The Me I Was,

I used to love going to dinner, and parties. Now they cause panic and fear.

I used to love new experiences.  Now they don't happen unless they are planned to the last detail.

I used to have ideas and think about, politics, civil unrest, how to help the world.  Now I think about calories, exercise and how to avoid gaining weight

I want to be the me I used to be.   How was it so easy to fall into that obsession?   How was it so easy to get off course?  I decided to start paying attention to calories, carbs and fat.  And it seemd to take over my life overnight.   Why then can't I stop just as easily?

How do we break free from obsession? 

lots and lots of therapy, a nutrionist, a doctor, and extremely supportive family or friends..

it's a long way ... i felt the same way you do. i'm doing better now but still having lots of those thoughts. therapy helps a lot but the 1st step has to come from YOU.

good luck ;)

Determination, Hard work and perserverance. Its like studying for exams, and the test is life. You have to push yourself, to do things that make you feel uncomfrotable and that you dont want to do. Thats the only way to reach the light at the end of the tunnell.

Picture yourself standing at your front door. You are freezing cold and its raining outside. You have no milk left in your house for your coffee, but you look over to your friends house across the road and she has a fresh pot brewing and lotsa milk in the fridge. Her front door is wide open and shes standing there telling you to come over for a cuppa. But its pouring outside!!, there are other people rushing around in the rain trying to get home or on their phones telling their family they will be home soon for dinner. You really dont want to have to face the cold, and even though you have no milk in your house (and therfore no coffee!), you dont want to have to go through the effort of putting on our shoes and your coat, locking up the house and going out in the rain to make the trip over to your friends. But theres no other way to get the coffee. What do you do? Do you really want the coffee? are you willing to make the journey? or are you going to stay in your house, alone, cold and without coffee and go to bed, to wake up the next morning, still with no milk in the house?.

Trust me, the effort is worth it, no matter how much you doubht your abilities or quiestion the need for the effort, action HAS to be taken, and you WILL feel better for it. Good luck, and Best Wishes.

I know exactly what you mean! I feel like food has taken over my life! I can't sleep until I plan everything I will eat for the next day. I hate being so out of control = /