Sorry for the rant. That's all this really is.
I just ate a nice, balanced breakfast of 2 eggs, 1 whole wheat english muffin, 1 banana, and 1 glass of soy milk.
Then I binged. A lot. I had another banana, poured myself an extra large bowl of honeycomb, had 8 peanut butter crackers with honey and apple butter, microwave pancakes made out of bisquick and corn syrup, about 10 spoonfuls of peanut butter, x-large bowl of reese's puffs, like 1/2 block of colby jack cheese.
I spit up (unintentionally) at least four times.
Then 30 minutes later had: 1/2 grapefruit, bbq sauce and crackers, melted cheese on tortilla chips with salsa,
and spit up again.
I feel awful, I can't do this anymore. I rarely enjoy eating healthy food, and I can't control myself when allow myself to eat junk food. It just isn't fair. I've lost all motivation, and given up on the idea of weight loss because I'm afraid that I'll just binge and end up right back where I started.
what is your typical calorie intake. what is your weight and are you trying to maintain or lose.
and what do you mean by you 'spit up'. babies spit up, as a result of an underdeveloped muscle at the top of their tummy. do you regurgitate or do you vomit from being so full. and do you induce either?
edit to add; i just read some other of your posts. clearly there is a problem here. i think you shud consider medical and therapeutic intervention. you have put your body through a lot and it seems you are not coming out of it easily...
hey hun! This is such a horrible problem, I have bingeing issues too (I just read one of your old posts and I have never been bulemic but I do overexercise sometimes) so just know you are not alone (that always makes me feel a little better!) I was doing well all last week, then starting on thursday I just got so hungry it was like I couldn't eat enough food. I work out alot and I don't time my runs anymore because my watch broke so I'm thinking I'm burning off more than I know. Anyway, I binged yesterday (Sat.) and woke up still really hungry today. I starting bingeing again, and then I called my mom. She told me to get out of the house, which I did after eating another bagel :(. Anyway, I ended up working out for awhile because it was just such a relief, and now I actually have a deficit for today. So I read you don't work out much, and obviously I don't think you should go over board, but maybe you could try incorporating 30-60 minutes of exercise in daily. After my run/gym session, my head feels so much clearer and my body feels better too. Maybe it will help you a little to just go out and move around a bit when you want to binge or even after you start a little. Not even for the calorie burn, but for the mental and physical health part of it. I've been really just trying to make as many improvements as I can, and not get too down on myself when I slip up a little. Like even when I do binge, I try to get a workout in and cut it down as much as I can. I'm about your height too, and around 113 and want to lose a few.
Oh another thing, when I try to eat too healthfully, I binge. Like when I'm trying to perfectly balance my veggies and fruits and lean meats and all of that, it doesnt really work for me (I know it does for some other people-but I like real people food and junk food haha). I do better just trying to eat normal portions of what I enjoy. I'm trying not to vigorously count calories anymore either b/c I tend to undereat and binge. But I'm like you and really don't want to gain weight, so its hard to not count.
I read a book that says to schedule out 3 meals and 2 snacks a day, at prescribed times and stick to it (not calorie counting). You can eat what you want, just not overdo it (have others help you with deciding on what a normal portion size it). I'm having a hard time doing it though. 5 times a day is alot of times for me to eat so I'm working on 3 meals and 1 snack.
Number one though brush it off the best you can, finish out the day well, and remember tomorrow's a new day. Start fresh right now. I always do better when I'm positive then when I dwell on my binges. Sorry this is so long, I just know how awful this is to deal with! Good luck I hope the nutritionist is helpful...let me know what they say!
If you have a problem eating completely "healthy", then don't. Incorporate "healthy" with "junk." For example, have your bowl of sweet cereal but put sliced fruit on it. Have a PB, jelly and banana sandwich for lunch with a bag of chips and some baby carrots or an apple. It does not have to be all or nothing.
If that doesn't help, then get a professional.
Not all people are the same so I can only speak for myself here. When I experience things like that I take it as my body trying to tell me something. It's telling me something is missing. I am low on a nutrient of some kind. The problem is, I don't know exactly what... I watch my sugar intake so I don't spike my insulin levels and I take multi-vitamins, B Vitamins, and Acai daily in hopes of keeping my body from entering the state you have just described.
Have you just recently started dieting? i.e. Any sudden changes in your diet? The other BIG question is, how long after breakfast did the binge start? 1 hour, 2, 3 or more hours? I'd like to know if you don't mind posting the details.
Take a look at what you're eating to help find clues as to what your body is trying to tell you. It sounds to me like your blood sugar is out-of-control. The list of foods you binged on are all high in carbs and sugars. If that's the case, then that's the craving you need to control though smart dieting. Not just dieting, smart-dieting. Anticipate the craving for something sweet and subistute a healthy sweet before it becomes a problem. Add something like fruit yogurt, apples, pinnaple, etc. A good diet is all about balance, both mental and physical.
You should consider what the above posts have mentioned and another factor that may contribute to your binging is boredom! I know that when I'm bored, I'm more inclined to eat more just to give myself something to do. I don't know what your exact situation is but be sure not to deprive yourself of essential nutrition; it only leads to more binging ! I hope everything works out for you and you find and relinquish your root of all binging evil! FOOD IS GOOD!
Eggs always make me want to eat something sweet! Another food is oatmeal. I could eat everything in sight.
I recently found out that I am allergic to eggs and wheat. Now that I eat egg free, I don't binge after breakfast. I also found out that oatmeal is usually contaminated with wheat. I can eat gluten free oats and they don't bother me.
It is a hard battle when food fights your body. Good luck!