enough is enough. NO MORE BINGEING.

(edit: changed the name of the group, since everyone is at different days)

So since I've started using calorie counter, i've lost 15 lbs and I feel great! But more recently I have starting bingeing horribly, my stomach feels like a bottomless pit and nothing seems to satisfy me. I know how horrible it is, and the reasons why I binge(whether its emotional/life etc) but nothing stops me.

I have come to the notion, that I keep telling myself 'never again' although this just starts the bingeing cycle. The all or nothing thinking gets me everytime and usually if I eat too much before noon (aka over my calorie intake), i just put everything in and keep eating like that all day because the whole day is ruined.

NEW THINKING: I'm going to move on and don't let my overeating result in ruining the rest of my day.

I found this in another forum, and I want to quote it: it really pushed me to make this post :

"It's a misconception for us bingers that binging is inevitable. The urge to binge, like the urge to do anything else, can and will pass if we give it time. But time is also an issue for us. We tend to be impulsive by nature and once we feel we've hit that point of no return, we believe there's no sense in trying to stop it. Having said that, there is also wisdom in knowing your triggers and staying clear of them for a time, learning how to deal with your emotions/stresses in a more effective way, and getting support."

Anyways ANYONE who wants to start this no bingeing journey ...join.

WE can get through this TOGETHER one day at a time.

Original Post by loseweight1234:

http://www.gurze.com/client/client_pages/nl_e dt_3_4.cfm

Those articles and blogs are AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ahhh so today is Day 7!! wow one week, I just need to get through today!

Helionix - you are doing great, and excellent idea to plan before hand. How good does it feel when you have a PLAN and STICK to it. keep it up! One week down, and youre on your way to a healthy lifestyle!

Mikeiscool - 2 days!! Thats an improvement! Day 1 tomorrow, make your goal to last 3 days (min) and slowly move up from there.

Carleyrapp - Im glad you like the articles!!!! I have posted many when I first started this forum.  I hope those of you who have just joined have checked them out. They really do help, I promise!!

Anyways I decided to come on here, and write early on the day my goal to finish today. Because last time i was on Day 7, i didnt write on this forum until after i binged ....BUT I WILL COMPLETE DAY 7 TODAY!!! Anyways post tonight.

Its monday, another new week ahead! KEEP YOUR HEAD HIGH EVERYONE and have an amazing week!

DAY 7 = COMEPLETE!!!! YAY!!!! I finally completed a week without bingeing! And it feels great!

So today I bought some crystal light peach ice tea -- and I am obcessed. It tastes amazing!!!! And it only 5 calories!!!! I knew I shouldnt of bought it because I would love it (and i really dont need all that extra aspartame).

So how was everyone elses week?

Hi I have been reading this post a few days, and I guess I should present myself,

Today I had my first minibinge since August 7th 2008, I have been CC since then and have lost 24lbs and feel great..... so why? today? I don't know???

I have been in a plateau for the past 10 days or so and started feeling low about it.

My day started perfect but at 5:30pm got hungry and started eating 5 prunes, 14 almonds, 3 carrots, 3 walnut cookies and 5 amarath cookies (thats when i knew this was a binge) then i logged it all and saw 2100 cal, I was aming for 1350 cal today... I feel sad, and like a faliure, mostly I thought I had this disease under controll, after it had me controled for 2 years. How can i feel confortable and confident again tomorrow? I don't want this to happen again I want to reach my goal and continue to feel good.

Sorry about the rant but I feel down..

Thanks for reading.    tomorrow a new day.

Gterv - First of all, Congrats on losing 24lbs! You are doing great!
 The first step to this is identifying what started your bingeing. Was it an emotion? Such as boredom, sadness, happiness? For me, everytime I was happy, sad, anxious I would eat and eat. Had you ate enough during the day? Make sure you are eating enough during the day and eating frequently, so this way when it hits 5:30, you wont feel the need to eat everything in sight.
Another important point, PLAN YOUR DAYS, I couldnt stress this more. Have your meals, snacks everything planned out. Remember to eat a meal every 3-4 hours, and a snack in between your meals.

Once you've identified what causes your bingeing, you will be more aware of them and be able to control them much better. I have posted MANY artciles and helpful links and information throughout this forum. Make sure to go back and check them out.

Lastly, START FRESH TODAY. You binge, you move forward! You are doing so well so far, don't put yourself down! Keep your head high and welcome to this forum!!!!!!! We're here to support you, let us know how youre doing, and take it one day at a time!! Look how far youve gotten, keep it up!

