No you are not developing an eating disorder.
You have one.
How would you define an eating disorder? What would you have to be doing, in your opinion, differently, in order to fall into the eating disorder category?
What do you think of people who have eating disorders?
Is there any way out?
Its is my belief that if you have to ask, then you already know the answer, and the answer is yes.
DSM diagnostic criteria for anorexia are:
- Refusal to maintain a body weight that is at or above the minimum normal weight for your age and height
- Intense fear of gaining weight or becoming fat, even though you're underweight
- Denying the seriousness of having a low body weight, or having a distorted image of your appearance or shape
- In women who've started having periods, the absence of a period for at least three consecutive menstrual cycles
Per your posting history and what you've written here, You meet all these criteria. If you didn't have an eating disorder, why would you feel panicky eating large meals? If you didn't have an eating disorder, why would you not see a problem with being underweight? at what point, in the entirety of human history, has being underweight ever been a good thing to aspire to?
Being underweight is a problem, you can become just as sick being underweight as you can morbidly obese. There is nothing good or worth while about being underweight, unless you enjoy weakness, anemia, lanugo (fuzzy hair all over your body) brittle bones, endless cold, thin hair, infertility, etc.
There are also other eating disorders besides anorexia go to somethingfishy.org to see.
furthermore, there is no "anorexia" level of intake calories. Starvation, yes. If you are eating 1200 calories as a very active, borderline underweight 15-year-old, you are eating at starvation levels. This is what happens when you starve (note: this happens overtime with continuous under-eating)...
Adequate nutrition has two components, necessary nutrients and energy in the form of calories. It is possible to ingest enough energy without a well-balanced selection of individual nutrients and produce diseases that are noticeably different from those resulting from an overall insufficiency of nutrients and energy. Although all foods are a source of energy for the human body, it is possible to consume a seemingly adequate amount of food without getting the required minimum of energy (calories).
Since the body will combat malnutrition by breaking down its own fat and eventually its own tissue, a whole host of symptoms can appear. The body's structure, as well as its functions, are affected. Starved adults may lose as much as 50% of their normal body weight. Characteristic symptoms of starvation include:
- shrinkage of such vital organs as the heart, lungs, ovaries, or testes, and gradual loss of their functions
- chronic diarrhea
- reduction in muscle mass and consequent weakness
- lowered body temperature combined with extreme sensitivity to cold
- decreased ability to digest food because of lack of digestive acid production
- irritability and difficulty with mental concentration
- immune deficiency
- swelling from fluid under the skin
eating disorders are a lot more than just loosing too much weight. are you scared to gain to a normal amount? are you developing obsessive habits around food? do you want to lose more weight? etc. these are problems, if you feel like you can relate to these issues then you should seek help, if not then gain weight by eating more.
it certainly isn't normal to keep track of so much numbers. :/ you're worrying/obsessing too much.... the solution is easier said than done, but its mainly up to you whether or not you want to start living rather than being stuck in this frame of mind.
Hi there. I hope you are well today! Thanks for your support on my log. It's really nice to have a thumbs up greet me in the morning.
Now on to your question. The fact you have to ask, is a sign. The fact you don't get your period regularly at age 17 is the second, and larger sign. BMI is not the holy grail. What is "normal" for one person is not "normal" for another because it doesn't take into account a trillion variables such as frame, muscle mass, genetics, etc. I was at a "healthy BMI" but I was suffering from seriously disordered eating.
If you are still losing, then you need to either up your calories or cut back on exercise. If doing so is impossible because you feel "anxious" and worry that you'll gain, then you need to seek a little professional guidance. Either a nutritionist, a personal trainer, or a counselor. The nutritionist would be able to help you craft a meal plan that keeps you lean but is nourishing. The PT would be able to tell you how much exercise you really need (2 hours is way too much in one setting and a third sign...you can get an efficient workout in 1). The counselor would be for if you really seriously think you are going down the ED path.
Don't get sucked in. You are so young and believe me, when you are focused or side-tracked by an eating disorder, life passes you by. Quickly. It's not fun. You dont want to look back on life in 20 years and see that your identity was based on eating or not eating and exercise. It's not a fun place to be...trust me!
Keep eating healthy foods and exercise as needed. Don't obsess. Don't fixate. And if you are...talk to a professional.