Enough is enough, please motivate me!

I've been through dramatic weight loss, days with undereating, and dramatic gains. Right now I'm in phase of gaining weight due to the overeating/binging habit I have. This has lasted for maybe 2-3 months now, and I really am sick of it (dunno how many times I've stated it). Though I exercise practically everyday, I still think it's not enough. I'm growing fat all over my body and consuming the wrong kinds of foods. Through the 2-3 months of overeating I've only been 18 days binge free. By binging I mean eating large portions in 1-2 hours up to 2500 calories. I haven't had a proper meal in a long time. I always tell myself that the next day I will eat properly but it never happens, I eat what I regularly eat in the morning and for lunch but once I get home from school I just eat everything in sight for an hour or two. Then I don't eat until the next day cause I'm stuffed to the max, along with that the day I binge I boost my exercise up at night so I make sure I won't gain too much the next day. I always feel guilty and tired after eating all that food. I know this is not a healthy way of eating at all and this is why I need help!

Yesterday I ate to 3000 calories or so, on top of that 980 calories of it were chocolate x__x I practically had no protein that day and I still exercised. It just started out at lunch where I made a bad choice and ate a muffin from Tim Hortons (620 calories!) knowingly...but without knowing it triggered me to eat all that chocolate when I got home from school. Today wasn't any better, gobbled up to 2300 calories and again 980 was those damn chocolates. I told my mom to hide them so I won't lose my cool again so now I can't eat em even if my life depended on it. (thing is I don't buy unhealthy food, my dad does). As a result I get really lazy and my marks in school are suffering cause of my slacking off, all I can think about is food and I feel very ugly. I can feel the fat around me and espically in my cheeks what makes it worse is that I have chubby cheeks naturally but now I feel the overeating is making it even worse now that I am slowly gaining more and more weight.

The only fact I know is that my exercise is not the problem, my fitness is great cause I exercise everyday between 1-3 hours (burning around 600-900 calories everday) but I'm eating the wrong types of foods. I guess I just get lazy since there's nothing in the fridge so I just grab whatever's there to eat, don't feel satisfied and eat more until I lose myself.

Boy, I've rambled on and I feel like I'm typing my whole life out but really need change my attitude. So, I beg you people of calories count, help me out will ya? I really need to get on track and kick this habit to the curb. My main goal was to lose weight but since I've developed this horrible habit, I want to get rid of it first and then  focus on losing the excess weight later on. My plan is 30 days free of overeating and don't count the calories, just make sure I get at least 1200 calories everyday. Any suggestions on what I should do and maybe some plans to help me stick to? Btw my stats are 5'0, 16 years old and probably 130 lbs now. (haven't weighed in 2 weeks) Please motivation!!

I am 16 years old as well. I'm 5'8 and 130 pounds. It sounds like what you need right now is some willpower and preparation. I store my pantry with healthy foods such as whole grains, fruits and vegetables so there will be no urge to binge or grab anth snack. When i really do want an unhealthy treat (I mean REALLY want) I go to the store and buy small quantities of it and savor every bite. I've found that having a six pack and a well defined body feels much better than a bite of the most delicious yet unhealthy food. If you keep your calorie intake to about 2000 a day you should be fine with how much you exercise. It just takes discipline which i know is easier said than done. Start by eliminating all refined grains and adding more fruits and vegetables to your diet. Also make sure you drink lots of water each day (you'd be surprised how well it keeps your hunger levels down). Hope I helped and GOOD LUCK!

Hey there, sorry your having a tough time with binging. 

I understand the whole love affair with chocolate. I find that for sweet cravings, fruit works really well. I have been buying lots of frozen raspberries, putting them in the blender with plain low fat yogurt and adding splenda. Its AMAZING! It tastes like icecream. Anyway, it's an awesome (and fibre filled) way to beat the sugar cravings!! 

My mom is the one who buys all the junkfood, were always fully stocked with cookies and chips, and it can be VERY hard to resist. Another thing that really helps me is buying my own special snacks, that way I know I always have healthy treats just for me^^ 

here are some suggestions I thought of for you-

1. Speak to your dad about the need for junk food in the house. Tell him you are eating it all out of control, maybe he can keep it somewhere else, or stop buying it?

2. If this happens everytime you come home, at the same time? Dont go straight home. Go somewhere else, do something straight after school, so that you arent near the fridge at home, thinking about what you are about to do. I am the same, if I finish work early, I come straight home and eat! So now what I do is put in extra hours, or go window shopping or go see a friend. It takes my mind of it.

3. Be prepared. Make lovely healthy tempting meals that will be there when you get home.

good luck

Thanks everyone for the suggestions and support. It's day 3 now and I'm getting better. Though I'm still having massive cravings to binge I find myself that I get satified just by eating normally (meaning no junk food). The healthy food fill me up and I don't tend to exceed my calorie requirements. The only problem is getting used to this and for some reason I get very lazy and don't want to exercise now. It's weird cause on a binge day I usually have tons of energy and it somehow motivates me to exercise more, maybe it's cause of the amount of food that boosts me up somehow o_x

gg80 I've asked my dad many times to stop buying those kinds of foods but he still buys them anyways. He just laughs and thinks it's normal for a teen to eat that kind of crap. But I have tried to substitute the fridge with healthier alternatives. And yes, it usually happens every time after school, I just eat and eat >_> feel like a fatty..
Thank you for the strategies, I think I'll get back to normal in no time :]

ughh, I've come back to the cycle and feel worse than before. My dad keeps buying the food and I can't seem to leave them alone. I try to substitute the junk with healthier alternatives but I always pick the junk anyways. It's driving my crazy, I can really feel my belly fat and it feels very uncomfortable espically when I'm sitting down.There's so much fat to grab really disgusting..
On top of that I'm getting rashes on my legs for some reason and a little bit on my arms. Don't know what's wrong with me and I don't know what to do..
I've told my parents the issues about food and weight that I'm experiencing right now but they don't seem to think of it as a problem. Today I just felt that it's normal to overeat but I know it's not..is this just a bad habit or something more?

come join the "back on track for good" group! We're all struggling with getting back on track and back down to our maintenence weights. we just post small successes every day and have found that they've led to bigger successes. and when we have days like what i had yesterday, (over 4600 cals) we really support each other.