i did it...!

i had bread for lunch :)

 i know it sounds stupid but its progress (i think/hope!).  Totally scared myself off it 3months ago (along with other carbs).  Only had 2 slices of nimble bread at 50 cals each with tin of tuna and sum tomatoes but thats progress isnt it?

the thing is though, it took me alot of courage to eat it but iv just entered all my food im planning to eat for the day and it still only comes to 1,000-1,100 which i know isnt even enough to maintain...never mind maybe put abit of weight back on (i need to gain at least 7lbs to be classed as a healthy weight).

also, i was scared of bread etc because they are "carbs" (even though i know you need complex carbs) but yet i was eating pagen krisprolls and ricecakes and have just compared them with the bread iv eaten today and they are nearly the same in their nutritional makeup!

felt proud of myself for eating the bread but im now realising iv not actually eaten much more! i want to get better and im thinking i should try and have some rice with my tea but its scaring me abit...should i just take things slowly?

any advice would be greatly appreciated :)xxx

Hey thats great!  I remember when I started letting myself eat food besides broccoli and apples.  Ive heard some people say they add calories quickly and some do it gradually...not really sure what is best.  Ive been trying to add calories slowly, but am not doing all that great..but Im really trying.  Ive found sometimes its easier to drink calories so you dont feel so full.  Just keep trying to improve because Im sure what your eating is probably not nearly enough...but its a great start!  You gotta just keep telling yourself to move forwards and how much life is worth.  And seeing a nutritionist or therapist would probably help you a lot.  Good luck!

AHH doesn't it feel SOOO good to have something that you've been deprived of for so long?  I can remember eating bread for the first time after deciding to recover from my poor eating habits.  Then, a couple weeks later, I had a square of chocolate.  WOWWWWWWWWWW that was amazing!!  I think I have learned to savor my food, and it feels SO liberating to be able to eat normally!  My advice is to move slowly, but PLEASE try to get your calories up!  You will feel so much better and have so much more energy.  I think it's awesome how you can incorporate foods that you once thought were "bad" into a very healthy eating plan.  Maybe try making out your daily meals the day before and meeting your caloric needs. 

CONGRATULATIONS ON RECOVERY!

trust me, it's a beautiful thing! =)

How about some peanut butter or a handful of nuts?  Both are nutritious and have good healthy fats.

thankyou for your replies! i had a huge fruit smoothie last night too and some dried apricots but i did start to panic abit because i have no idea how many calories are in the smoothie! (it was made right in front of me on a stall but i couldnt calculate all the amounts of fruit quickly enough!).  I know its healthy etc but i keep thinking of all the sugar!

im taking small steps at a time and at the moment, im concentrating on having carbs with one meal a day...noodles with my stir fry tonight, mums making lasagne tomorrow, shes making a roast on sunday and im going to have a potatoe!

i keep panicking about it occasionally but i know i have to take control over those stupid thoughts!

oh and on another note i made a huge decision yesterday but its the right one...im leaving university! feel so relieved but abit confused too!! my depression and eating are getting worse being there, i need to be at home to sort myself out!

hope you are all well and keeping up those positive thoughts! xxxxxxx

WOW---that's a huge decision but it sounds like you are thinking smartly and it's FOR THE BEST!
Just to put in MY little story about over-coming fears of certain foods. I remember when I went out and bought raw PASTA (bought a very healthy, whole-grain spaghetti) came home,..and MADE MYSELF SOME!!! i kid you not I hadn't allowed myself to eat pasta/bread for DEF. over a year or more so it was-------I don't know what else to say but VERY WEIRD to be sitting there putting it into my mouth ON PURPOSE!!! I felt AMAZING! I felt like I was finally taking the steps to BEAT my anorexia so I can COMPLETELY relate with ya hun!
  a few of my OTHER food fears that I've conquered were bananas (they were too high in calories and NOW I EAT THEM EVERY DAY!!), nuts, cheese, bread, yogurt, milk and even salad dressings with CALORIES in them! ha ha :) Feels so good to eat like A NORMAL person again!