almost an entire menu?
multiple drive thru stops?
what is the MOST you ever took in in a binge?
there's nothing wrong with that anna, there's no such thing as binge eating when you're recovering! just make sure you're not restricting and setting yourself up for it. i was thinking about it yesterday and honestly, if i could go back to the first few months of trying to recover, i would eat twice as much. i can see now that nothing bad would've happened, only that i would've gotten better much much faster! with every gruesome high-calorie day, i could practically feel myself healing, and that helped me tell myself, it's ok to eat a lot, i need it. there's nothing harder than trusting yourself on that.
Original Post by skookum:
I think serious binging episodes come with guilt and shame. Sharing with others who have had similar downfalls alleviates some of those feelings. Also, in a sense, displaying a vulnerability can snap it into an outward perspective. With binging (not overeating) a person usually does so mindlessly. When the damage is listed for all to see, it may help the binger become more aware of the activity in the future. Just my guess. Hopefully no one will take this thread as "well since others do it too, I might as well continue...". That's always a bad mentality.
Re-reading this thread now, 2 1/2 years after posting, I almost wanted to take it down and/or say that I shouldn't have started it. I didn't want it to be any kind of trigger to anyone, or anything like that. But after reading everyone's experiences, and seeing them give thanks for being able to vent about it here, I'm not going to. I don't regret starting this because I needed to know I wasn't alone in the shameful cycle I used to take part in. I think it's part of my healing to share and hear others share the progress they've made and I hope it helps us to not go back to the behavior. For those of you who don't get it and make comments like, when I eat a lot, I rub my belly & pass out. It's not a big deal, poop it out the next day & start over.... good for you that you've never had to deal with disordered relationships with food, compulsive eating, food addiction, body dysmorphia, but that doesn't mean you should come here and be insensitive to EVERYONE else on this thread who has found it helpful. What's the point of even posting that? Thank you to everyone who responded as you are a constant help to me.
My worst binge is like HELL!!
It happened last summer where I diet most of the time. But one day my cravings really struck to the top! I went to the grocery store and spent $300 on sweet stuff like candy bars, jars of peanut butter, nutella and jams, pastries, cookie sandwiches, granola bars, loaves of bread, and a pint of ice cream.
Putting snickers, pb, nutella, granola bars and jams in one sandwich is insane! it was around 1350 calories per sandwich, and I ate 6 of that for my breakfast, that's 8000 calories for breakfast alone!!! I feel really guilty and sick that time, so I decided to sleep it out. When I woke up, I saw those box of cookies and bags of pastries,.....I go for it! and it totals 4000 calories for snack!! It feels like my gut is going to explode so I walk around the block. That time I don't eat my lunch, afternoon snack and dinner, ( I usually eat 5-6 meals a day) and go to bed at 08:00pm, I feel really uncomfortable while lying down on the bed. I woke up around 12mn to drink a glass of water but instead of going back to bed immediately, I raid my mothers food pantry and ate a loaf of bread a jar of peanut butter and nutella, cc cookies, candy bars, and a pint of ice cream, I don't count the calories but I guess it's around 10000 calories of sinful delight!
I gained 25lbs next morning and felt really guilty, but I immediately go back to my normal diet and workout routine. It took me full week to recover and lose all water weight! but sadly I gained 12lbs of fat. My face is really bloated, my abs disappear. I hope that it wont happen again
• one bagel covered in peanut butter
• lindt mini dark chocolate bar
• oikos greek yogurt and blueberries
• corn pops with almond milk
• sensible foods tropical blend snack baggie
• goldfish baggie
• mary's organic flax crackers
i feel so sick... why did i do this to myself.
ive only binged when i had an eating disorder and i was like 100 lbs at 5'6. now that i'm at a more healthy weight ( still not as much as id like .. around 110.. but i have a small frame to begin with), eat way more and exercise less, i never binge. i dont think i could if i tried, it would be so painful to my stomach!! i think my biggest binge was like 3500 calories within a few hours. (wouldnt eat all day then would go to a family party or something)
So, I have ulcers and a lot of the time, I get this pain that I can't differentiate from hunger. When I was younger, I didn't know I had ulcers and just thought I was hungry all the time.
I think the worst episode was:
breakfast: Mcdonalds big breakfast with pancakes (no sausage though - don't like it), yogurt parfait, 2 large orange juice, and a mcgriddle sandwich (picked out the sausage again), and an extra hashbrown
midmorning snack: 2 oatmeal cream pies, and a whole bag of donettes washed down by half a liter of brisk raspberry iced tea
lunch: a whole dominos medium pizza (jalepenos and pineapples - my favorite!) with half a bottle of tabasco sauce
dinner: 25 hot chicken wings and 25 mango habenero chicken wings from Buffalo Wild Wings with a side of fries
mignight munchies: half a bulk size bag (seriously, I got it from COSTCO) of tortilla chips loaded with mozzarella cheese and black beans and baked until toasty and melty and topped with shredded lettuce, chopped tomato, jalepenos.
I'm pretty sure that's a whole week worth of calories and maybe a month worth of fats.
But that was back then when I didn't realize it wasn't hunger. I don't eat as much these day :). I still enjoy sweets in the morning and spicy the rest of the day though. yummmmmmmm
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