Energy levels and depression
Not eat, not play, not talk, not drink, not laugh, not go to school or out with friends - just sleep.
This is not an option, I am much too busy with HSC work right now for a break (2 assessment tasks, 1 exam, plus mountains of weekly work)
But I am also experiencing bouts of wanting to cry. And cry and cry ... and sleep.
My mood is so low that I'm beginning to get concerned. Every now and then I'll have an hour or so of feeling somewhat more awake and upbeat, but it always comes back to feeling exhausted.
I'm eating a lot better (recovering from Anorexia) so I would've thought my energy levels would go up? I don't know if it's related or if the exhausting is a different issue I just thought I'd throw it in.
Input, anyone?
Hate to ask, but is your period due?
Also, recovering from anorexia is quite a hard thing. So is having all this work and studying to do. It very well could be that the stress is getting to you and yes, triggering depression. Talking to your parents about this might be a good idea. So is forcing yourself to do 20 or 30 minutes of exercise-- any sort will do. You will feel much better afterwards, physically and mentally! Doctors are actually prescribing daily exercise for depression these days. And it does help.
I'll try some exercise though, however yesterday I went for a walk with my dad but it did nothing. I just came back more exhausted than when I left...
Stress, yes I have a lot of stress. Don't know how I could decrease the stress without failing my HSC year tho :(
I'm at school, and after writing the first post I had to go to the toilets because the tears just started pouring out. I'm so confused and distressed about the way I feel, I don't want to feel like this. But I seriously don't know how to stop.
I can unserstand exactly how you are feeling.
If it IS to do with your period, then I have a little story;
I didn't have my period for a year because of my ED. When I DID have it before, I rarely had any signs of PMS or PMDD or anything. I was just as normal as I was when I didn't have it...but after that year of not having it, when I finally got it back...OMG...every single period since then, I've had the WORST PMS EVER! No lie...everthing you are feeling right now, I was either feeling just as bad or worse. I don't know why though...it's crazy. But I like to blame my severe PMS on my ED now. :( and my ED on myself Obviously; gah...so it's obviously my fault. arggg....sorry, I kinda had to vent too. lol.
hopefully you feel better though. I'm really sorry your feeling so down =(
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*bump* i ahet it when people bump their own postst but I am desperate for suggestions...
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Lord_xenu, I'm not sure what you were trying to accomplish with that post, but I don't think it was called for.
Coldthindream, I know exactly what you're going through! I wake up in the morning with this pit in my stomach, because I know that a day of meal-planning, trying to avoid binging, keeping busy so my mind is off food, and filling the hours with activity so I'm not sitting around trying not to starve or overeat is ahead of me. Every day in recovery is a struggle, and I don't know how much more of it I can take! On top of that, I have some times, usually a half hour or so, but sometimes a couple of hours, where I feel like I'm on speed. My heart races, my hands shake, my mind goes a mile a minute and I can't concentrate on anything. It's like the opposite of the dragged-down, exhausted, no-energy depression, but not in a good way. I'm either too tired to think or too hyped up to stop. . .and neither one is any fun.
I wish I had some suggestions for you, but all I can say right now is to check out the anxiety/depression tagged thread at the top. That had some good ideas, although I haven't personally tried a lot of them. One thing you could try is taking fish oil supplements. They're really good for your heart, and can work as mood lifters. But make sure you take them with food, because otherwise you'll get the runs. And um, nothing like potty problems to make depression even worse!
Best of luck hun, I'll be thinking about you!
Cold, depression is hard. Since you just started refeeding, its no wonder you are struggling. That's a lot of change.
Do you have a counselor you can talk to? How about your parents?
yes, I have tried to talk to my mother about it, but she's always too busy with the baby or work or just life in general to sit with me for 15 minutes. And when we do she's always got her mind on other things.
I haven't had a lot of luck talking about my feelings, which is frustrating because I was told by the shrink that I have trouble communicating - how am I suppose to improve that aspect when it feels like when I do talk, no one listens...
Thank you all for your wonderful replies (save for post #5) I'll be taking your advice on board xx
I read your thread earlier this evening, and have been waiting to get the chance to send you a little note on here.
I'm not a doctor, but if it weren't for the short duration of your recent exhaustion, it would sound to me like you have some pretty clear symptoms of depression. Wanting to sleep all the time, not enjoying activities as much as usual, and feelings of despair and crying spells are pretty typical of depression. The only thing is that, if you've only been feeling that way for five days, I'm not sure if your doctor would be able to make a diagnosis. I guess it is possible that it could be PMS as one of the other posters mentioned, but I've never heard of anyone experiencing it that strongly.
I'm 30 now, and I have experienced depression before. I think it's different for everyone, and each person needs to get to know themselves well enough to recognize their particular symptoms, but I'm 30 and I still have trouble spotting it.
I don't know what kind of medical services they have where you are, but I suggest that you get an appointment with a physician to get your symptoms checked. They have specific questions to ask to help them make a diagnosis, and maybe more importantly, they can schedule tests to rule out physical causes.
Whether what you're experiencing is depression or not, you're definitely going through a challenging time of your life right now. Going through the ordeal of anorexia can be very hard on your body and soul.
If your body is low in certain vitamins and minerals (B12 and iron for example), that can cause you to feel exhausted as well.
If you can't see your doctor, try to see a school counselor, teacher, youthgroup leader, friends' mom, or any other adult who will listen and take you seriously.
I wish you all the best, and I hope things pick up for you soon...
Remember, we only get stronger.
Hugs,
Mel
First of all, {{Hug}} - you need one.
Next, please, please, find someone to talk to! Your parents, your friends, a school councilor, a doctor... someone. I am not a doctor, but what you describe sounds EXACTLY like I felt when I was suffering from depression. Couple your stress with recovering from an eating disorder - no wonder you're finding it a little tough to cope!! (By the way: Way to go on starting on refeeding!!)
If you can motivate yourself to exercise just a little (walk around the block, jump rope, yoga, whatever), it will help. But I know it's hard.
We're here for you, but I really think you need someone in real life to listen to you.
All the best. You're in my thoughts.
Thank you all for the amazing support. I incorporated a half an hour walk and a weights session to my routine yesterday to try to pump my endorphins, it didn't really work. Which worries me because in the past endorphins was all I needed to raise my mood 
Anyway, I have tried to communicate what's going on with my mother and father, but they both seem reluctant to listen. They are both doctors so as soon as I start to speak, they start to diagnose "you're just tired"..."just another excuse to be unhappy, you have to choose to be happy" ... "we all feel like that, we're all tired"... "it's not big deal" - sometimes I wish they would just LISTEN and hold me while I cry. But that's never been how it works around here.
Wow. This has turned into an almost journal post haha
I've gotten 9 hours of sleep, 2 nights in a row - so I guess if I keep it up the exhaustion will eventually wear off.
I hope it really is just a temporary thing, because I don't like feeling this way.
