If you've read any of my posts, you'll see that I've recently started exercising during my recovery (upon attaining a BMI >18.5 and return of menstrual period). It is something that I certainly enjoy, and I haven't been doing it too vigorously. Most days it's just 20 minutes of jogging or biking 8 miles, and then I do yoga/core exercises. I've been working on eating intuitively and trying to listen to my body now that it is in a more stable place.
Recently, I've found that I'm really anxious on days that I'm sedentary. I have less hunger cues when I'm not exercising and it's more difficult to rationalize what to when I'm not sure what my body wants. I think that my body is comfortable; I don't weigh myself often but since I've started this routine I've lost ~2lbs, although I'm almost certain that it's merely fluctuations.
Do you find this healthy or disordered? The last thing I want to do is fall into a relapse, but at the same time I feel like maybe I'm just paranoid?
Note: I no longer have health insurance, therefore I cannot access health professionals. Although in the past I have been treated by an MD and nutritionist.
nope. anxiety on days your sedentary is why you're not supposed to exercise before completley mentally stable or under direct doctor supervision (who will probs tell you not to exercise anyway).
And plus youre bones are probs still weak. Snapping a bone running doesn't feel good. I can guarantee that.
Recovery means you have the rest of your life to run around and exercise with a healthy mindset. Not gonna hurt to wait a few months before resuming exercise.
Thank you for the reply! I can't see a doctor unfortunately...so it's hard to decipher disordered thoughts and actions from healthy habits, you know? I just don't know where to go from here and I feel like Im just being paranoid sometimes :(
Unfortunately part of the disorder :( I'm sorry!!
When I recovered from ana, I really wish I didn't exercise. It would have probably prevented a lot of the injuries I have now. I've had a bone snap mid run, ligaments tear and all my joints have a lot of weakness. I'm in competitive atheltics now and these recurring injuries hold me back so much. It would have been so worth it if I had waited.
It's not going to hurt to wait a bit longer- you're doing amazing already! Don't let yourself undo all this hard work!!