recovery survey

name-

age-

height-

low weight-

highest weight-

current weight-

exercise-

how you began recovery-

did you up calories gradually or all together-

water weight? how much and how long it lasted-

are you long at your ideal weight-

are you maintaining-

calories consumed a day during recovery-

calories consumed to maintain-

how long are you recovered-

did you ever relapse-

is recovery worth it-

are you happy with your body now-

Original Post by headz19:

name- J

age- 20

height- 171cm

low weight- 37kg

highest weight- When I was 12? 66kg

current weight- 49kg

exercise- N/A aside from walking about

 

how you began recovery- Properly, when I started uni.

did you up calories gradually or all together- Gradually until 2000, then jumped to 2500, then gradually as I needed increasing. In hospital (3 admissions) it was 900 for 2 days, 1200 for 2 days, 1800 for 4 days then 2800 as 'standard.' I was then put to 3000, 3200 and eventually 3600.

water weight? how much and how long it lasted- Different each time.

are you long at your ideal weight- I have regular periods and have since I was 47 kg but my BMI is 16.8 so I guess it's not ideal.

are you maintaining- Ish

calories consumed a day during recovery- Average of 2500

calories consumed to maintain- I don't know

how long are you recovered- Work in progress...

did you ever relapse- Am having a bit of a blip now but have had a fair few relapses, yes, but I hadn't really 'recovered' before I had them.

is recovery worth it- Yes.

are you happy with your body now- Ish. I shouldn't be, though 

 

Original Post by headz19:

name-Hannah

age- 17

height-5"7

low weight- 33kg

highest weight- 59kg

current weight-49kg

exercise- walking, yoga, dance games on wii count?! haah! cant wait to play tennis and join gym again though!

 

how you began recovery-IP

did you up calories gradually or all together-veryy gradually, doctors were afraid of refeeding

water weight? how much and how long it lasted-didn't happpen

are you long at your ideal weight-ED= yes, truthfully I know im not quite there though

are you maintaining-i shouldn't be, but as of recently pretty much...

calories consumed a day during recovery-didn't count... 3000 some days, less on others

calories consumed to maintain-not maintaining yhet but id say 1800-2000?

how long are you recovered-not fully recovered yet :/

did you ever relapse-nope

is recovery worth it-ABSOLUTELY!

are you happy with your body now-Not really if I'm honest

 

Regardless of what others do or have done in the past should not impact you. If you want to recover from an eating disorder you need to stop comparing and focus on what you need to do. This is a very ed post. How does knowing what X person weighed in the worst of their ed help you in getting to recovery? It does not!

Better questions if you want to get well would be for an ex what helped you stick to recovery?

Original Post by abbi333:

Regardless of what others do or have done in the past should not impact you. If you want to recover from an eating disorder you need to stop comparing and focus on what you need to do. This is a very ed post. How does knowing what X person weighed in the worst of their ed help you in getting to recovery? It does not!

Better questions if you want to get well would be for an ex what helped you stick to recovery?

I agree. Wouldnt better questions be:

Whats the best thing about recovery?

How has recover improved your life?

Things like that...

headz19 - Your clearly still quite EDish and i hope you get the help you need/ see the light and stop comparing to others.

Original Post by headz19:

they just are to me!! it helps me!!! i dont really have to explain myself!!

It helps you, or your ED? 

I can think of a few possibilities of why ''these questions are important''.

1. You want to see if, at your weight, you ''deserve'' to eat X amount: ''She/he was at a lowest BMI, she needed more cals than me''
2. You want to justify yourself not eating the 2500-3000 cals people here have recommended you: ''She/he gained on Xcals, why should I have more?''
3. You want to justify your exercise: ''She/he walked/ran Xmin per day, so I can too.''

Whatever it is, you're trying to compare yourself or trying to get the ''perfect'' recovery.

Not trying to be harsh, but sometimes, tough love is needed.

name- Bree

age- 17

height- 5'4"

low weight- 85 lbs

highest weight- 135 lbs (pre-ED)

current weight- not important :)

exercise- I'm pretty much inactive but I'm slowly getting back into it :)

how you began recovery- I told my mom the truth about my eating habits a year ago. I was afraid I was going to die, so she ended up finding the local ED clinic and getting me an appointment, which led straight to a year of in and out hospitalizations

did you up calories gradually or all together- The first time, it was gradually.

water weight? how much and how long it lasted- Not sure, I never gave my body a chance to stay at a 'normal' weight, I kept relapsing.

are you long at your ideal weight- Technically no, but I'm maintaining at a lower weight right now in hopes of preventing another relapse

are you maintaining- Trying to!

