Thought we could all post something... I used to always shout at my mum 'i AM trying! i'm EATING SOMETHING.' But i now realise that wasn't trying, that was just eating enough to lose weight. So i thought it might be nice for us all to post one or two things we did today to challenge ourselves in our road to recovery.
i shall go first :)
today i challenged my ED by increasing my AM snack by 100 calories, having a raw food bar instead of oat cakes and apple.
Reason: Moved from Weight Gain to Health and Support.
I got sick recently (which has been VERY rare for me in the past few years), and today, since my voice is still gone, I'm allowing myself to drink hot-pepper honey tea that my dad made for me. I rarely drink ANYTHING with calories, or take ANYTHING that my parent's make for me because I still feel as if they add more of certain ingredients than they should (even though they've both been losing weight). I've been afraid of drinking tea with honey for years, but already I think it's helping me. And I'm allowing myself to feel okay and not freak out about letting myself feel better in a way that goes against what ED dictates. I've allowed myself to put too much trust in ED's ways of doing things, so instead I think I'm going to start listening more to the people who have and always will love me.
Stay strong everyone!!
Great work Kate!
I challenged my eating disorder a few days ago by going out to eat at Mcdonalds! A friend has been talking about taking me there since I was admitted into hospital and I finally got up the courage to go! I was extremly nervous, but I did it and am so proud of myself!
Hope everyone else is kicking ED's butt!
Thanks Libby, and congrats to you too!
So today my twin brother and I are celebrating our birthday, and I went out with him and got an X-large gelato (Pistachio, Coconut, and Monkey Business [chocolate w/ bananas and toasted almonds]). I don't think I'll eat the whole thing (I gained enough weight this summer to be healthy), but just the fact that I'll eat any, and choose flavors around him makes me feel more like my younger happier self :D And I feel okay about that, instead of over indulgent, and thus filled with shame. I'm so sick of all these ads where women talk about how GUILTY they feel for eating something. It promotes such a sick mindset... Keep fighting, everyone!
Today I didn't exercise besides walking around at a childrens fair with my bestfriend and her mom. I didn't have my usual oatmeal for breakfast(had special k cereal with 2% milk!!!) Had a sugary/creamy iced coffee, and had a piece of homemade yummy fudge.
I also went out to eat and shared an appetizer of these fried onion things with horseradish sauce! so many challenges in one day and i feel so good! :)
I also had 2 big bowls of regular icecream last night! (moosetracks and banana pudding) w/ choc fudge with my friend! Usually i only eat frozen yogurt/low calorie/no sugar added icecream.
I threw my food scale in the garbage, no longer weighing food! I also had peanut butter! (one of my BIGGEST fear foods)
I've increased to eating at LEAST my BMR (I'm tall, so it's pretty high!), basically doubling my intake. I've also re-introduced starches and grains into my diet. I'm eating 5-6 small meals a day and attempting to make my counts for fruits, veggies, grains, protiens, dairy and (eeks) fats. I'm making mistakes, and sometimes I don't do the right thing, but I'm trying and thats all that matters. I did badly yesterday and woke up today and instead of going right back to ed, I got a bowl of greek yogurt with a half an apple and berries, and had the other half of the apple with 2 tbsn of peanut butter. I do feel guilty, but I'm learning to sit with it. :)