Thing is, you need to stop. With your weight as low as it is, you combine this with exercise and could die. Your heart could just stop. At any moment.
I’ve read your past posts. You need to make up your mind. Do you want to recover? Right now, you are not recovering. You are not in recovery. You are pretending. It is completely counter-productive to work out the way you do and try to gain weight.
You are not stupid, fat or worthless. You are in need of help though. Look up anorexia athletica. The combination of undereating and overexercising can kill you. Seek professional help. Talk to a counseler who specializes in EDs. Exercise is not good for YOU. Stop it until you get checked out to make sure you are not in danger of dropping dead while doing these exercises. More anorexics die of heart attacks than anything else, because not eating enough weakens the heart. Exercising makes it worse.
You posted about this exact topic a week or so ago stating you were afraid of it becoming a problem. Seems to me you've talked yourself into it really being a problem. I don't think you want help stopping. I believe you just want to shock people and garner pity. You want to complain about the burdensome qualities of the behavior but I don't sense any hint of you wanting to take responsibility in actually stopping.
Your parents need to get you into a contained environment where professionals will help you.
It's not an obsession, it's an illness and you need professional help.
This exactly. Lemonlee, as has been mentioned before, if you don't stop the exercise you could die. You know this, and yet your anorexia forces you to exercise anyway... This has gone beyond the point where you can recover alone.
Please seek medical advice.
Go get some medical help. I don't think posting here will help anymore.
I had the same problem a few years ago when I first became anorexic. What helped me break free from the spell-like compulsion was my stay in the hospital. There I was closely watched and had to remain in my chair or my bed most of the time and was allowed no more walking than the few steps needed to go to the bathroom. It wasn't easy, but I resolved to make the most of my hospital stay to get better. Given your low weight and uncontrollable urge to exercise.
Original Post by leopardess:
What helped me break free from this spell-like compulsion was my stay in the hospital. There I was closely watched and had to remain in my chair or my bed most of the time and was allowed no more walking than the few steps needed to go to the bathroom. It wasn't easy, but I resolved to make the most of my hospital stay to get better. Given your low weight and uncontrollable urge to exercise.
Ah, I'm sorry! I totally didn't think about the possible negative effects of what I said. How about I delete that part now?
You can contact a mod and request the portion to be deleted.
I think we're good now. Hopefully OP can read and take in what helped leopardess.