i decided that it could be helpful to have a forum for those of us trying to recover from this evil thing called binge eating disorder (BED). Whenever you have success... post here! Whenever you have struggles... post here! need support to stay out of the cookie jar?.... post here!
i'll be posting my intake of calories everyday in hopes that showing all of you what i eat will keep me from OVER EATING.
anyone with the same struggles??
Reason: moved to Health & Support forum
Well, maybe not ever ... but it's up there.
Put it this way, I've spent over £25 on food TODAY. Not even healthy food. Chocolate, oat cakes, crisps, bread, cereal and nut bars, sweets, ice "cream", fudge ... more and more and then some more.
I feel sick, sick, sick.
By the way, well done, marijoie. Nice to read about someone doing OK!
I have had three binge-free days which is the best streak in a while (sad as that is!) and tomoz I've got to get back on track.
How's come we all just post about our worst days, but never comment on how other people are doing? Or give them some encouragement?? I'm new to this, but noticed that no one said hello to me or welcomed me to the group. And trust me, i want to be able to post about my bad days, but i'd also like if someone gave me encouragement or told me "good job" on my good days. I'm not trying to sound mean, i'm just wondering why we don't do that?!
Anyways - i hope everyone has a great day. I know i'm anxious about Thursday - and basically the rest of the week too. I know there will be way too much food for me to consume. So good luck to everyone - just try to remember how you feel AFTER the binge!!
You're right, sunshine, we should all encourage each other! We all need support and if we don't give each other any, we'll all just keep on binging!
First of all, welcome!
I've been bingeing like crazy these days, this is why I wasn't posting. I didn't want to keep spirits down. My mother made a huge batch of candy (cream cheese, marzipan, powdered sugar and cocoa!) and I kept eating them. I also have leftover chocolate chips and I kept taking spoonfuls of them. I couldn't get myself to throw them away (I've been raised in a "think about the kids in Africa" manner and have trouble throwing stuff away).
I'm doing good so far. Here's what I ate so far today:
Breakfast: A pomegranate, half a cup of low fat cottage cheese with blueberries in it.
LUNCH: Homemade muffin (vegan, fat free and full of fiber!), half a cup of pineapple, half a cup of honeydew melon. Snack: 3 Kashi TLC crackers because my mother was eating some.(which could have turned into a binge but didn't. But I still feel guilty).
And I'm so glad to hear you're doing fine, marijoie! Getting rid of the triggering foods in your bedroom is definitely a good first step.
Dreamer, don't feel too bad about today, let's think about how we can all be better tomorrow! We can do it, yes we can!!!
Edited because I said dinner instead of lunch! That's a lapsus that comes from French since that's actually my first language!
Sorry. I didn't actually see your post. It's probably just because it was at the bottom of a page, I wouldn't worry about it. Though I think when people come on this board they're generally in a pretty self-absorbed state. Maybe that's just me? You're right, though, we should probably be a bit more supportive of each other!
You're also right about remembering how terrible it feels after a binge.
Hope you all do well ... and don't stress if you mess up a little. That's my problem. Today I ate 150kcal of raisins and a tiny nectarine which I hadn't planned for ... and felt that once I'd done that I might as well eat ... well, everything I felt like plus more. It's ridiculous! Ooops, sorry! I'm on about myself again ...
Hey guys - thanks for your comments! I live with my dad right now and well... we still live by eating day to day.... so basically there's hardly anything around the house. I always buy most of my own groceries. So since i dont have a lot of extra cash, i usually buy things that are healthy and can last a long time. But hows come when there's actually food around - i eat it all?!?! But it's not necessarily the good stuff, it's the bad stuff!! I'm worried because in January i'll be moving back with my mom.... she cooks all the time - especially desserts - AHHHH!! I'm hoping i can start making some things out of my healthy cookbook!
