Extreme binges (6,000 calories each) these past 2 days. i need EMOTIONAL SUPPORT ASAP PLEASE!

So I suffer from Binge Eating Disorder, but I have done so well this summer in losing weight. I am now relatively thin, but this past week, i have had CRAZY cravings, and I think it's because i've been depriving myself so much (i only would let myself have healthy things, but i would eye things I wanted constantly and I can't get food out of my mind). Well it took a toll on me, because the past two days, I literally binged on 6,000 calories each day at night before I went to sleep ( example:-4 slices of bread with butter, peanut butter and jelly
-5 Russian tea cakes
-2 Oreo wafer sticks
-Bowl of rice
-3 Mozzarella cheese sticks
-1/2 bag of dark chocolate pomegranate
-1 slice of pizza
-1/2 can of almonds
-1 Kashi Bar
-Salmon and Albacore Sushi
-Cheerios 

ALL in one sitting. and tonight I ate a whole box of Honey Bunch O's and Count Chocula with 5 Russian tea cakes (100 cals each) 

I am sitting here with an extremely swollen face, and in so much pain because of all the food i have stuffed into my body, i even cried. I am in need of serious emotional help right now. What should I do tomorrow and are all of my weight loss accomplishments comletely ruined? I know I have gained a few pounds from this binge, and tomorrow, i am just going to feel like complete ****! And I am going to feel full for the next couple days and extremely on a sugar rush. Please, I need help. What should I do and how should I overcome these binges so I don't go back into the vicious binge eating cycle!!

Take a minute and reflect... All your accomplishments are not completely ruined. Part of the reason we binge is because we put major restrictions on ourselves then when we break them we go crazy. Remember 6000 calories - burn rate (estimate 1700) = 4300. Since one pound is 3500 calories that is 1.5 lbs max. That is not going to undo all your hard work. What will undo it is if you say **** it and spend the next 6 months bingeing. If you're having trouble sticking with the diet right now. Give yourself a week or too off. Not completely off mind you. Just have a maintenance holiday. Things are not as terrible as they seem right now. What's done is done. Spend the next couple of days trying to curb the binge. Give yourself permission to eat 2000 calories in a day even. I know it's hard I just came off several weeks of blowing it completely. But after 3-4 days of dieting I found I only gained 2 pounds. If you can turn it around now you're at an advantage.

A question:  Are you in treatment for your eating disorder now?

If you are not, then get professional help.  What is happening to you is mostly mental, not physical.  It's not your fault and treatment could help you, much more than beating yourself up or getting advice from strangers on the internet.

Standard advice, such as planning your meals ahead and sticking to a healthy diet with enough calories and nutrients are not going to help because you may not be able to follow that advice.

I wish you good health and wellness.  You seem willing to fight for it.

Ditto to all the above, I'll Just add that sometimes it just helps
to have someone to chat too, especially when you feel a binge
coming on.  Ten or fifteen minutes is all it takes to get your
mind away from food.  The support from CC members is
unbelievable, I have so much help whenever it's needed.
I have added you to my friends list, please contact me whenever
you feel like a chat or have a question, If I don't know the
answer there are soooooo many others we can ask who will
be able to answer.  The best of luck to you.

Sometimes it also helps for a change of scenery. Go for a walk, go to the library, play tennis, etc. Break the cycle of where you are binging. Of course, getting rid of the junk in the house helps too. That way if you DO binge you are eating a pound of carrots or a head of lettuce! Oh, I also found that brushing my teeth after dinner stopped me from having another glass of wine... first it tastes yucky, and second, I am too lazy to want to brush my teeth twice! Good luck!

Hi. I can understand exactly, I mean exactly what you are saying.  It is not even that I have been so limiting myself with food, but that I have avoided a food I truly wanted for nearly 3 weeks because I know it is a trigger food for me, zuchinni bread, if you're wondering and then I have been eating on and off unhealthy for those 3 weeks now.  I would encourage you to breath first.  Take some deep breaths.  Believe it or not it helps.  Then I would remind you that you are lovable and you need to love yourself dispite your overeatings.  Beating ourselves up only increases our eating.  Think about how you would treat or what you would say to someone else if they were struggling the same as you.  I bet the words and actions would be a whole lot more kind and gentle for them.  I know there can be a 1000 reasons why we don't think we deserve the same kind and gentle treatment, but let me tell you, you deserve to be kind to yourself and to give yourself love.  I am in the middle of finding out what I can do other than use food for comfort, support, my friend actually my everything.  I am in couseling.  I deal with many health issues and
ADHD, co-dependency, PTSD and anxiety and depression, just to name a few.  I have learnt many of these things from my childhood, so I am searching for ways to nurture and comfort myself aside from food.  I am finding it is just too hard at times, but if I do the doggie paddle for a while until I can start swimming again, I will be okay.  Remembering what your goal is, asking yourself if eating that much really works for you anymore and how do you feel later.  Then breath again and start anew.  Remember you started anew at some point anyway, why not now too?  You can do it.  Also, if you have faith in God, say a prayer, HE will help you when you call, just pick up the phone called prayer and ask.  I will say a prayer for you too.  It may take a few days to feel like you are back on track again, even if you can change your eating back to healthy.  I would also re-evaluate how much you are restricting yourself, you may be defeating your own purposes in the long run.  I am working on trying to listen to my body and use my brain each time I choose to eat something, your body will tell you if you listen what it needs.  I think it all boils down to trusting ourselves, God and receiving love from God and realizing we deserve to love ourselves. I don't want to appear that I have arrived or know everything, just wanted to share some of the things that I am working through and how things have helped me.  I need the people here too.  Find support people, that has been huge for me.  I hope this helps, sending you love and hugs.  Bobbi Jo

Totally there with you.  I have the same issues, and i know how bad, guilty, miserable this condition is when we have our binge.  My best success comes from giving myself some of the fun/unhealthy foods on a regular basis.  When I try to limit myself for days/weeks at a time I usually have a day or two or three where I lose my mind and eat 5000 calories.  Whole jars of peanut butter mixed with honey or syrup or ice cream.  The key for me is to make sure I get some of the fun stuff some of the time.  Also for sweet treats try the following as they seem like treats and don't have near the fat or calories.  (Walden Farms Peanut butter, jellies, syrups.  Also Wheylow sugar, which actually has the taste and properties of regular sugar but only 4 calories per tsp.)  Respond to me and i can give you further info etc. if you are interested. 

Hang Tough!!!!

i finally went to a dr. for depression because my mindset when i binge isn't "holy crap this food tastes so good" its more like "go get another pizza burger because you don't feel guilty enough" so i finally realized that my bingeing (and this may be different for you) was my own form of self-mutilation. some people cut themselves, i binge. i thank God i finally realized this after gaining only 10 pounds literally from all binges instead of gaining 40 or 50. anyway i'm going to see a depression counselor and a disordered eating spc. starting next week. maybe you should consider professional help as well. *hug* it's chemical *hug*