ED Questions

I have been reading through posts and messages almost daily on here. I am not sure where to turn to next. I have been researching EDs and I know I deff have one I just have been in denial for 9yrs. I am 22 and in college. Recently I have been noticing things with my body. I have extreme heart burn all the time it feels like, along with having a hard time catching my breath, headaches, mood swings,always cold, the list could go on. I havnt been to the doctor or dentist in years, but working on getting insurance so hopefully soon I can go. ( all this stuff is making me a little nervous of what is going on with my body) What I'm afraid of most is judgment from people- I know that's rediculous but I am. I am a helper, I love to help people in every way I can, and I don't judge them. I hate being judged, and it's part of the reason that has prevented me from moving forward and getting help- rediculous I know but it's the truth. Absolutly no one knows, and this is the first time I have ever said or written anything about it. How did you guys get help, or even tell people, like your family. And how did you face it after you told them- currently I live back with my mom, but I'm getting my own place at the end of summer, and lately we butt heads and fight all the time- and that is not the relationship we have at all. I'm so ready to be over ED, I want to be able to talk about it, because right now I dont at all.Any suggestions or feedback is appreciated!! Thanks in advance! :)

Hey :)

I have been through exactly where you are now before and i was exactly like you. I was so scared of what other people would think of me and i thought my mum would hate me and never want to talk to me again. I suggest talking someone you are close to. Mabye someone at college. Like a counceler or something? I don't know if your college has anyone like that but at my school i know we have loads of child support people. When i first told a teacher what was going on i felt SO much better. Like a huge weight had been lifted of my shoulders. I diden't really think it was a big deal at the time though so when the teacher urged me to tell my mum what was going on, i still kept it from her. So in the end my teacher told my mum what had been going on and i had to go to the doctors. They then referd me straight away to an ED clinic.

I know it is scary first telling someone but the first step to recovery is realising you have got a problem. So you are almost there. Now you just have to tell someone about it and go to the doctors. The doctor will basicaly ask you a bunch of questions and weigh you so they know what condition you are in.

I really hope you get the help you deserve and you can pm me anytime you wish xxx

Admitting you might have a problem is a step in the right direction.  If you are in college, most schools have a medical clinic for the students and I am pretty sure they are willing to make arrangements for students without insurance.  I guess I would start with a medical doctor evaluation and then move on to a counseling type of evaluation.

Believe me when I say, I know exactly what you are talking about.  It has taken me over 20 years to admit I had an eating disorder.  You would be surprised by how many people use food as their drug of choice or use it to control some aspect of their lives when they feel they have no other control.

If you get help now, you could avoid what I had to go through for 20 years until I got help.

We just live one minute, one hour, one day at a time.