I'm eating around 2000 calories a day(although my dietitian said I could have up to 2300) and I walk for 30 minutes daily. My weight is still slowly going up, right now it's 125lb or so at 5'5 and 15 years old. Am I eating too much? Or will I find my setpoint? I feel so close to relapsing because it's scaring me so much that I cut myself and cry. =(
I weighed myself, and I'm exactly the same weight! I am soooo relieved. I thought I would have surely gained from having 2000. I'm not sure whether to have 2000 or 1800 now.. Because I had 1800 yesterday and 2000 the day before.
First if you didn't gain on 2000 that eat 2000.
Second, THROW AWAY THE SCALE I CANNOT EMPHASIZE THIS ENOUGH. It's an addiction hun.
this x1000!!! weight can change & vary day to day for so many reasons... water intake, actual food weight, salt intake, constipation etc etc. its more often because of things other that actual body fat (especially because it takes weeks/months to gain body weight)!
stay ON 2000 and OFF the scale <3 just go by how your clothes fit - which most likely will not change at all.
if you want to, and if its not triggering, maybe go for a little stroll during the day or evening? it helps with stress, boredom and might make you feel a little better mentally because you're not completely sedentary without having to do anything streneous.
girrrrl don't make me start chanting. :)
please just gently try to make the weighing time less if you can't give it up altogether, keep a few days between it and every time you want to weigh yourself distract yourself in any way
Original Post by jldstudio:
It will be worth it :) I feel so much better now that I stuck to keeping my calories up where they should be. I have started to lose the initial weight gain, I was up at 118 and now I'm 116. At first I maintained at 118 then all of a sudden the water/ food retention seems to be going away and I went down two pounds. It'll happen when your body is ready! Just give it time to recover and take it easy.
thats great! Congrats for getting thus far in recovery. Jldstudio, how long time did it take for the initial weight gain to stop? And for how long did you maintain your weight before it went down by itself?
Just a helpful tip: it can be very triggering, when u mention you actual weight. Broadie is 127 ish, and probably does not want to hear about how your only 116 or 118.. Although of course, U MEAN WELL:):):)
Just a tip.
Oh, and Brodie - the previous poster was right, about how u WILL probs maintain on 2000 AND 1800......   ; Look, I do not believe in set points. I believe, that your body has a heakthy RANGE, for your body type, bone structure, etc....
We make a concscious choice, as to weather we want to be on the thin side of healthy, or the midde, or even on the highest end of our healthy range. WHile a LOT of people on here, will encourage u to get to the middle or end of your healthy range, it is really up to you.
Me? I prefer being at the slender end, of what is considered healthy for me; 125 lbs is healthy on my body, so I choose to work out for an hour or so 5 days a wee, and do what I need to, to attain a grat looking body.
I do not want u to exercise, as it IS NOT your thing ( we are mates on facebook, for ppl who do not know)... & nbsp; Exercise and working out is something I enjoy, and while I do NOT over exercise, I do actively CHOOSE to be the slim side of my healthy range.
If I wanted to sit around and eat 2500 calories, and not be active, and if I chose to eat for the sake of taste and for the thrill factor of eating as a lot, I would be the middle or high end of my healthy range.
Really, it is a choice... U are healthy within a certain range. You can ch oose where abouts in your healthy range you prefer to be. For you, it sounds like 58 kilos or higher is healthy for you, based on your pre ED weight, when u got your period back, and etc....
I am not saying you can pick your weight; I am saying you can pick your weight within the range that IS HEALTHY for your body. BMI 21 onwards is very curvy and healthy for me ( not thin anymore really), so I choose BMI 21...
As long as u can eat decently, as much OR PREFERABLY MORE, than standard calculators puport u should maintain on..... then I see nothing wrong with u being BMI 21 ish,.. but Broadie, u cannot restrict to stay there.
I gained a pound while eating 2000 sedentary. =( I'm going to cut back to 1800.
she just informed me, on facebook, that she took a ****, and now weighs a pound lighter. And did a happy dance...
Just eat 2000 then, and keep maintaining y9ur BMI of about 20.8. You will gain to BMI 21 perhaps, who knows. Only one more kilo and your BMI 21.
Thanks for telling everyone Leigh, hahaha. =) I hope to not gain weight, however.
Also this is sort of OT but can I just say Brodie that I really admire your courage, maturity and intelligence! I've followed your posts since I've been here (I lurk a lot but dont post much!) and think that your ability to decide to gain weight again after heading into a relapse i!s awe inspiring. Keep fighting your ED! I'm positive your 'gains' are absolutely not real and just daily, normal fluctations. I'm also sure that you look beautiful, fit and healthily-slim at your current weight. I can tell that you are most likely still gripped by ED fears and thoughts but I hope that you go on to recover and live a healthy, carefree life. :)
PM me if you ever need to talk or vent or anything! You seem similar to me actually, I'm weight restored & still battling an ED too :(
Aww, thanks shadowboxerbaby! =) I do have days where I wish I hadn't gained weight, but in the end I had to in order to regain my health. I'm still worried that I am continuing to gain weight, but if I stick to 2000 there really shouldn't be any reason why that would happen. I should probably stop weighing myself because of the daily fluctuations which freak me out, but I'm taking it one step at a time.
You're gonna do it :) I totally believe in you! Giving up the scale was one of the hardest things I had to do in recovery. Even when my mom hid it I still searched the house when I felt weak and would find it. But it got to the point where my mother didn't want me sniffing around for it during the holidays cuz she didn't want me finding christmas presents early so she just put it back out in the open. Sometimes it still talks to me trying to get me to weigh myself, but I just roll my eyes and say "SCALES DON'T TALK STUPID." heehee, anywho moral of that pointless story is that it's hard to do, but you can do it. Try weighing yourself every other day for a week instead of every day. Once you get that down, try every two days, then three and so on. Ooooooor my personal favorite suggestion and if it would not have been my parents' scale I woulda SMASHED THE CRAP OUTTA THE DANG THING! But either way gets the job done :) Again, good luck and I'm praying for you! You're doing a good job, you just gotta keep going!!!! <3
You're welcome! You should definitely stop weighing, I understand that it is a compulsion that seems too scary to break, but trust me you will feel so much better if you do. You'd feel even better if the scales were gone completely (out of sight, out of mind) but idk if thats possible like if your family need/use them etc
I actually did this! I had my dad hide them from me at first too but I would always find them... so eventually I took them outside, got a hammer and smashed them :) That was years ago, and I actually hardly think about my weight in numbers now (well, I do, because I know around what my weight is, especially since I was weighed a few weeks ago, but its not my strongest ED habit)
I just had a big lunch, and had about 2100 yesterday, so I'm definitely winning! I still look at myself and wish I was smaller, but I'll learn to live with it. i know that I couldn't possibly be big at 57kg!!
Thats great :D We definitely don't see ourselves how other people do. I feel too big too at my weight, but I know based on the number its not possible (you are bef not big either!)
Maybe getting the opinion of others might help you to see things clearer? Keep winning haha <3
Original Post by shadowboxerbaby:
I actually did this! I had my dad hide them from me at first too but I would always find them... so eventually I took them outside, got a hammer and smashed them :)
YOU ARE MY IDOL.
Haha thanks <3 I have to admit it felt so good!