I have been through exactly where you are now before and i was exactly like you. I was so scared of what other people would think of me and i thought my mum would hate me and never want to talk to me again. I suggest talking someone you are close to. Mabye someone at college. Like a counceler or something? I don't know if your college has anyone like that but at my school i know we have loads of child support people. When i first told a teacher what was going on i felt SO much better. Like a huge weight had been lifted of my shoulders. I diden't really think it was a big deal at the time though so when the teacher urged me to tell my mum what was going on, i still kept it from her. So in the end my teacher told my mum what had been going on and i had to go to the doctors. They then referd me straight away to an ED clinic.
I know it is scary first telling someone but the first step to recovery is realising you have got a problem. So you are almost there. Now you just have to tell someone about it and go to the doctors. The doctor will basicaly ask you a bunch of questions and weigh you so they know what condition you are in.
I really hope you get the help you deserve and you can pm me anytime you wish xxx
Admitting you might have a problem is a step in the right direction. If you are in college, most schools have a medical clinic for the students and I am pretty sure they are willing to make arrangements for students without insurance. I guess I would start with a medical doctor evaluation and then move on to a counseling type of evaluation.
Believe me when I say, I know exactly what you are talking about. It has taken me over 20 years to admit I had an eating disorder. You would be surprised by how many people use food as their drug of choice or use it to control some aspect of their lives when they feel they have no other control.
If you get help now, you could avoid what I had to go through for 20 years until I got help.
We just live one minute, one hour, one day at a time.
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