I should have taken all of your advice, as I am now in hospital.
Hey everyone,
A lot of you will know me (for all the wrong reasons!) but for who dosen’t, my name is Tessa; I’m 14 years old, BMI 14.2, and I am a professional figure skater, well at least I used to be ...
A lot of you told me that I needed to take a rest from figure skating to gain weight to get myself healthy. I didn’t take this advice and it is the reason I’m lying in a hospital bed right now, literally being force fed!
So on Monday I was competing in a local competition, attempted to do an Axcel jump, took a nasty fall, collapsed and next thing I know I wake up in hospital with a feeding tube stuck in me, bruises all over my body and a broken wrist.
I wasn’t going to post on here but I thought by sharing this it might help others who are maybe in a similar situation to me. Honestly, I believed that I was capable of anything, that I was strong, healthy and nothing bad would happen to me ... how I was wrong!?, obviously this is true mentally but physically my body couldn’t take anymore.
I’m sorry for not taking anyone’s advice, I realise that if I would have done, I wouldn't be where I am right now. I feel like my world has fallen apart, but I am grateful to be alive as the doctors said my heart rate was so low that their shocked that I didn't go into cardiac arrest.
I hope someday I will be able to go back into figure skating as this is my ultimate dream .. but for now, as I'm sure you'll all be pleased to know!, I'm focusing on getting better.
Original Post by tessa01: I hope someday I will be able to go back into figure skating as this is my ultimate dream .. but for now, as I'm sure you'll all be pleased to know!, I'm focusing on getting better.
Sweetheart, I'm so sorry this has happend to you, but you have no idea how pleased I am to see that you are focused on getting well, so that you can still persue your dream when you are better. Listen to the doctors, and do whatever it takes to get well.
You are very young, and have time on your side. It makes me so sad when I see older girls/women on these forums who have ruined their chances of being dancers/ ballet proffesionals/ runners because of an ED.
The very best of luck to you, and hope the wrist heals soon!
I too just wanted to say I am sorry about your injury but am glad you are now working to get better. You can do it, and once you are all good and healthy again I'm sure you can return to skating. You're still young, and you still have time. Just make the most of this opportunity to actually get better. It's tough but you can do it. Take care!
It's true with age comes wisdom. Or at least older people are *usually* better informed about certain things.
Anyway good luck with recovery. Be thankful you are doing relatively well, as, like you said, it could have been worse. Use this as motivation to get better and eventually, hopefully, to compete once more.
It's ok, sometimes we all learn things the hard way. In fact im glad you're getting help at a younger age instead of it striking when you are older. Like mrswilsonscat mentioned, I too have seen runners deteriorate from ED.
I remember you're other post and am really pleased you're making the steps to recover!
It takes time, but the human body is amazing and will heal! Then you can focus on the skating :)
Good luck with recovery and i hope you are soon geeling better. Message me if you would like advice/support or if you would just like to chat :)
my thoughts go out to you hun, hope you have a speedy and replenishing recovery!
Aw, I remember you and was just thinking about you the other day!
I am so sorry for what happened. I know you can take this awful thing and turn it into a great motivator and starting place to recover and get back on the ice! I love your attitude of being able to admit where you were wrong, but now it's time to look forward! I'm already proud of you; can't wait to see what's going to happen next for you :) Feel free to message anytime!
I'm just glad to hear that you are in a place where you can get treatment and are determined to get well again. I wish you the best of luck with your recovery and I hope that you will soon be back to skating. Good Luck! :)
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Sometimes we have to hit rock bottom before we are ready to listen. The point of what your going through now is that you are listening! You get it. That is so positive.
Just rest and let your body heal.
Wow thanks for all the amazing support everyone :). I've managed to gain 1.5lbs this week on a meal plan of 3500 calories which I'm extremely pleased about!. My appetite is HUGE, I'm constantly starving hungry! :[ ... It feels good to just rest and not do anything right now (I never thought I'd say that!!).
All of your encouragement has made me even more determined to get well and eventually, kick some ice!!! ;) SO .............
Thank youuuuu :)
Yayyy!!!! keep us updated!
Awesome news!! Keep it up and don't let anything backslide you, stay focused on your goal! :)
I'm sorry to hear that your in hospital but use this as an opportunity to get yourself healthy, and to be an even better athlete than you were before. I think someday you will be extremely thankful for this happening to you because it will only benefit you!. Learn from this experience and come out on top. keep us all updated on how your doing!, and keep thinking positively .. your so young and your future could be so bright!
all the best :)
Just to keep everyone updated ..... I'm still in hospital!. My weight has stayed the same for the past two weeks despite increasing my meal plan, so it looks like my stay here could be longer than expected! :/. I've now gone up to a meal plan that is 4800 calories. In total I have gained 6lbs, putting my BMI at around 15.0. I just wish the weight would go on so I can get outta here, I miss everything about normal life, I miss all my friends, my family, my dog, my bedroom, arrrgh just EVERYTHING!!, BUT most of all I miss figure skating ... I have dreams every night about being back on the ice and then sadly I wake up here :(!!. I never thought gaining weight would be this damn hard!!! it dosen't help that the food is disgusting!, I was gagging when drinking a build up drink earlier and actually ended up spitting it out all over the nurse, woooooopsie pahaaa, hey ho I told her I didn't want it she should have listened!, silly woman ha.
Thanks for all the support! x
Original Post by tessa01:
Just to keep everyone updated ..... I'm still in hospital!. My weight has stayed the same for the past two weeks despite increasing my meal plan, so it looks like my stay here could be longer than expected! :/. I've now gone up to a meal plan that is 4800 calories. In total I have gained 6lbs, putting my BMI at around 15.0. I just wish the weight would go on so I can get outta here, I miss everything about normal life, I miss all my friends, my family, my dog, my bedroom, arrrgh just EVERYTHING!!, BUT most of all I miss figure skating ... I have dreams every night about being back on the ice and then sadly I wake up here :(!!. I never thought gaining weight would be this damn hard!!! it dosen't help that the food is disgusting!, I was gagging when drinking a build up drink earlier and actually ended up spitting it out all over the nurse, woooooopsie pahaaa, hey ho I told her I didn't want it she should have listened!, silly woman ha.
Thanks for all the support! x
Tessa, you're doing a great job - keep it up, girl! Just think how much stronger you will be as a skater once you are fully well :-)