Another question... i'm sure a lot of you feel this way, but if you "mess up" and eat say a cookie earlier in the day, do you feel that you messed up anyways - might as well eat more or eat more crappy stuff? I CERTAINLY DO!! I'm trying to convince myself, so what - i ate 1.... now just eat better the rest of the day! BUT IT ONLY WORKS SOMETIMES :( I wish i could just eat 1 of something and be done with not. Not crave sweets the rest of the day!!
Tofufish: Good job on the food today! I mean, being healthy and all. Maybe a few more calories?? But who am i to talk - i'll only eat about 850 by the time the day is over... By the way - do you like tofu? I've been wanting to try it, but haven't yet. What do you eat it with? Is it expensive?
Dreamer88: Thanks for welcoming me!! I totally agree - usually when i come on here, i'm determined to yell at myself for all the crap i ate lol
I was hungry when i came back to my room, so I had a banana and a tall glass of skim milk (still good). Not in binge mode. Feeling ultra healthy and satisfied. But about 30 minutes later, I was craving carbs... so ended up eating just ramen noodles DRY, the package says 480 calories, but I only ate 2/3 of the noodles and without the soup base... so estimating 350 calories. then went ahead and wolfed down THREEEEEEE whole cereal bars (180 calories EACH!!!). And I am sad now....
And I am soooo tempted to not eat anything tomorrow to negate today's binge. Even if I manage to carry this through (very unhealthy, but for me, this doesn't trigger another binge like expected...my stomach is just growling the whole day), I will be cranky and grouchy throughout the day and psychologically affected.
AND I'll probably wake up tomorrow all bloated...and for me, the bloating predominately shows up in my face... greaaat.... =(
I really really need to stop this. It doesn't help that I live with a roommate that stashes junk food everywhere (she can discipline herself to portion control). When it comes nighttime, I end up eating her junk food, then sneak out to the market to restock her food. It's embarassing. How do people living with roommates deal with this?? It's not like I have the right to tell her to not have the food she wants just because I am lacking self-control.
HELLPPPPPPPPP!!!!! I need advice, especially about living with roommates who stash junk food. I am the type that doesn't eat junk food. I actually LOVE healthy foods..fruits and veggies. But if I know that the junk food is there, then I have to eat it. =(
Original Post by tinytot:
it funny... really.... i just had a LAUGH OUT LOUD moment.
i got on the site and logged my nectarine and the next thing i new i was thinking about eating more. i looked on this thread... i opened the newly restocked kitchen cabinets... i saw my all time favorite binge snacks (honey nut cheerios and peanuts)... i got back on this thread and grabbed a liter of water. now i'm literally laughing out loud at the fact that i was thinking about ruining my 3rd day of binge free for stupid snacks. i feel so great now! i'm so glad i didn't ruin my day for stupid peanuts!
i ate lasagna at the boyfriends house today. yummmmmo (as my 1.5 year old neice would say). it was meatless and made w/ reduced fat cheese. i got a big salad too. it's nice to know that i can use my calories on yummy lunches and dinners instead of snacks that make me feel yucky!
i hope everyone is having a great day so far!
First off i just want to say that I always binge on honey nut cheerios and peanuts too! how weird is that. Secondly, this post made me really happy and really motivated me. I recently started binging and i really have zero will power so to see that tinytot is really strong and can control her urges gives me a lot of hope! Thanks and keep up the good work!
so I ate a total of about 1100 calories of Honey Nut Cheerios CEREAL BARS last night...sigh... but when i thought about it, i might as well have ENJOYED the binge and have eaten a delicious Chipotle burrito yesterday night instead. hahaha. basically, the same caloric equivalent. -__-
So that is what I am going to do. Next time I want to grab those cereal bars, I'll just say to myself that it's pointless. I might as well have a bowl of noodles or something, which will not only taste wonderful, but it will stop me from binging because REAL FOOD is so much more filling and satisfying :)
That's the way to take it, hummus!
You did binge, but instead of feeling too guilty about it, it allowed you to learn that a nice meal is always better than tons of snacks. On top of that a meal will keep you full longer and help you not want to binge in the first place!
So don't feel too guilty either, insecure, all you can do is look at the future and try to do better tomorrow!