calories consumed a day during recovery- Usually around 3000, I'm guessing. I didn't count - that was the hospital's job. I was on a meal plan with '1 fat, 2 starch' ect

calories consumed to maintain- Around 1700 for now

how long are you recovered- Just started real recovery.

did you ever relapse- My entire 'recovery' process so far has been one giant relapse :| This time I'm actually trying though!

is recovery worth it- Duh.

are you happy with your body now- Somewhat. I'm getting there.

name- Sarah

age- 21

height- 5'0 1/2

low weight- 68

highest weight- 138

current weight- 85

exercise- None

how you began recovery- I didn't start even looking into recovery until I was at my lowest weight when my mom told me she thought i had a problem. I knew I had a problem at that time, but at that point i was so sick and numb to everything that I didn't really care. Life was just whatever. So she started taking me to the dr, my weight continued going down. She took me to do an evaluation with renfrew (hoping to get outpatient treatment), and they told me they wouldn't be able to treat me unless I did inpatient first, due to my weight. So within a few days I was admitted IP to renfrew. It all happened so fast.

did you up calories gradually or all together- I didn't have control over how many calories I was taking in, since I was IP. But they started me on the lowest MP, which was STILL a lot more than what I had been eating. And then if i wasn't averaging 3-4 lbs a week, they'd move me up to the next MP. 

water weight? how much and how long it lasted- I have no idea as I was always gaining weight, because if for one day I didn't gain, then up my meal plan would go.

are you long at your ideal weight- I am not at my ideal weight.

are you maintaining- Yes, I guess. I don't really know. I guess I should be gaining, but I feel like my weight is fine. But maybe that's my eating disorder? But my parents aren't worried about my weight either.

calories consumed a day during recovery- I was never on a calorie meal plan, I went by exchanges. But when I read my contract that my treatment team had to submit to my insurance company, it said I was eating roughly 3400 cal a day.

calories consumed to maintain- Currently I'm maintaining on 1500-1700, but I know I CAN maintain on more, I'm just afraid to.

how long are you recovered- It's been about a year in a half since I was admitted to renfrew.

did you ever relapse- I never fully recovered. I've always been kind of one foot in one foot out.

is recovery worth it- I've been told it is.

are you happy with your body now- It's weird, some days I love my body, other days I hate it. Some days I see myself as too skinny, and other days I think I look like a whale.

name- kristen :)

age- 16 (was 13/14 during ED)

height- 5'8

low weight- 100 lbs

highest weight- 139 lbs (before ED)

current weight- 129 lbs

exercise- long distance running -during ED though, nothing (wasn't allowed)

how you began recovery- parents took me to my pediatrician -she freaked when she weighed me (and saw me) and so we began.

did you up calories gradually or all together- all together ; was using a notebook to keep track of calories along with livestrong.com (before i found this site)

water weight? how much and how long it lasted- 5-10 almost every other day during recovery but eventually i stopped getting water weight

are you at your ideal weight- yes :)

are you maintaining- yes :)

calories consumed a day during recovery- 3200+

calories consumed to maintain- 2200

how long are you recovered- since summer 2009

did you ever relapse- nope! :)

are you happy with your body now-  beyond happy! :)

name- Julie

age- 15

height- 168 cm

low weight- 45 kg.

highest weight- 60

current weight- 57 kg

exercise- cardio 1-3 times a week, strength or exercisevideos 1-3 times a week, and hula hooping every other day.

 

how you began recovery- My friends and teacher called my parents because they were worried about me. My mother told me I had to see my doctor to have a few blood tests, but when we arrived it was all about how I had been losing weight. I was told to drop by to be weighed once a week, and after losing a lot of weight in a short amount of time, my doctor referred my to an eating disorder clinic, where I started recovery one month later.

did you up calories gradually or all together- Waaaay to gradually and slowly.

water weight? how much and how long it lasted- Not sure...

are you long at your ideal weight- I am at my healthy weight now.

are you maintaining- Yes!

calories consumed a day during recovery-2500-3000. More on days were I overate/binged, and fewer on the difficult days.

calories consumed to maintain- 1900-2100.

how long are you recovered- I'm not mentally recovered at all yet, but I've been weight restored for about 5 months.

did you ever relapse- I've been struggling a lot lately. I fear I am relapsing.

is recovery worth it- I know it is! Everything is better than living this hell.

are you happy with your body now- Some days I think I look healthy and beautiful, and other days I hate the way I look. I don't think that I'll ever love every single part of my body, but I hope that one day I'll be content in my own skin.

