Did I really gain 8 lbs in 4 days? I feel like I've relapsed (ED).
So, it took about 2.5 weeks to lose 6 of the 10 lbs I gained in 2 months. And then I went on my family reunion- didn't count calories. Pretty much ate what I wanted. Too much. But goodness, I didn't think I ate THAT much! I may have binged but I'm not very sure.
Anyway, this is really getting to me. Starting to have more anxiety over food. Feeling the urge to binge and the urge to restrict. Also, having panic attacks about eating food without knowing the calories. This afternoon my neighbor pretty much forced this cheesy dish down my throat. I won't lie- I tried to throw it up but was unsuccessful.
Anyway, I've been seeing a psychiatrist and I do not want to tell her about me trying to purge. I'm embarrassed! And I know this is silly- but I'm afraid she's going to see the weight I've gained. Most people don't see it, but I feel like I do. Even the 8 lbs I gained in only 4 days. I can see it! Are my eyes and mind playing tricks on me? Or was I really that much of a pig? Anyone else ever feel this way?
I don't think you ate that much. Eight pounds in 4 days would mean 7000 calories above what you need each and every day to live. That would be pretty tough to do. Like 8000+ calories every day tough. Give yourself several days - maybe even a couple of weeks - to see if things level off before you tell yourself you actually gained that much (which I highly doubt you did). I know I can have large spikes in my weight after a single day of excessive indulgence, and it sometimes takes a few days for my body to get back to its usual weight.
Also, if you think it would help, talk to your psychiatrist. She's there to help - not to look down on you. Tell her about your anxiety and all. Hopefully she can help. :)
Water weight.
Agreed, is almost impossible to gain that much if you are watching what you eat.
My doctor explain it to me, you can weight yourself everyday; because the body can hold water some days and have a direct affect on your weight. Specially if you are eating healthy all week long and then taking a day off. This sounds weird, but drink more water continue on your weight loss plan and check your numbers again.
that's the problem with weighing too often, especially after a party. All you see is the water weight. The food you ate at the party was probably saltier than you normally eat or is laden with artificial flavors and stuff. the body reacts to that.
Drink more water than normal (at least 2,5 liters - 10 cups) and give it a few days.
Jo
Original Post by neltuneliel:
Anyway, I've been seeing a psychiatrist and I do not want to tell her about me trying to purge. I'm embarrassed! And I know this is silly- but I'm afraid she's going to see the weight I've gained. Most people don't see it, but I feel like I do. Even the 8 lbs I gained in only 4 days. I can see it! Are my eyes and mind playing tricks on me? Or was I really that much of a pig? Anyone else ever feel this way?
I feel this way EVERY time I overeat. It's really miserable to be so dependent on the scale and what you think you see in the mirror. The embarrassment part, I can completely relate. Before I actually knew how to eat, I'd gain a few here and there and totally freak out about it because I was afraid other people could see that I got fat as the result of my "dieting." Made me feel ashamed and embarrassed.
Just don't give up. Keep pushing yourself to eat healthier or incorporate some form of exercise. Most of all, just STAY CALM. :) I promise it'll be okay. Relax a little and don't freak out the next time you have a slip up. Recognize that mistakes happen and it's not the end of the world! Everyone messes up.
Anyways, good luck to you darling!
Thank guys, I was seriously freaking out. And sorry for replying so late- I've been super busy.
@cupcake45, armandounc, designjinx, jcbolt
You guys are right- I need to give it time for the water weight to go decrease. I'm just so devastated because my clothes aren't fitting. And I will see my psychiatrist tomorrow- boy are we gonna have a long session!
@xolaylabug
Thanks for understanding. I'm really trying not to give up. Every day is a struggle. Yesterday, at a pretzel stand, I freaked out because my boyfriend refused to ask them not to dip the pretzel in butter. He said a pretzel is pointless without butter- and yea, maybe he's right. So I'm upset that I stopped myself from having a delicious pretzel. Anyway, I will work on finding a balance between eating healthily and treating myself.
Thanks again!