I had a nice binge free day today (so far!).
And I had a nice couscous for dinner (with eggplant, zucchini, onion and mushrooms... yum!) which was much more worth it than any binge.
What's silly is that I KEEP thing about those evil bags of chocolate chips that are in my kitchen. I can't get myself to eat them because my mother would notice their disappearance. That means I'd have to go buy some more, which would make me want to binge! I can't throw them away as well! And I don't want to ask her to hide them because I'm so ashamed of not being able to control myself.
Good part is that the craving is really not as strong as it was yesterday! Yay for me!
I don't think I can stop binging completely at the moment, but I'm going to make suuuuuuch an effort to eat better things. I've been eating up to 5000kcal in a day recently but I think I'm still deficient in many things and have never been more unhealthy. It's crazy!
I'm going back to the way I used to eat ... and if I gain weight ... then ... that's life! At least I'll be getting some nutrients etc.
I was up until 5am doing some work and kind of binged on 2 bananas and 500g grapes (an additional 500 plus ...) and this morning I've had a bowl of porridge, some raisins and a spinach, pepper and houmous sandwich all at once rather than for breakfast and lunch. I'll probably have a banana before heading off, too! I'm already over my calories ... and it's barely afteroon. But this has got to be better than, for example, yesterday where I ate chocolate in the morning, fudge for a snack, a whole fruit loaf just for the sake of it and then a whole pack of biscuits!!! The only halfway decent thing I had all day was some fruit and some oat cakes (which are basically biscuits anyway ... so ... you know). I don't even like sweet things that much!
Good luck :-).
Uh oh... not too many posts...
All I have to say is: don't feel guilty if you binged on Thanksgiving! It was THANKSGIVING for goodness' sake!
I haven't binged since the last time I posted about a binge.... but I have no merit, we don't have Thanksgiving over here!
hi, I'm a binger.
I'm young, 13 to be exact.
I hate this thing.
I binge everyday since I started. I dont think I can stop.
I've actually been doing really great for a change. I've been eating a lot of calories (probably kind of the key, I know), but not binging. My desire to binge seems to have totally vanished for now.
I wish I knew what changed so I could offer some advice! One thing which caused the shift was sitting down and really thinking about what I've been doing to my body for the past few months - the past few weeks especially. Also, I thought about what constitutes a binge and what is just greed. I realised that in a way I've been making excuses for greed by calling it a binge. I guess I took some responsibility for it all rather than just feeling helpless and powerless to change ("and then I came in and just started binging ... it was awful!" kind of thing). It probably also helped that a really stressful time for me is now slightly less stressful. I know it isn't easy to overcome this and I hope I don't seem really patronising here!!!
I'm sure this improvement of mine is most likely going to be short-lived, but I'm making the most of it! Today is Day #3 (might not not sound very good, but normally I can only go this long without binging by "fasting" or something!) and I feel sooooooooooooooooo great about it all! Ha, ha. A positive post!
Welcome to the thread, gloomy_bear (cheer up :-D)!
I binged today. :(
I ate a 40g bag of Cheddar Quakes, then a 51g box of Reese's pieces, then 2 Felix & Norton cookies = 727 kcals.
Not too big, but in one sitting, it is for me. No matter how big the binge, it's still a binge, and I was doing so well!
I'll just continue doing well from now on but I'm mad at myself nonetheless.
ETA: And then the evil "well, you already screwed up" mantra kicked in, and I screwed up some more.
I haven't binged properly in almost a week (since the 21st, according to this thread). More importantly, I haven't even wanted to binge! I had a bit of a slip-up on Sunday (hanging around cold train station ... hadn't eaten for 8 hours ... a flapjack was about the only vegan thing in the paper shop there ... and once I'd had that a peanut bar seemed a nice idea - 750kcal??), but that is NOTHING compared to recently. Probably a few other slightly dodgy moments, too, but I've managed to stop myself. Don't want to brag (especially as I have no reason to! LOL), but I feel pretty great about it :-D.