What do you feel like when you lose weight?

A couple of months ago, I was going to the gym daily for 2-4 hours a day. It was the summer and I didnt have anything to do since school had let out.

I felt really really healthy, because i was eating right and excersizing. I just felt GOOD. and although losing weight made me feel happy, feeling healthy was also an unexpectedly nice outcome.

Now, I have school, and a ton of stress and stuff. I cancelled my gym membership because I just dont have the time to go at all anymore. I've still been watching my calories (sometimes.. haha. im a total cheater..), and I gained maybe 2-4 pounds back. And I dont think that that makes a comparitively large difference. 

But the thing is.. for some reason, I like myself better now. I mean physically. But, Yes, I feel really junky since I've been eating deli crap for lunch on my school's open campus, and fast food for dinner.

I mean. I know I should be eating healthier. I dont need to be reminded.

I dont feel healthy, but I'm happy with how my body looks.

When I was feeling good and excersizing and watching my intake, losing weight.. for some reason, I wasn't happy with my body, or how it looked.

I always wanted to lose more. Happy that I lost 2 pounds in one week, but was just working towards the next 2 pounds afterwards.
I always saw that there was room for improvement.

For some reason.. now that I've gained a few pounds back, i like my body better now. Before.. frankly my waist and my hips didnt have a very deeming ratio. Now they do. Im more hourglass-shaped now. My chest is alot more defined than it was when I was losing weight as well.

I dont feel chubby. I weigh more than I used to, but the last time I was at this same exact weight, I didnt have the fat in the right places.

Is this wierd? I dont really want to lose weight right now, cause I'm afraid I'll lose the body shape I have now.

don't try and lose any weight! if you're a healthy weight and you love your body, that's the best thing ever!

i know what you mean though, when we diet we are so focused on losing weight, it's like we can only look at our body critically and see what could be improved. i think it's a state of mind. once you start maintaining you can kind of appreciate the bits that you like, because you're no longer looking at your body so critically. 

yeah thats so cool! i look back at what i weighed say a year ago and im like hey i wasnt bad at all..i think we go through hard times to appreciate what we do have.