I've been battling with ed for a while and its been really tough for me to figure out what is healthy and what is ed trying to take over me...I had been consistently decreasing my calories from 1400 to 1200 to 1000 ending with about 850. I was 134 at my lowest and now i'm 144 and everyone told me that i'm in starvation mode, so i'm trying to eat more calories i've been able to maintain about 1300-1400 the past few days pretty easily but i feel so disgusting about it...i'm afraid of eating that much and i was wondering if that is too many calories to add or if it will help me get out of starvation mode faster? i hope this makes sense and i don't sound like an insane healthy girl who just thinks she's fat...this is killing me and i just want to be happy and i don't know how and now i feel like i'm spiraling out of control now matter how much i try and just keep getting bigger regardless of how much i work out and how much or little i eat...i'm so lost and i hate myself :'( i know i need help but unfortunately my health insurance stopped covering my therapy so now i am just trying to deal as best as i can...and its not working so much :'(
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thank you everyone so much!!! the advice is greatly appreciated and fidget i am so sorry if i gave you the idea that i don't want to be free...i despearately want to be free...i'm just scared as i'm sure you can understand...its hard for me to accept that this ed is out of control and that i need to give up controlling myself this way...i hope that made some sense....i had a lot of trouble admitting that i had an ed and that i needed help and it toook a long long time so when i say i doubt i can to more than 1400 i just meant that it was a struggle to feel ok with getting there...i'm trying to slowly add them in so that i don't reverse and relapse more...i am trying smwhipple's advice of adding a bit of calories and reducing my exercise at the same time...its a big struggle and as of now i'm not making huge progress but i am trying...its a battle everyday and i really thank you for your support i do want to be free i'm just scared...
dee, everyday that you at least do what you've started is not backsliding which is good. Any day with either a lighter form of exercise (not all exercises are equal in terms of calories - sorry didn't think of that one before) or more calories (try some calorie dense foods maybe) or preferrably both is a step onward towards where you want to be.
thank you so much!! that's what i keep telling myself...one day at a time...
so the more you decrease you caloric intake the more you gained? that's unheard of.
I don't know how you meant that but that was hurtful the way i took it...i'm in starvation mode so i need to eat more calories to regulate my metabolism....i apologize if that was not meant as hurtful but i'm having a hard time with my ed currenlty and am just extra sensitive right now...i decreased my calorie intake and increased my workouts and lost weight initially but now i kept decreasing the calories to too low and increased working out and went into starvation mode and i'm trying to get out without gaining and i feel pathetic about it because i'm scared...i hope that makes more sense...
I don't know if this will be helpful dee, but I did find it to be a very interesting point of view. One spoonful at a time
i've heard of when you lower your intake your weight stalls, but i guess in the process perhaps you've overeaten at times that caused the weight to gain. how can someone eat under 1000 calories and not lose? overtime, i don't think the body goes into starvation mode, but to starving, no?
There are articles on obsesity with very few calories. When your body starts to hang onto every calorie you're in trouble and the only cure for it is to actually eat. I've maintained on 1500 calories when I had too high of a deficit. I much prefer eating 2000-2500 calories and maintaining or losing.
Also, the body requires a ton of calories to repair the damage from very low calorie diets, which is why those with eating disorders sometimes report maintaining or even losing weight on ridiculously high calories.
Hi "Hopeless and need help"
I have not read other persons' responses to your dilemma. As someone very much concerned with my own weight and number of calories consumed. I can tell you for certain that it is not just about the number of calories you consume but the types of foods contributing to these calories. For example, I have on average 6 small meals a day, most often ending with raw veggies, or boiled veggies. I use no dressing! Weight is not my problem as a result of this practice over the years calorie counting is more of an obsssession than anything else for me.
I would suggest however you log EVERYTHING you consume on a daily basis noting the caloric value of each small meal. Ensure you buy and consume natural rather than highly refined foods. Also add activity to your daily routine..take the stairs instead of the lift.
All the best on your journey!
pranagirl
