Falling back into bad habits - advice?

Ugh. So, I recognise I'm starting to restrict again, mostly from a "if you don't do any exercise today, you can't eat as much" mentality - my anorexia began largely due to overexercising. I just feel so lazy if I don't do a sizable amount of cardio each day, 30-60 or so minutes worth. Combined with stress factors (I have exams for the rest of this week, as well as struggles with my relationship and at home) I've been left depressed and not wanting to eat. I thought I was making pretty good progress, but I can see where I am falling back.

I'm asking for any kind of encouragement that's motivated others: books and websites that have helped or inspired you, how you pushed past that symptom of feeling painfully lazy and sluggish through not exercising while still shovelling the food in, ways you overcame your fears of having to eat a lot - anything that might help. ): I don't want to let myself get too far back into what I was like before especially as I have had yet to even put any weight back on. Sorry, guys. D:

LALA!  hi, i know we've "talked" on other posts so ill just add my two cents.  when i 1st began my recovery i did absolutely no excercise of any kind, i wasnt even allowed to walk my dog to the corner and back!  i had been excercising every day and taking "spin" classes maybe 3x/wk, and then i went to absolutely nothing bc i wasnt eating enough and lost too much.  after gaining about 10 lbs i began to walk maybe 15 mins 3x/wk just as part of my commute to school, nothing intense, not a structured excercise at all.  i was 5'4 and about 83lbs, i was a skeleton, it was horrible and any excercise was forbidden.  i know what you mean about not wanting to eat when not active, i still struggle w that so i still go to the gym, but what i do is sooooooooooo moderate.  i go on the elliptical=the leg only not the one w/the arms, and i read a magazine and hold on to the sides and go pretty slowly.  i do this for 15-20 mins 3x/wk but still feel "ok" and "allowed" to eat bc i was AT the gym.  its all mental unfortunately and that's what we need to get over.  i need to learn, as you do too im guessing, that most normal women can maintain at close to 2000 calories, w/o excercise.  we're not even looking to maintain so we're going to need diff amounts.  its deff all a head thing but maybe slow "strolls" would help.

Hi, here's a thought that helps me: your body actually needs some calories.. maybe you can start by mentally saying to yourself that you will try to maintain your current weight. Using CC, you can figure out how many calories you burn per day and try eating those, making sure you're getting all the fat/carbs/protein you need. Maybe you can try maintaining your weight for a while, just to get into the habit of eating right again and then go from there. Try eating lots of protein, they help with curb the appetite a lot. What I realized is that eating the right thing helps your body function well.