Feeling disgusted with myself...

So I've been pretty overweight my whole life. However, recently, I can't shake the feeling of being disgusted with myself. Just walking around, I feel like a big ball of ugly and have no desire to leave my bed.

 

Normally, I just continue the whole eating healthy/working out thing to get myself feeling better. However, I just weighed myself yesterday and saw that I have not dropped any weight over the past two weeks, though I did start eating much healthier and have even worked out a few days.

 

Any solutions? Things you tell yourself to get over it and enjoy life regardless of what you look like? I have friends coming over tonight and they are staying through the weekend so we will probably be going out every night. As much as I missed my friends, I can't get over how nasty I look and I know this will impact my ability to enjoy myself with my friends. Any advice would be much appreciated!

I'm sorry you're going through a tough patch but I promise you it gets better. I at one point on my journey didn't see the scale moving for over three weeks. It was demotivating but I pushed myself regardless. At the end of the day it was not about the scale but about me feeling better. I kept exercising, eating healthier and before I knew it the pounds started coming off. Be patient, don't give up and the reason you should keep going is because you're worth it! With all that being said: Are you eating the proper amount of cals? How many calories are you burning during your workout? Maybe increase your workout. Keep in mind that this is a transition that should happen slowly and if you ever fall of the wagon just get back up. Good luck on your journey :)

Don't give up and don't be so hard on yourself. The state of your flesh is only temporary and you're taking the right steps to mold that- but remember the person inside is going everywhere your flesh goes and it deserves to be happy right here right now. Happy is a state of mind, not a magic set of pounds. Get out of bed and keep moving.

I lost a total of 0 lbs for the first 4 weeks. I was not upset or frustrated I was pissed off. So I started doing a bunch of research and asked my own question on the weight loss forum. The responses agreed with most of the research I found. My calorie intake was too low, not by a lot but by about 200 or a couple extra apples or oranges each day. I uped my calories to my bmr and that week lost 4 lbs. I have now been doing this approx. 10 weeks and averaging just under 1 lbs a week. Don't give up, adjust if need be but stick with it.

Thanks guys. It's nice to know I'm not the only one for whom the scale didn't move at first. I think I'll stick with the 1250ish calories for a bit but increase my intensity of workouts.

 

Also, love what you said about the person going inside going everywhere your flesh goes. :) I totally agree. Regardless of my body at this point in time, it will get better and there's no reason for me to mope about it while I'm working hard to make myself healthier. 

 

Thanks everyone. Just needed some reassurance. :)

You know, it took you 23 years to gain 220 pounds but if you think about it, it will just take you a year or two to get to your goal weight.  You're at the most attractive period of your life so every time you see a vending machine, tell yourself that that vending machine is robbing you of this time when all sorts of excitinig and eligible men will be pursuing you.

 

On another note, 1250 calories seems low and our bodies try to hold onto fat when you starve yourself because it's been designed to do so.  I'll bet if you continue to exercise and up your calorie intake by 200 or so, you'll lose weight that much more effectively. 

 

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I've plateaued recently, and at one point my weight actually went UP (I'm pretty sure that was hormonal, though.) It's no fun no matter how you spin it, but what got me through is knowing that even if don't feel/look any thinner, damn it, I'm much HEALTHIER and I'm now eating and exercising in a way that I don't have to feel ashamed about. And knowing that I'm doing the right thing and knowing that I'm doing all I can to not only lose weight, but be healthier and feel better, is worth its weight it gold, because it isn't dependent on a set of scales.

I am 16 years old and I feel like how you feel sometimes. Although, I have to constantly remind myself that it doesn't just run away. You have to continue working at it and as much as its exciting to read the scale and notice at least 1lb off sometimes its best to just keep going and then look at the scale when you FEEL better.

Also go with your gut feeling more because I have had times when I gained weight because I gained muscle and not fat, it's weird but I felt amazing and was disappointed to learn that I actually gained but happy to know it wasn't fat.

KEEP GOING AND DON'T GIVE UP!!! MOTIVATE YOURSELF TO SUCCEED!

When I was losing weight I gained 10 lbs back at one point. yeah, not fun. But I picked up the pieces, and now here I am maintaining my GW of 135ish for about a year now. :)

We all go through rough patches. That's why no one said this was easy -- the beginning is especially difficult. Stick with it..you're stronger then you think!