Anyways on my behalf, today is DAY 8 wahoo! So pretty much the weather outside is HORRIBLE!!!!! Its raining, super windy and COLD COLD COLD. Unless it dies down, there is no way im going to go to the gym. (because I have to walk there). Ugh i HATE THE RAIN!!!! I went grocery shopping yesterday, and bought all these new goodies and Im pretty much at my calorie limit ahhh. And my boyfriend is coming this weekend wahoo!! Im super excited, although I know this is going to lead to major overeating, because we are going to be going out and making pizza/chicken fingers/fries in the oven etc. Ill keep you guys posted. Im going to have a snack then take a nap. Im soo tired.

post tonight!

loseweight1234: Thanks for the support. Good luck this weekend with your boyfriend! Continue going strong... because I've found that if I have a good week, I feel less inclined to binge on weekends.

gterv: Calm down. Breathe. 2100 cals is NOT THAT MUCH. That's how much an active adult should consume to MAINTAIN. Your body probably needs those calories because you've been losing for so long (24 lbs! woohoo!) and will reward you with an up in metabolism. DON'T FEEL LIKE A FAILURE. We've all been there before. Forgive yourself and start fresh tomorrow!

Day 9 today :D

binging sucks!! just binged 3 days in a row. i feel like when i'm at home and i start eating i just can't stop. it's funny because once i leave the kitchen i'm usually good but it's just leaving that i have a hard time doing. probably has a lot to do with the fact that i usually don't eat that much during the day. really need to work on that.

loseweight123 Thank you for your words! I have been reading and have read several books about ED and compulsive eating or bingeing, but unfortunately as you all know once youn start a binge its so hard to stop even using the techniques that have been mentioned. congrats on 8 days binge-free!

There is no weather that can keep me from going to the gym! lol  it also helps me avoid bingeing.

helionix I know 2100 cal is not that much! but when you have a calorie goal for  your day and lose control the way I did yesterday, its bad. not the amount of calories consumed but the way they were ingested and the type of feelings you get once it happens.

Im very careful to plan my day and eat every 4 hrs so I don't know what happen yesterday, also I zigzag calories, so saturday I had a 2000 cal day, eat abot 120 grams of protein a day.

 Also I excersise A lot. I just finished an IRONMAN 70.3 event october 5th.

Thanks for the support

Good luck the rest of the week!

and

Argh I went a week without bingeing, and was biking and running everyday. Yesterday morning I was 104 lbs, now I'm 109!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Binged after 5pm and binged this morning too. I feel fat and disgusting...need motivation on getting back on track :(

Edit: 109 might not sound like A LOT to someone people, but i'm tiny in height: 5'2" and when that weight is there as a result of a binge, the bloated belly and fat feeling shows.

Edit #2: Argh! Just binged on more food: digestive biscuit and those cheese bread roll things from Asda (about 230 kcal each)

:(

ahhh wow sorry i have been non-existent. So on wednesday night, me and some housemates decided to make a random road trip to fashion week!!! This led to drunk nights, due to the endless after-parties and eating out! Aka. last night i had a poutine AND a cheeseburger! Oh my..

So back again today, DAY 1!! Unfortunately, my social life leads me to max. one week without bingeing. This is obviously lead to nooo weight loss at all!

mjrules: remember it takes 3500 calories over your intake to GAIN one pound. Therefore, that is just water weight. Calm down, take a deep breath, you binged, just move on. Tomorrows a new day, go back to your routine and you will be fine!! You're doing so well, Keep it up!!! Good luck and keep us posted

Hope everyone is doing well!!! Keep it up!

loseweight1234, what are you defining as a "binge"? If it was a social night out and you thoroughly enjoyed that poutine and cheeseburger, I might not call it a binge, especially if you're beating yourself up about it afterwards. Does your weekly total still add up? Are you still losing or are you plateauing?

For instance, I went 1000 cals over on my dad's bday this week, but I was chewing slowly and really relishing my mom's delicious cooking. My weekly average still looks okay, so I'm writing it off as a cheat day. Calling it a binge would only trigger me to really binge (read: stuff my face with thousands of cals of mindless crap).

Helionix - GREAT POINT! and I should of cleared it up, because i personally hate it when people associate over eating with bingeing. Especially because so many people suffer with bingeing.

The cheeseburger and poutine was definately just overeating, i just wrote them in there to allow for a picture of my poor food choices. Although the alcohol + poutine/cheeseburger was an add-on to the second day of bingeing in a row, which leads to day 1 again. And yes it was a binge due to the fact that I emotionally and physically could not stop myself from eating 2000 calories over my daily intake. (not including the poutine and cheeseburger ...now I can really say oh my..)

And unfortunately I am plateauing, I do so well during the week. And kill it in two-three days. I know, horrrrrible. Bingeing has such a big impact on my life, and I am doing everything to try and stop it. This group may have been the best thing I have done to get bingeing into control.

And congrats on calling it a cheat day, I wish I had the power to do that.

Anyways thanks so much for allowing me to clear that up!! As it is 2:30am, Day 2 begins!

Hope everyone is doing well!! Keep it up!

Well I've reached my heaviest weight since last December:

110. 5 lbs this morning on my 5'2" frame. That's 7st 12 lbs for those who don't work in pounds lol. And It's officially day 1 of no bingeing. So far all I've eaten is a plum, an apple and a cup of (black, yum) coffee. I refuse to binge eat because it totally destroys my self esteem.