 

Original Post by headz19:

name- Dansmum

age- 41

height- 5' 7"

low weight- 81lbs

highest weight- 112lbs (never reached proper adult weight)

current weight- 109lbs

exercise- 15 miles a week walking, 2 X 30 mins cycling

 

how you began recovery- about 20 times in the last 27 years

did you up calories gradually or all together- varied. This time gradually

water weight? how much and how long it lasted- again, various - this time about 4 lbs, 3 weeks

are you long at your ideal weight- nearly there...

are you maintaining- no

calories consumed a day during recovery- 2,500

calories consumed to maintain- 2,250

how long are you recovered- nearly there

did you ever relapse- yup. about 19 times (that's what happens if you stop before you are at your target weight)

is recovery worth it- I hope so. Yes. I'm sure it is.

are you happy with your body now- not yet

 

*ETA* Headz19, I hope you use the info in this survery to convince yourself that recovery is possible, and that water weight doesn't last, and that even in maintenance you can eat LOTS!!

Good luck!!

dansmum- they are the exact points i wanted to no!! you completly read my mind! and i am so ready to recover! i am currently upping calories. 1800 from yesterday and i am totally LOVING getting to eat more! and having little treats along the way!

i wish you the best with hopefully your final recovery!

x

Good luck, headz! I've seen your posts, and I KNOW you can do this! It's so much better on the other side! :)

thank you so much thatone :).. i wish you all the best to!

if it wasnt for this site i dont think i could do it

<3

Original Post by headz19:

name- Lowri Angharad Morgan

age- 18

height- 5"3

low weight- 85

highest weight- 118

current weight- 108ish

exercise- I have a gym membership, i go for about 50 minutes 4/5 times a week.

 

how you began recovery-

did you up calories gradually or all together- Gradually i guess

water weight? how much and how long it lasted- No

are you long at your ideal weight- Since about febuary, still not ideal but i'm happy

are you maintaining- yes

calories consumed a day during recovery- 1200-3000 depended on what i was doing/feeling

calories consumed to maintain-1500-2500. Again teens can't stick to a calorie limit! with a hectic social life and exams..

how long are you recovered-still am.

did you ever relapse-yes

is recovery worth it- Agree with the above on this Q

are you happy with your body now-No, but im happier

 

name- Kayla

age- 15

height- 5' 4''

low weight- 92 lbs

highest weight- 150 lbs

current weight- 103 lbs

exercise- around 60 mins a day, lately Ive been getting lazy though :P

how you began recovery- I didnt want to ruin my family's christmas and spend christmas in the hospital (which I was being threatened with) so I started eating

did you up calories gradually or all together- very gradually...

water weight? how much and how long it lasted- Not really sure what was water weight and what was real weight

are you long at your ideal weight- nope, I dont even know what my ideal weight is but I know it has to be bigger than this

are you maintaining- no

calories consumed a day during recovery- around 1500 (NOT HEALTHY! I was taking the disordered way out and it just made me sicker)

calories consumed to maintain- no clue

how long are you recovered- not fully recovered

did you ever relapse-  yep, right now I am trying to pull myself out of a relapse

is recovery worth it- YES! Honestly most days I dont believe that but then I think back to the days where I didnt eat, and I remember waking up every day thinking "I just need to get through this day" and being so depressed I could hardly pull myself up off the floor. I am not recovered yet but now at least I can think of reasons to get up in the morning and I enjoy life for the most part!

are you happy with your body now- Well I dont feel like I am going to die every day so yeah I am much happier! I just need some boobs and a butt and i will be good x)

name- Nope

age- 31

height- 5' 3"

low weight- 86

highest weight- 119

current weight- 114

exercise- 30 minutes a day/ 3-4 days a week

how you began recovery- I did recovery on my own, with only help from my family. Just realized one day how out of control my exercise was and that what i was doing was going to kill me.

did you up calories gradually or all together- went from about 1200 to about 1700, then got hurt and couldn't exercise and upped all at once to 3000+

water weight? how much and how long it lasted- ??

are you long at your ideal weight- i don't know about ideal, but I'm happy with my weight.  I wouldn't be upset if I lost 3 or 4 pounds, but I wouldn't go out of my way to try to lose any weight.

are you maintaining- yes

calories consumed a day during recovery- no idea... anywhere between 2500-3500 most days

calories consumed to maintain- I don't track calories but I'd estimate about 2000 most days... never less than 1600, sometimes wayyyyyy more than 2000.

how long are you recovered-2 1/2to 3  years

did you ever relapse- not really. I had bad days, but never relapsed.

is recovery worth it- ABSOLUTELY!!! Wow! I can't even fathom what it would be like to spend hours exercising, restricting, always being hungry & cranky.... just thinking about life like that makes me sad

are you happy with your body now- YES!

