I mean I know the signs and everything of an anorexia, but everyone keeps telling me she’s fine just because shes at a ‘healthy’ weight, (18.6-18.8…)
My mom says she was just like her when she was little but shell see in the future that she just can’t lose anymore weight.
-Basically she eats approx 1200 (or less...) calories a day.
- she weighs herself every morning and she’s basically happy if she lost or maintained or so angry if he gained even a little
- apparently she’s always talking about dieting to her friend.
- right now were on vacation but at home she eats “brunch” : Half an avocado, home made bagel and sometimes smoked salmon. Maybe some wheat thins and yogurt. But then she walks to her boyfriends ( LONG WALK…) or she runs for 30 mins. + does all these exercises …
But her boyfriend tells me she eats with him, but I feel like because his family naturally eats really little, that’s why shes never at home so no one tells her to eat.
- she says she wants to be my size (I wore shorts for 10 year olds..) and she’s always staring at my theighs. She’s like watching me at every meal and makes sure I eat more than her. -_-
She has a history of bulimia for 2-3 months in gr 8 & 10 but has stopped. On her own.
But then again she eats fried foods, ice cream, and “enough” when we go out to eat. With her boyfriend she makes bakes and cooks food and eats it. I watched her devour Mac n cheese once for dinner. And she looke really happy (boyfriend was there) She also in the morning ate like 4 chicken wings, and snacks a little bit of crackers with gucamole and like half a french toast, and brings the rest to her boyfriends for him. like she wants to make bentos only for him and not for herself?..
So in so confused if she could have Ed as well. I really hope she doesn’t …. She’s going to uni and live by herself… My mom said its just a stage in life where she wants to be skinny and like a model. My mom also used I purge and stuff but stopped because she was scared of dying and loved food. She’s a snacked and eats a lot of snacks durin the day. My sister is kind I like that too where if you give it to her she won’t eat it but if you leave a plate of it on the side shell try it and eat it. She eats a lot I French fries and mc jr chicken from mc d… After we eat out she’s always exercising and I guess it’s healthy but idk it seems so obsessive when she does it..
My sister said when she goes home she’s gonna be on a strict diet and exercise and when I told my mom she was like she’s jut saying that if she’s hungry she’ll eat. Idk … I’m just so scared and worried, but also triggered and I feel like I look the same as her when she stands next to me. What do you guys think ? Do you think she has Ed or she’s just in a phase of a teenagers fantasy of being skinny? /:
Oh, and i did talk to her about it and this is what she said: " If i was going to end up like you, i would have a long time before you had. I know my limits, i don't want to be forced food with extra random calories of food i dont wanna eat, i wanna have good food like cream puffs and pudding. so if i leave crust of bread, or food sometimes you can't always get mad." that.. sounded and made sense to me but at the same time i fear she still had ed thoughts. i sometimes worry she still purges too because of her history ( which she addmited to my parents when i was admitted into the hospital) she's seen myself, and her 2 good friends go through anorexia, /: which i think has a play in the fact that shes afraid of getting caught by my parents? i remember long time ago she said " I WOULD THROW UP BUT YOU AND MOM ARE ALWAYS WATCHING ME AND GET MAD" s:
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