I just want to say thank you to the creator of this topic- I found it in my time of greatest need and it's so nice to know that there ARE other people out there in a similiar situation, but actually want to DO something about it and turn their life around. I will be regularly adding to the thread with updates, and I hope I too can inspire others to refrain from binge eating. We are stronger than this! It's all in the mind!

My goal weight is 100lbs. So in 10 weeks time possibly, I hope I can say "I did it!" :D

How is everyone else getting on? Also, I'm curious to know what people do for exercise, how many times a week and for how long :) x

day 2 = complete

mjrules - welcome!!!!!! We are here for you, and will help you to reach your goal!!!! You have a great mind set, keep it up and you can do it!
For exercise, I generally work out 5 days a week, 20 minutes on the elliptical, and then some ab work. Honestly, exercising is a huge motivaton and makes me less likely to binge!

New week everyone, good luck!!

Hi!

Well I have been binge free since my last post and feeling good! Planing my days and lost 2 more lbs!!

mjrules I hope that your food intake for the day is more than an apple a cofee and a plum if you restrict yourself and eat to little you will set yourself up for a binge. be careful.

For exercise I gues I'm not a good example, I train hard and daily. 2hrs on average.

loseweight123 congrats on 2 days!

DAY NINE. I haven't been able to say that since the summer, and the feeling of having control and actually doing what I say I'm going to do is beyond compare. It helps me keep the rest of my life in order when I can control this rampant disorder that I have. There really aren't any words for the feeling of being "free" from the binge.

No sugar crashing. No distended stomach. No short, rapid breathing, having to lie down. No puffy eyelids. No inflated feeling at the base of the jaw/top of the neck. No guilt, no shame, no disgust. No wanting to shun society and hide until you feel better. Or, invariably, just binge again.

Realistically, though, I know I'll never really be "free" from this behavior and I'll have to struggle with (and not against) it for a very long time. Controlling it makes me happy, yes, and I've lost most of the weight I put on as a result of bingeing, yeah, and I'm healthier and more active and I've toned up, sure. But is this all my life is about now? When I'd be at my lowest, after having binged and binged for weeks on end, I would think of how many problems would be solved by just having control.

But it wasn't true. The same old insecurities are all still there, and lately I've been enveloped in this feeling of hopelessness and just being lost. I'm doing this for myself, but I don't know where I want it to take me. Sometimes it's hard to press on when the daily triumphs don't override that overall feeling of confusion and despair.

SORRY to be a downer, you guys. I'm actually in a particularly good mood, I'm just reflecting on something I've been noticing for a while. I really wonder if anyone else has this empty feeling even after achieving all of their goals. I wonder when I will rediscover the life and the person that I lost to binging.

morining everyone, not a good one though, for me at least.  i lost my post in here somewhere. sorry havent been keeping up with this, so i binged last night and the night before and on friday.  i feel like shiz.

i'm starting day 1 today and hopefully i can carry it out until bedtime.

I didn't so much as binge last night, but after I ate a hamburger and fries (only thing I ate the entire day), I felt the need for a dessert a few hours later. Well, I took a walk with a girlfriend of mine in hopes that I would not eat the pie at all.  To my surprise, 1 pie wasn't enuf for me.  I ended up eating 3 pieces of key lime pie, my girlfriend only ate 1.  I went home and threw it up, but my girlfriend, whos almost 30lbs heavier than me, went to sleep with the pie in her stomach.  I felt better knowing that I would wake up with a flat stomach.  I haven't threw up like that in almost 2 months.   

hey bre, it seems like you're purging and used to do it too. you probably don't need me to tell you how dangerous it it but you did not really binged and you only had one meal yesterday so the purging was quite unnecessary.  i don't know it this might work for you but perhaps having regular meals will help with the cravings.

loseweight1234, I notice that you've already lost around 20 lbs - congratulations! You really seem to be fighting the urge to binge and are trying to live a healthy lifestyle, but I also notice that you tend to fall off the wagon a lot. Are you sure you're eating enough during the week? What are your stats?

mjrules, I agree with the poster above me. A plum, an apple, and a cup of black coffee doesn't sound like a breakfast. Maintaining a loss of a pound a week for 110 lbs, which is a healthy weight for your height, is very difficult. Your body's trying its hardest to hang on to those last few pounds. Give your body a break and don't restrict overly much, or you'd only be setting yourself up for another binge. Believe me... I've been there.

gterv, congratulations! Two hours working out is seriously hardcore.

mytenderoni, congratulations to you too. It's a self-esteem issue... remember that you are your own unique person, regardless of how much you weigh. I think it'll be easier after you've reached your goal weight to sit down and think "Okay, I'm done. It's over. I can stop restricting, stop obsessing over food, and just listen to my body and eat normally now." Take care.

helpless, let go of the guilt. It's a new day - start fresh!

bre137, was it really that bad? You ate hamburger, fries, and three slices of key lime pie for the ENTIRE DAY. Bulimia isn't worth it. Are a few hundred extra calories really more important than your overall health?

Stay strong, everyone