name - Me

age - 32

height - 5'6

low weight - 73

highest weight - 165 (long ago when I was a binge eating teenager)

current weight - 105

exercise - run or walk every day

how you began recovery - tried to do it on my own outpatient but only got worse and ended up being admitted to an inpatient treatment center

did you up calories gradually or all together - they slowly upped my calories

water weight? how much and how long it lasted - When I was admitted to the hospital I had about 10lbs of edema/water weight.  That went away after I got up to around 90 and hasn't come back.

are you long at your ideal weight - no

are you maintaining - yes, but need to start gaining again

calories consumed a day during recovery - ? I have only used an exchange system

calories consumed to maintain - ?

how long are you recovered - I've been out of the hospital for almost 5 months, but wouldn't consider myself recovered yet

did you ever relapse - yes, on vacation

is recovery worth it - no question - YES.  I'm not fully recovered but life is so much better already.

are you happy with your body now - No, I'm still too thin.

Original Post by headz19:

name- Carly

age- 16

height- 5 ft

low weight- 76 lbs

highest weight- 109 lbs

current weight- 96 lbs

exercise- 4-5 times a week cardio for 45 minutes, 2-3 times a week weight training for 10 minutes

 

how you began recovery- Intervention from my coach

did you up calories gradually or all together- Very gradually, I was terrified of gaining weight

water weight? how much and how long it lasted- Not really

are you long at your ideal weight- Since late November

are you maintaining- Yes

calories consumed a day during recovery- 2500 usually, started by adding 50 calories a day

calories consumed to maintain- 1800-2300 depending on the day

how long are you recovered- Weight restored since November but mentally recovered.. ED thoughts are still occurring 

did you ever relapse- Yes

is recovery worth it- I hope so

are you happy with your body now- Usually not, I do have some good days though

 

age - 21

height- 1.6m (5'2? 5'3?)

low weight- 98lb

highest weight-125lb, settled to 116lb as i grew up

current weight-111lb

exercise-stopped entirely, except walking to school

how you began recovery- haha the strangest epiphany really. i was in the supermarket looking at the cheapest biggest cake i could get, then i suddenly thought 'you know what, i choose to be healthy'. and i walked out. until today, that one statement keeps me going, especially since i dont have a team or counsellor behind me

did you up calories gradually or all together-almost all at once

water weight? how much and how long it lasted-not sure of the weight, but the bloating lasted a couple of weeks at least

are you long at your ideal weight-since 3rd week of recovery, and throughout my relapses (it's more like an ideal range, i try not to be too hard on myself)

are you maintaining-yes i think so! my body decides what she wants to weigh, and at the moment she's not going up or down

calories consumed a day during recovery-from 2500 to 4000

calories consumed to maintain-i dont count anymore, but it's similar to what i ate during recovery, or a little less. i dont feel as hungry as i used to, or feel the urge to eat 3 buttered toasts right after dinner

how long are you recovered-recovering since feb. and hopefully will still be tomorrow

did you ever relapse- yes! but everytime i relapse i learn something from it and there's one less thing that will make me relapse in future

is recovery worth it-YES!

are you happy with your body now- YES! and it's more than just about looks! my period came back after a while, so i know my body hasn't given up on me (: my hair turned shiny again, my skin is soft, i don't bruise as easily, my cheeks are so rosy and the list goes on forever. my cheeks have filled out, but everyone says now i've got back my baby face! ;)

Original Post by headz19:

name- Jenny

age-27

height-5'85

low weight-79 (when teenager)

highest weight- 155

current weight- 88

exercise-1.5 hrs a day

 

how you began recovery- I been trying to recover for the last three years.. started with op, went to ip, had several hospitla stays, about to go back to ip ( I hope!)

did you up calories gradually or all together- last time I was gaining.. I guess I did it gradually

water weight? how much and how long it lasted- last time I gained 7 pounds in 2 days with water weight.. and it stayed but I didn't gain very fast after that. I was just hospitalized and gained no weight even with all the fluids they gave me-- so it is differnt every time.

are you long at your ideal weight- not even close to my ideal

are you maintaining- nope.. losing but should be trying to gain soon ( scared.. but have to do it!)

calories consumed a day during recovery- last time... around 2500 to 3000

calories consumed to maintain- I have no idea.. havent maintain in YEARS

how long are you recovered- not there yet

did you ever relapse- I feel like my life is one big relapse. I always try to recover, and then fall back down :/

is recovery worth it- I would think so-- god-- I would do anything not to live like this anymore

are you happy with your body now- no.. since I am still living in the world of ed

 

I know this crap is hard, and I am not the best person for this survey. Give me a few months!! But screw ED! You can do it!! And so can I!