Girls in their 20's who want to lose about 100 pounds

ana: you look so tiny!!!!!! :-)

Bucket List - Learn to play the piano and fly a plane, see the pyramids in Egypt, go on a cruise, ride in a hot air balloon, go snorkeling, have at least 1 year of crazy partying fun (before the age of like 32 by which time i think i will feel compelled to get married and settle down and then by 34 start thinking about having babies), sail across the ocean...

5 years from now....

Personally, I want to be at goal weight, maintaining a size 8, and happily married to the love of my life.  I want to have a job that is challenging but enjoyable, such that I look forward to getting up each day.  I would like to be living in warmer climate, maybe in the DC area but maybe even somewhere like Atlanta.  I want a place with diversity, great restaurants, good shopping, and tons of theatre/Broadway shows, plus mild winters.  I imagine that I would also want to start thinking about a family at that time so I would like to have a home that I have nicely decorated with awesome furniture that my hubby does not give me a hard time about (haha, was reading what other people were saying about their men having questionable furniture taste!)  I would also like to be really active and fit and enjoying bike rides, salsa dancing, swimming, and other wonderful activities.

Professionally, I hope to have 5-6 years of solid work experience (going on 4 right now) and graduated from Harvard with my MBA.  (Yeah.  I know it is a total pipe dream.  You have to like part the Red Sea to get in.)  I would like to be applying for or maybe even starting a fellowship in urban development working for HUD in Washington DC.  I would probably also be taking additional urban planning courses on the government's dime.  Eventually, so like my 10-15 year plan, I would like to do a mix of consulting for the government on development projects, owning my own development business and fund, and teaching at a university center of sorts in the area of design, development and deal making while also advising students.  I always want to do the domestic violence pro bono work that I have been involved with as well.  Ideally, I would work on a very limited basis in the summer and could enjoy a vacation place somewhere, maybe even just using my current condo in Chicago in the summer time.

shapie- Happy to hear your trend line is sitting pretty in onederland with you :)  That car of yours has been very problematic.  Hopefully they'll get her all fixed up for the final time.  Really awesome with the elliptical work today!  Hope you weren't needed at work and that you're enjoying pizza/movie/Casey.  Can I bank muppet's snuggles since I was a good girl and went to the gym?

fay- Quite an accomplishment to have been to the gym with all that's been going on.  Proud of you, girl!  Do look into Zumba; you'll love it!

akasha- You would be a much better woman than me if you completed p90x.  I won't go there.  SCARY!

muppet- Keep it up with the March Madness!  Doin swell :)  About the skin stuff...  I only mentioned my worst one, but Lord knows I have issues on my cheekbones and chin as well :P  Did you end up suffering through your "gym class of death?"  I say try it 3 times.  If you're still not into it after the 3rd go, then step away.  Do something you enjoy :)  Here's my calorie target tool findings for sedentary (I log all my exercise.)...  "You should consume about 1,308 calories a day to reach your goal weight of 155 lbs. This is at a reasonable weight loss average of 1 lbs per week, which should be reached by June 30, 2010."

dalma- I googled the "rock n' roll stepper" and even read some reviews.  It's a Tony Little product.  He's such a spaz!  The contraption sounds interesting and should work your core as you balance and your legs as you shift the weight.  One chick said she was rocking across the room.  Any problems with that?  And goodness!  One hour!!!  It stated that 15 mins is "advanced."  Thanks for always updating your pics.  It's really nice to see your transformation from beautiful to beautiful :)  WTG on hitting your March Madness goal 4 days early!

fallon- I agree that your body is probably hanging on to calories and weight and not allowing you to see a drop in the scale.  You may be losing inches though.  But please, just be careful.  This is coming from someone who has exercised 3+ hours today, but I've incorporated calorie dense nuts, cheese, extra rice, and 2 additional servings of fruit, besides my normal eats.

ally- You're going to have to kick it up a notch if you're going to make your 180 for the week, honey pie!  Get a move on!  *wink*  Ewww, 6 egg whites a day for days on end!?!  No p90x for me, thank you!

