Exercise & BMI & feeling healthy

Hy sweeties! I”d like to update my states: 169 cm, 48 kgs. So, Ive gained pretty well, and I know I have to... but:

Q.1.: I do power yoga every day (+be active all day) , mostly because I feel like I have to do this for my body/muscles ... now Im back to uni, being more active, and Im really tired (not lazy as ed says). Is it ok to not exercise if i dont feel like? I know its a stupid question, but im alone and have some uber crazy feelings...

Are you doing some exercises? Do you have similar thoughts?

Thank you!

I think you are still underweight so your activity is too high. Are you still eating to gain? I hope so, Regardless of weight bodies need breaks from activity. It gives your body time to heal and you will be less prone to fatigue and injury.

Thank you abbi, is it common the ”healthy enough to be more fit” feeling? i dont know, i had less energy, mood before, i didnt had these guilty thoughts...brrrrrrr, why it is sosooo hard?:(

No problem. I may be confused in your ? so I am sorry if I am off. Right now you are underweight so the focus needs to be to reach your set point range. Then there is time to worry about getting fit or strength training. I understand the guilt because I struggle with this but it is the ed mindset making you feel that way. Regardless if under or over weight this should not cause guilt same with calories and exercise. This does not make you. It is hard because it is recovery. It hopefully will get easier when you see that you have a bigger life without this. I wonder you said you are alone and having some crazy feelings plus you mentioned the guilt. Do you have a support system and therapy? Maybe if you identify some struggles you have it will help.

I said Im alone, because physically im alone, im back to uni, in another city, living on my own...without my best support, my family, and my therapy team (we communicate using emails).:( I know I have to be strong... Do you live alone?

i totally understand how you feel i have the same feelings but with help from my theapist im working through it .its definitely ok not to exercise you are doing to much . exercise is good but when used as mean s to maintain a healthy lifestyle ,to be enjoyed , not to be done because you feel you should do it . abbi is right the rest you can worry about later, while you are underweight you are just putting strain on your body. dont be scared nothing bad will happen if you stop i say this as i know how the ed mind works. all that i do is gentle walking . you have to remember the weight you are gaining is not extra weight its weight what should be there anyway. you cant tone up what isnt there. i really would suggest that you see someone. is there anyway you can get some help at uni , your health is the most inportant factor . i hope i dont seem like im going on at you i just want t see you beat this all my love h x

Thank You tessa, you are always soo supportive, hope you are doing well! Yeah, my real ”Me” knows there are some irrational fears, but sometimes need some encouragement...

P.S. Love Facebook! Abbi, do you have an account?

I do live alone and have since I was 18 pretty much. I am older then you 31 but do feel lonely a lot. Actually was crying about that today.  I am not into facebook but you can always email me through here and we can chat. Is there a way you could have a therapy team near uni? Do you friends at school or has that been hard? Is this your first year away? I hope you can keep moving forward

what is your bmi?

im at a bmi of 19, like 5-6lbs from 20, ive been working out 5-6/wk, 25 mins give or take, i hate it tho, i do it bc it allos me to feel more at ease about eating but i dont love it, i also dont want to have to eat a less amount bc of being inactive, during the day i sit at a desk.  idk how ppl do it??!!

agru: my bmi is close to 17...also, are we condemned to be so conscious about our intake for ever?! Sometimes I wish I could forget everything ”food related”, and just live...intuitively! I really hope this obsession will ”lighten” but it doesnt... really sad.

abbi: Sorry for you, sweety, your efforts seem really creditable to me!...idk, but alone it seems to be harder... I began feeling loneliness...i didnt really care until now. ”thanks” to my illness, I have lost heavily, good friends, relations, among others. I begin to realize in what misery Ive been living. I think this is the cruelest moment of recovery... when u begin to reflect on your life, and realize you have to change! Now I have time to reflect on many parts of my life, and want my old life back, you have to want it tooo, you deserve friends, love and happiness!

so im only 5lbs from a bmi of 20. ive been doing some excercise almost daily, but i hate it!  its sort of scarey, but im almost wanting to be a fat lazy girl bc im really not liking to work out.

but i like to eat, i do feel like its 1 or the other sometimes, at least to be able to eat a good amount.