So, facts first: I am a female young adult, still living at home. I am 5'7", now, 107 lbs. I purge (occasionally) and starve myself
I hate my body, face, the works. I feel like food is the only thing I can control, so u restrict a great deal. I feel like restricting calories helps me with my body image issues and my control issues, but I know it's not right.
Last fall I tried recovering with the help of friends (no family besides my sister knew). Things were going well until the holidays, then I relapsed, and that brings me to my current condition. I purged last Sunday, have lost a pound or two, started chewing and spitting again, and have been lying to my friends and my sister on how my progress in recovery is going.
I am NOT going to a doctor, I am NOT telling my parents. That said, what is some good, self help advice? Did any of y'all recover on your own from something like this? Thanks
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I haven't been to any specialists on nutrition or eating disorders or anything of the sort, I've talked with my family doctor about it but that's about the extent of my treatment. I am recovering but truthfully, I don't know that I would be able to if I didn't have anyone to talk about it with. My whole family knows and are supportive and I don't think I'd be able to do it alone.
Is it possible for you to see a counsellor? This would give you someone you can talk to in private about this. I know that might not be possible as you are living with you parents. Not sure if you are in the US, but if you are, then the National Eating Disorder Association has a free helpline you could call and would give you someone to talk to who understands and could offer further advice:
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I'm really sorry. I'm positive the community here at CC would be more than happy to help you in any way possible, myself included. Shoot me a message if you want to talk!