embalmer- Sorry the scale is retarded...  Your long work shift sucks!  Must be 2 different jobs?  Cuz 10 hours straight is against the law.  I'm not sure what to tell you about your dream.  Maybe just really think about that previous relationship without the "love lost" goggles.  In turn, weigh that against what you've got going with Joel.  ~HUGS~

katy- My husband's name doesn't start with a J either, it's a P.  How did your long day turn out?

boots- It was really nice in Cali today.  I spent some relaxing time by the pool when my son had his daily afternoon nap :)

kari- Awww, that's sweet about your Jonathan <3  How was your walk today?  You inspired me to try the yoga class at my YMCA today.  Thanks!  We have the Wii Fit.  It really helped me to jump start my weight loss back when I started in '08.  Now I'm more of a cardio addict and the Wii Fit just doesn't cut it anymore.  OOooh!  You're so close to completing your goal for the week, and so early still!  Yeah you!

iwill- It's really great and awful at the same time to lose weight, isn't it.  Never knew I would have to deal with feelings I felt when I was heavier.

beachbabe- That's uncalled for and soooo untrue!  When you lose weight you'll be the same awesome person you've always been.  They'll just be stuck with their awful selves for eternity.

ana- You are looking very small!  I totally see progress!  Check out your tiny torso!!!  I heart your list :)  Have you tried the 100 cal bags of Doritos?  They taste exactly the same, only you can eat the entire bag and not have to beat yourself up afterward!  Sounds like you burn an extra 8-900 extra calories a day doing 1.5 hours of high impact aerobic exercise.  You should be eating more like 18-1900 a day.

timid- Sounds like you've been biz-eeee!  Hopefully you've been able to handle the stress well and getting enough sleep.  I had to ask my computer geek husband what a terrabyte was, LOL!  Sucks to lose so much memory!  Jogging/biking/general outdoor exercise comradeship is very cool and motivating :)

christine- Wowza!  You're killin those pounds and miles!  Good luck with BL audition.  Very exciting :)

watchme- ~HUGS~ Because you are a wonderful woman.  I knew I could count on you to put out an awesome 5 year plan ;)

You chicks have got me thinking about a bucket list.  I'll let you know if I actually come up with anything cool ;)  So here's my workout tally for the week.  I added in some extras to my double Zumba today, like 1 hour of yoga and tried about 25 mins of the hip hop class.  The hip hop was not any exercise to me; too much explaining the next 8 count and practicing it at a slow pace.  Meh, it was something new.  The yoga was pretty good.  I've come to conclude that I have awesome balance.  We did lots of warrior poses, so strength training there.  Anywho...  410 mins of intended exercise (can't add the 25 from hip hop), and it's only Wednesday.  Better be seeing a drop by Friday!  I want to be under 170 by my b-day (4 more days to go).  Tomorrow is going to be boot camp in the early am and turbo kick/body sculpt in the mid-morning.  Then I have to work in the pm.

march madness: 180/160

i was gonna do some more cardio, but i just wound up doing my arm weights when i got home. whatevs. i seersly want my weight down and my exercise up by the end of the month, so i might get up a smidge early and throw in a half hour of cardio b/f i get ready for work. i should. i will! besides, chocolate is all around me, and i'm gonna eat it.

in other, awesome news, jay asked me today to start picking out clothes for him offically! yay! so i've been online picking out a style for him and learning the proper way men's clothes should fit. he's not gonna like it, b/c his clothes will touch his skin, but he's gonna look effably good when i'm done with him. yum!!!!

first order of business: proper fitting, dark jeans, a motorcycle jacket, a slim-fit one-button sports coat, and a brown leather belt. (not to be worn all at once.) his neck hurt recently and i discovered how insanely hot he looks in a scarf, so come next fall he will be in a modified pea coat w/ a sharp scarf. anyway, since he's almost 40, his style needs to grow the hell up.

edit: yeah, that's it mladdy. and as i use it, it goes in a circle! i have to keep repositioning it. thanks for the compliment, but i only posted the latest pic b/c i could finally fit that damn top. i NEVER thought that would happen. but it sucks b/c it's an XL, which is why i thought it would fit a thousand years ago. and you are freakin' incredible. 410? no way! and you'll be at goal soon. woohoo!

