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Longing for ed weight, so uncomfortable recovered weight


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Pre ed bmi 19-19.5ish,21%bf Ed bmi 17.8/17.6 16-18%bf At first gaining from 123up to 130i was happy and loved how I looked. I also loved my ed weight and consiously maintned for fear of getting too low/unhealthy. Guess that backfired as I was already unhealthily cutting out too much fat and had/have no period. Currently 136 lbs, 21.7%bf5ft10. I miss my old body I loved it I am so uncomfortable w my new body my old one was perfect at 130, which is my pre ed weight, why gain to (140) bmi 20 &hate it? Im just so uncomfortable w my thighs, stomach, arms, back...sitting in certain positions, clothes, EVERYTHING. and the fact that my bf%is high and I need to gain 4more lbs & my period is taking its sweet time.

Edited Nov 29 2011 11:51 by coach_k
Reason: Moved to Health and Support as more appropriate
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This is your ED telling you that you are fat, however, you are still slim. keep gaining!

You've got a multi-stage process going on here. And yes, during the first stage, you will probably get heavier than you currently wish to be - although that's your ED and body perception problems rather than being overweight.

Firstly you need to repair the damage you have done to yourself - get up to BMI 21 or so, get your leptin levels to sort themselves out.That will leave you healthy. Fail to get the leptin reset point, and you'll never sort out your hunger cues and how you retain fat.

THEN you can drop back a little to a BMI that's still healthy, but a bit lower.Research shows that people in the top half of the healthy weight range tend to live 5-7 years longer than those in the bottom area, so stay above the halfway point ideally.

Finally, once you start maintaining, you can work out to tone up as long as you add in enough extra calories to keep your weight stable. That will slim your body, without losing the weight you need to sustain.

Ok so my sis is 15 & bmi.20.8ish and she looks.chunky and gets called tbis by other ppl...so its not just muly ED thinking that. Maybe we r diff bodywise but how diff can we be.given my bf%....how can I deal w the time im at a bmi 21 and before I lose healthily? & ive always been thinnerthan her which makes this so hard...i dont want to be thought of as chunky. I want to stay thin (in the end...i understamd I have to be bmi21for a lil first
Ok so my sis is 15 & bmi.20.8ish and she looks.chunky and gets called tbis by other ppl...so its not just muly ED thinking that. Maybe we r diff bodywise but how diff can we be.given my bf%....how can I deal w the time im at a bmi 21 and before I lose healthily? & ive always been thinnerthan her which makes this so hard...i dont want to be thought of as chunky. I want to stay thin (in the end...i understamd I have to be bmi21for a lil first

I know this is really, really hard for you. Horribly, terribly hard and I just want you to know that I hear you on that, DEFINITELY.

One thing to think about: everyone looks different at any given BMI. I know that people guess my BMI/weight very different from what it is in reality, so your sister could very easily have a very close BMI to yours and you two would look totally different!

Thanks for the reassurance everyone, its just so hard forcing myself to a higher bmi than ive ever been when i was unhappy with my old bmi in the first place..hence the weight loss.

 here is another post that has gotten no responces. sorry for the repetiteveness..skip to the last paragraph. Bascily its a periods question.

Hi quick summary: pre ed 5'9.5 134/130/134again (school,summer,school) 21.5% body fat
ED: 5'10124-122, 16% body fat age 15.5-16.5

Currently in recovery, just turned 17, 5'10. 136 lbs, 21.7% body fat. NO PERIOD

Yes i heard gain to bmi 20/21 and everything will be fine, and i am willing to do that but my bodyfat% is borderline lean and i don't want it to rise. I dont know how to gain muscle as i am not allowed to work out frequently enough to do it.

My ? is more for reassurance, if u have advice on the above/periods please give it! But i am wondering if later in life after being healthy for a year or 2 i can slowly lose fat, or weight, and sculpt my body so i look lean healthy and strong. Maybe weigh 132-135 lbs but not so much focused on the # as looking fit and lean. Will this be possible?

Even gaining to a bmi 20-21 will not guarentee ur period back, some girls have had to gain to a higher bmi for return of menses. You have damaged your leptin hormone levels and to repair them in ED recovery you have to gain to a higher bmi usually.

You will have to stop worrying about body fat %, your reproductive hormones depend on body fat for functionong and this will be the key to your period returning. You are better off not gaining muscle till you get your periods back, Hedgren recommends no excerise until they return. yes when they return and you are at a healthy weight  you can do excerises to tone, but every thing in moderation!!!

For return of period gain to bmi 21 MINIMUM, eat 3,000  cals min daily for teens/early 20's, and no excerise, eat plenty of fats in your diet also- eggs, salmon, oily fish, red meat, whole milk, whole yoghurts, nuts, nut butters, icecream, greek yoghurt, dairy butter, real mayo, olive/nut oils etc.

Its a matter of doing the above, having lots of patience, and constantly challenging all those ED thoughts and behaviours to keep pushing forward to complete recovery.

xxx

So are you saying that my body wont eventually return to the weight it wouldve been if I didnt have an ED? Or is there hope for this after maintaining bmi21 for a while and not worrying about it. B/c on mu growth curve I wouldnt have reached bmi 21 for a while. Basically, is it possible to have the body u wouldve had if u never had an ED? Thanks so much everyone, this is my first time posting, thx for all the replies.

I understand what you are saying about growth curve etc, but because you have damaged your reproductive hormone levels you have to gain to this bmi now to repair them thats the bottom line. Most girls your age, at your bmi who never had an ED, would have a higher leptin (reproductive hormone) level than you have now and thus may mensturate.  If you go into Hedgrens profile/journels you will learn alot on all this.

Pre ED you would still have had some growing to do so your bmi would have gone up anyway, not stayed at 18/19!!! 

 

I guess I just wanted to add that I know that for me, personally, eating frequently throughout the day and not allowing myself to fall into any type of restrictive behaviors seemed to really help my period to return.

 

Thanks everyone! Just hearing things i know in the back of my mind are true is really comforting. I don't know why but hearing it told to me instead of to someone else on a diff thread really helps!..one more thing. I just got my blood test results back and my estrogen is low AGAIN....

pre recovery bmi 17.5 estrogen: 23

recovery in 5lb gain intervals: <10, 36 and low Lh (.9), and today bmi 19.7, 15 lbs ltr!, & its<10.

Shouldn't the levels have improved a little? My Lh and FSH were normal (5 & 7) progesterine .8, testosterone low, and DEA-S low as well. my thyroid is normal. I convinced my mom to call and make an appointment with a doc, she left a message, but its hard to find a gyno who takes our insurrance. Anyone have any experience with this?

I guess i am dissapointed that my estrogen is still SO LOW and i HAVE gained weight, i expected SOME progress here...

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