For over 8 months I sufferred from anorexia, eating about 300 - 400 a day, if that. I was maintaining on this amount of calories for a very long time, too. However, in recent weeks I have made real progress with my recovery. It began with intuitive eating, going on the occasional 'binge' which was great...I felt I was really giving my body what it needed after so long restricting. However, now I am in the healthy bmi sector, but I am just constantly CONSTANTLY eating. I don't even do it when I feel hunger anymore, it's more just out of boredom but feels more and more like a compulsion. I go into the kitchen and end up eating half a box of cereal, whole tubs of peanut butter, about 10 cookies, brownies, crisps, a hell of a lot of cheese...and I can't stop myself. I am gaining RAPIDLY and whilst I'm happy to gain weight and recover, it's too fast for my liking...I've gained over a stone in ONE WEEK!!! Is this normal in recovery? Is some of it water weight? How come I hear people have trouble putting on weight with 2500-3000 calorie diets? I'm probably eating at least 3000 a day. SHould I continue doing this (I'm an 18 year old girl and very short, 4ft 9) despite the rapid gain? Are some of the calories going into repair of organs etc? Also, will the rate of gaining even out eventually? Please give me reassurance etc., I'm so scared! Does it sound like I'm developing a new ED of overeating?
Ok, help me, seriously...I just weighed myself and I have gained 18lb in less than a week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELP ME I'M FREAKING OUT!!!
Honestly, has this happened to anyone else? Is it water weight? I appear much bigger, physically, but again I don't know if that's the ED talking or not. Oh god please help, I'm so scared.
There is no overeating in anorexia recovery. You haven't gained 18lbs in flesh and bone in just one week, that's physically impossible. It's only water weight and it will dissipate at the end of your recovery.
Alright, this helped me SO much in my recovery, and I'm sure it will help you in yours.
That's about your edema (water retention):
Why bingeing is not bingeing when you are recovering from restrictive eating:
Phases of Recovery:
These links are SO. SO IMPORTANT. Please, read them. I'm sure it will help you. :)
THOSE HAVE TO BE THREE OF THE GREATEST ARTICLES I'VE EVER READ.
I've been struggling with anorexia and bulimia for 11 years, had a seizure recently due to the ED, and have had severe cardiac arrhythmias to where I was in the ICU and the doctors told my friends to "be prepared."
The article about the edema was especially helpful.
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm glad it helped you <3 good luck in your recovery, I know you can do it! :)
If you like, you can also take a look at the forum session at www.gwynetholwyn.com, everyone there is really sweet and helpful. They have always given me reassurance when I was scared.
Thank you so much everyone for your help, and you're right, those articles are amazing...however, I still need to know if anyone has ever experienced this same 18 lb in a week gain rate?! Whether it be water or fat (but like I say, I am MUCH bigger visibly and am not the only one to point that out) it is still highly unnerving. It's not that I don't want to gain...but 18 lb in a week? Should I cut back on my snacking?
your scales might be f*****g broken. -Or the floor is uneven or they have not been calibrated. I have never heard of gaining 18lb in ONE week before...just seems really off to me. TRemember to always weigh on the same scales and get them tested. If it IS real however-it must be edema, so see a doctor.
i feel for us all i have anorixa and have done for 15th years and its damaged me complety and i have hated it i still do i have ibs consaption so bad laxitives use to work stoped no and am scared i hate the fear gaining weight i really dont want to and cant i just cant
Some people who post on Gwyneth's forum have indeed gained loads of weight in small amounts of time - of course, it's all water retention. You say you've had anorexia for many years, maybe that's why you're retaining so much water. Unless you are eating 9000 calories per day, it's completely impossible that you've gained 18lbs in real weight in just one week.
When I gained weight, I retained loads of water in the first week, and then my gaining slowed down. I was eating 4000 calories per day and in that same week, I only gained one pound. So don't worry, you won't gain 18lbs every week anyways, even if it's only edema!
Ok, so I've just weighed myself again (neither the scales nor the floor are wonky, trust me!) and I've gained a further 3 lbs....so that's 21 lb in little over a week. Holy hell. Ok, do you think I should go to a doctor or nutritionist or something? I've been very confident in my recovery up to now but this is making me want to restrict all over again. And like I say, I'm really, really short so this gain is VERY noticeable!! Also, I'm so sorry for bombarding everyone with my questions and worries. All the advice you've given is so helpful...I guess I'm just having a mini melt-down so feel free to ignore this - it's so easy to vent from behind a computer screen, plus iti's inspiring to hear about your recovery experiences!!
Another week and I have gained another 7 frickin pounds, on top of all that I have already gained in such a short space of time. I am so, so, so scared. Why, despite now having a bmi of 23, do I keep feeling this extreme hunger? When can I expect this to go away? More importantly, and sorry for asking this for the millionth time (I know I'm annoying), but has ANYONE experienced this rate of gain? Even my doctors and therapist are flabbergasted....and I honestly don't think it's water weight because I look properly chubby now.