Feeling Sad, Guilty, Hopless, and Useless again

Hi. I'm Ceelee. I am here on Calorie Count in my attempt to loose weight for health reasons. I am obese at 5'2" and 180lbs. I am also depressed, although I have not been diagnosed - frankly, the idea of it scares me. 

The first time I felt so depressed was in February of 2009, since then it has been a very difficult 2009. That episode lasted well over 2 weeks. I got over it eventually, but now the feelings of guilt (very predominant), sadness, hopelessness, and uselessness are creeping back again. They're preventing me from focusing on work and I am repeatedly driven to tears. *sigh

I am hoping that joining this group will help me feel less alone and hopeless than I actually do. I am also looking forward to better days, although I can't see any in the near future. 

hi cecily, sorry you are feeling so low. i have been watching louise hay on youtube for the last few days and it has really helped me. see if you can follow her workbook You Can HEal Your Life which has been uploaded onto youtube (its in 12 parts) and listen to the 101 power thoughts daily. i have found it really comforting. I have also struggled with depression for many years and have been trying so hard to fight it. finally i decided to see a psychotherapist which is something i resisted for a long time just not wanting to label myself depressed and thinking it would never help. but  after one year of it i can honestly say that it has been an amazing and indredibly useful process. It is hard work at times but i have learned so much about myself and understanding where my depression comes from and what has driven me down destructive pathways. anyway, if you can find someone you trust and respect then i really do recommend it. also i dont know what your diet is like or if will help but why not focus on eating healthier foods rather than actually losing weight. that might help. i find i can comfort eat milky drinks make with non fat milk when i feel the need to eat. anyway, i have found this website and forum really helpful and i hope you do to.    take care.

@abacusfinch - thanks for your response. I'll look into Louise Hay as you suggested. :) I am still scared of getting diagnosed though, but I will work my way there, I am certain and I hope that it does help. 

As for my diet. I am indeed looking into eating healthier and this forum is really helping me realize that I am not alone and that things will get better - even if that seems so distant now. It will be someday. 

Thanks for the reply again.