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tomorrow is always a new day, love.

people who don't have this disorder just don't seem to fully understand how mentally obsessive we become over this.  it's a hard road, and wanting to stop sometimes just isn't enough.  

but that's why you're in this group, and that's why we're in this group.  to support each other.  and the one thing i've learned in recovery is that i can be motivated all i want... but it really makes a difference having the support of someone.  someone to be there and to tell you why you shouldn't do this to your body.  

i came to check the posts in this group right now because I felt like I needed to purge.  I am currently almost 4 months without purging and this is a big goal... I knew I did not want to break it.  

I understand where you are coming from.  You aren't alone.  I've actually lost and kept off 10lbs since I stopped purging.  You just have to take steps, that's all.  

Just remember that we are here to help each other, and we are here to help YOU.  you can email me anytime if you ever wanna talk or need some support if you feel like you ate too much and need to purge.  it's all mental... you gotta start somewhere, ya know?  :) 

Hi my name is Cassie an i have had bulimia/anorexia for almost 10 years now

i am looking for a friend or someone who just get's me an understands the pain of this disease an can help me along with my recovery.

i feel so nasty but keep pushing to get better  i dont want to give up

Cassie, don't give up!!

I have suffered from bulimia for the last 10 years with random spurts of anorexia.  I definitely understand the pain of this disease and I promise, it will get better, you just have to let it.  I consider myself semi-recovered.  For the last 2 years I have stopped purging regularly and I am currently following a healthy exercise and diet regimen. Losing weight at a good pace, 1-2 lbs/week.  While I sometimes think this type of site can fuel the disorder, it at least helps me to severely limit my binges and it provides a good community where we can help each other.  

I understand feeling nasty, today was really hard, it is Easter, all that chocolate!  And I ate a lot!  I consumed slightly over 2000 calories today, but I didn't purge, I didn't exercise for 3 hours like I wanted to, I focused on tomorrow, it will be a better day and I will stay within my caloric limits.

I have done the whole weight gain thing and I lived, it didn't kill me.  When I first stopped purging, the bingeing didn't stop and so I gained weight, a lot.  But, I survived and people didn't stop loving me, my world didn't come crashing down, I survived and now I am working my way to a healthier me.

I was exhausted, I was so tired of being sick, of feeling sick and guilty every time I ate.  But, now it is different.  I have daily struggles, but it isn't every minute.

Sometimes you just need to focus on something else.  My brother and I made a pact that if he quit smoking, I would quit my disordered eating and since I have lost 6 lbs.(over 3 weeks) and he hasn't touched a cigarette.  Sometimes if you can't find strength within you, it helps to depend on someone else a little until you can.  (disclaimer:this does not apply to anyone with known codependence issues)

Ok, ladies, I hope I haven't rambled for too long and I hope maybe this has helped someone even a little.

Also, I am brand new to this site, so add me as a friend if you want, I'm lonely!!

A war isn't just one battle. Sometimes you win, sometimes you lose, and sometimes it's all about realizing when to retreat. Most wars will go on gor an undeterined period of time, and there are several crucial points in it.

I'm currently recovering from anorexia, wich was then followed by bulimia. You have to take each day as it comes, and try to find some way to reason between the two 'sides' of your disorder. When one side of me says 'eat nothing' and the other says 'eat three cakes', I try to find something in between the two.

Try to avoid calorie counting best you can, even restrict your time on the internet if that helps. I did, and being the news addicted person I am, I focused on that craving instead of the one that involved food. Try to distract yourself, and do the things that you used to enjoy. Disrupt the negative pattern, so to say... Read a book.