I'm not going to purge. I already told myself I wasn't going to do that anymore. I'm freaking out. I've already gained 2 pounds and now I messed it up and ate 1,400 calories! I will admit I'm pretty sure I binged because I fasted for 2 days ):
I'm really scared the weights going to be piling on and I'm going to look obese by friday..
Ok. Breathe. Now listen: 1400 calories is NOT a binge. 1400 is far less than you should be eating every day.
"I'm really scared the weights going to be piling on and I'm going to look obese by friday.." This is not you. This is your eating disorder speaking. I totally understand because I alwaaays had thoughts like this, but it's important that you can make the distinction. And honestly, you know you should not be fasting. Have you ever considered recovery?
Your profile says you are trying to overcome anorexia -- if this is true, you are not anywhere near recovery -- and you need to talk to someone
I believe you've been told previously and recently, that the minimum you should be eating is above 2000 calories -- so 1400 is NOT a binge, it's not even a drop in the bucket.
This site can't make you eat the proper number of calories, and we can't make you tell your parents that you have an eating disorder, but...
what we can do is enforce posting guidelines and make sure that you are not posting frivolous and triggering posts. there are a whole lot of folks out there who have eating disorders -- and your idea of 1400 calories over the whole day being a binge is triggering.
I'm not saying you don't have a problem, actually you clearly DO have a problem -- but if you are going to post over and over again and then ignore all the advice everyone is giving you, then this whole thing is a lesson in futility.
First of all, 1,400 is not a 'binge'. A binge is 3,000+ calories eaten in one sitting, in an almost dreamlike/out of body state, where the person feels utterly out of control, and can resort to eating things right out of the freezer in some cases. Eating 1,400 because you are trying your best to starve yourself to death on other days ain't bingeing - it is your body's way of trying to save your life.
You say you are 'recovered' from anorexia. Sorry, but this post (and most of the others you've written in the last 3 days) just scream 'EATING DISORDER'.
(To answer a different post, saying you are 'a hippo' at size zero (what a nonsense name for a size in the first place!!) is a bit hard on the rest of us, who are over size zero; what are we, double-hippos?)
Please, for your own sake, get off the computer and go and find some proper, medically qualified help. You don't have to suffer like this - there IS a way out, but you need help to find it. Good luck.
Please tell someone your problem
I told my mother today. She's taking me to the doctor monday. I'm nervous because I know there going to take blood and..I'm just worried what the doctor will say and what will happen after that.
I dont want to change. ): im fine.
If you were fine you wouldn't be here, crying out for help in all your posts. You may not explicitly say "help me", but its coming across loud and clear to anyone who happens upon your posts.
Just accept the help your being given, before you end up like a similar CC'er who recently died from this nonsense.
SO glad to hear that you were able to tell your Mum, and that you are seeing a doctor. Honestly, it won't be as bad as you think. I know change is frightening, and that you feel 'fine' but deep down I think you probably know you are NOT fine, otherwise you wouldn't be on here in teh first place.
Very best of luck, and don't forget the support is here for you too when you need it!