from an extreme to an extreme -why is the relapse?

Just I want to vent :) nothing else. these days, I eat bagels, muffins, cakes, icecream all in one day. I have been eating like this for about 3 weeks. my weight went from 152 to 174. it is a serious weight gain becasuse of 5000 calories a day I consume.

before these three weeks, I was counting calories and eating 1800-1500 calories a day. all healthy and clean eating.

I don't know why I have relapses after three months of clean eating. the same thing happened last year. after 9 months of clean eating, I went overboard for 3 month and gained a lot of weight.

and no, I can't eat cakes or junk while I am dieting because I go overboard.

I just wanted to get this off my chest.

I know how you feel. I can't eat in moderation. I either follow a really strict diet, or I binge. Once I taste a trigger food (and everything is a trigger food to me), I can't stop.

Since ending a binge was hard for me, I try to focus on making my binges smaller. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't, but in general a 4000 calorie binge is way easier to recover from than a 30,000 calorie binge.

But I don't have any tips for you (if I could conquer the binge beast I wouldn't even be here in the first place). Sorry you're struggling, though.

To gain that weight and to go from either dieting, or binging on processed foods shows that you are rebelling against a way of eating that you do not enjoy enough; there fore you are not motivated to sustain it for your life.

The only way to stop rebelling against a way of eating that you obviously do not enjoy enough, is to learn to eat unprocessed, real food in ways that you enjoy.

People are designed to eat food in its unaltered state. If you learn to adapt to eating real food, then in time I promise that your body will not crave highly processed foods as much.

And when I say unprocessed foods I mean no bottled flavoring/ seasoning/sauces. Read ingredients. Most sauces have a lot of added sugar and additives; who needs that to flavor a piece of chicken?

Try to use olive oil, sea salt, vinegar, lemon juice and spices to flavor things like chicken.

Once you adapt to real food, you should be able to create meals/snacks that taste good enough to prevent you from breaking out and wanting to eat only processed foods!

I am the biggest sugar/fat addict, and I basically went cold turkey without processed foods. Now even a sugar addict like myself is satisfied on real/ natural foods! If I did it, you can learn to love this food enough too.