada... who cares!  Tastes good & does good stuff for us, right?  Here's the link :)

http://www.cbsnews.com/stories/2006/02/24/hea lth/webmd/main1342839.shtml

(WebMD) During a 2004 Summer Olympics awash in controversies over steroids and supplements, one sportswriter wryly noticed that top American swimmer Michael Phelps was playing it safe -- he preferred to drink Carnation Instant Breakfast between races.

Now it appears that the six-time gold medalist may have been onto something. A new study shows that plain old chocolate milk may be as good -- or better -- than sports drinks like Gatorade at helping athletes recover from strenuous exercise...

 "[Milk] is a sports drink ?plus,?" ... "It will supply you with things you need whether or not you?re working out."

 

I also wanted to share this favorite teen website I found when I was googling about body image.

cuz when I was 13, I felt really really really super fat!!! 

But when I grew up, I realized that I had been perfectly normal.

So, sometimes, we just don't see ourselves right in the mirror.  And sometimes we need the help of other people, like our counselors, our partents, our sports coaches or our doctors to help us find the right weight for us!!!

When you grow up!!!  It's sooooooo exciting!!!!  There's so much to do and fun to have and and and... And we need strong bodies!!! 

Did you know that your body really changes in some pretty crazy ways when you grow up?  Hehehe... 1st you get taller!  Your legs get longer.  Everything seems to be getting fatter and thicker... but really what happens is you get your beautiful womanly curves that drive the boys insane and googly eyed ;)  :::blushes:::   

So, growing up is good!  The changes are good!!! 

We need to celebrate the changes!  Love that we get curves!  Learn to walk with that sexy womanly wiggle that drive our husbands and boyfriends crazy happy to see us, eh? 

We need to celebrate our bodies!  Nourish our bodies with food, so we can be healthy and beautiful and women :) 

Here are a couple of my fav links :)

http://www.4woman.gov/bodyimage/

http://www.kidshealth.org/teen/your_mind/body _image/body_image.html

oh my god, united!  i totally agree.  my boyfriend told me i looked beautiful today. it made me happy. =]

Hey all! I'm new here and I look forward to talking and supporting everyone! From what I've read so far, all of you are so wonderful and supportive and I can't wait to be apart of it!

This thread caught my eye because I'm a recovering bulimic.

Almost 2 years ago, my life hit it's lowest point: I got arrested, lost the job of my dreams, and my boyfriend of a year all in the same week and I was only 19. I became really depressed and completely lost my appetite. I wouldn't eat until dinner when my mom would make food, but as soon as the meal was over I would retreat to my bathroom and get it out of my stomach because of the queasy feeling and I didn't think it would stay down anyway with the way I felt. The only thing that would ever stay in my stomach was soup and that was to quiet the stomach grawls. After 3 monthes of living this way I lost a huge amount of weight, and not being big to begin with.. I began to see all the bones in my upper body and lost most of my leg muscle that I worked so hard to get in the first place.

I began hanging out with my boyfriend again, and it didn't hit me until he told me I was getting to skinny. When I got home, I looked in the mirror and cried for hours about that way I looked. I wasn't trying to achieve this look, I wasn't trying to lose weight.. but I completely lost my figure.

It was then I knew I had to get back on track. I began making myself eat 3 meals a day and I made sure I was eating good foods. Within 1 and a half monthes I was back to where I use to be and happier then ever. I never told anyone that I had this problem until recently when I moved in with my boyfriend (we got back together and we have been dating for 3 years now). He would bring up what I use to look like and he would seriously ask me if I had something going on.. I would never admit it to him because I didn't feel like I choose to do it. It just happened and I was ashamed. I finally came clean when I mentioned to him that I was going to get back into shape and he asked me about it again. I told him the story and what happened. Not only was he not ashamed or disappointed.. he offered to help in anyway he could!

There are times when I get sad and get that feeling again, and I admit that I have given in and fallen off the wagon numerous times. But it's those times when I realize that it is hurting me and others around me.

The reason I shared this with all of you, is that I want you know that support is a great thing and if you are ana/mia and you don't feel comfortable letting those in your life know. Tell us! I know it's hard and your embaressed but it's always best to have comfort and support!

So if anyone ever needs anything.. Please let me know!!!!

Thank you for the great thread!!

support is good!

glad your doing better, kris2theti, that gives me hope!