diff. topic: earlier tonight i tried on my cupcake happy hour outfit, an awesome top, that shows off the guns, w/ an embellished neck (dangling chains!), and a stupid short mini-skirt and these insanely hot shooties that are almost the same color as my skin. anyway, i model it for jay and tell him i'm hot n sexy, and he tells me my weight loss is going to my head.

now, i won't dispute this. i have lost an assload of weight, and i'm gonna be an obnoxious braggard until the novelty wears off. but that's not the issue. just this morning, as i was getting in my car, he was looking at his own reflection in my tinted windows and flexing. this man can not pass a reflective surface without stopping and admiring himself. so why the hell shouldn't i have the same privilege?

but i quickly figure out his deal: his last girlfriend lost some weight too. she also cheated on him. he thinks a led to b. so he thinks history's gonna repeat itself. so i tell him, yeah i'm glad i lost the weight, especially b/c now people won't wonder how i got such a hot guy. (men and their egos, you know....) so then he demures, as much as an uber-hetero guy can demure, and says that people will now wonder how he ended up with such a hot chick.

we are both ridiculous!

timid:  They say "You never really know someone until you live with them."  And that's probably true.  Last year, these girls heard my complain ALL the time about my ex-roommate, Brooke.  Who is my best friend.  And who was my best friend before I lived with her.  But who I had SERIOUS issues with WHILE we lived together.  I thought our friendship was ruined forever.  I love her desperately and I'm SO glad I no longer live with her, because I wouldn't have been able to...keep...LIKING HER.  I've had 6 roommates in my life.  Ranging from girls picked at random for me in college--to acquaintances that became friends--friends that became enemies--and now Ryan.  Moving in is a big decision--but it would definitely give you insight into the fate of your relationship. 

Totally didn't go to the gym last night.  And I feel great about it, honestly.  I've been working really hard.  I REALLY didn't wanna go.  I STRONGLY dislike that class--and I think I'm going to have to exchange it for another--because that class literally makes me want to never exercise again.  Plus, I usually spend an hour and a half to three hours at the gym on the weekends.  I'm not sweatin' it.  AND I've been walking all this week. 

Bucket List:  Own an arts venue/bar.  Travel a LOT.  Learn sign language.  And maybe Spanish.  And maybe Russian. 

mladdy:  Haha, except you AREN'T sedentary.  You probably burn more than anyone else up IN here!!  //  I almost cried about my broken out face last night.  It keeps getting worse.

Ryan told me he'd one day take a dance class with me!!!!  YAAAAAAAAY!!  I love swing and waltz--and he's always been SO opposed to learning.  But suddenly he said he'd try it sometime.....

Who's your celebrity crush?  Looks-wise?  Because sometimes I pretend that my celebrity crush is Seth Rogen--because I LOVE him...but when I think about my "ultimate hottie"--it's gotta be Jeffrey Dean Morgan.  Dark hair, dark eyes, big, broad, masculine, often bearded....Mmm...A MAN-man!!  That's what I'm talking about. 

Morning Ladies!!! I am  actually up before 8:30am for once. LOL

So I've been up and down with my moods and just been lurking around the forum.

I didn't work out for 2 days because of all this stuff going on, but today this morning I am going jogging and I will be doing at least a 75 minute work out and then tonight I will go jogging.

march madness--- 52/210

Things are looking up though. I got a call back from TJ MAX and I go in for an orientation on Tuesday at 2pm. I hope I get the job so I can at least work for now and be away from this house. The people here are driving me crazy.

Down 2.6lbs Lowest CC weight.

5 year plan--- I want to get my GED and go to college so I can get a job as an x-ray technician. Pay off what little bit of debt I have. Buy a house (doesn't have to be 100% perfect) flip it and sell it. Hopefully finally be able to get married to Jason and have the wedding we want to have. Maybe have our first kid.

Savings Account--- I don't have one but once I get a job I will def. start one. I want to start a fund for when I am old. lol

bucket list---Travel the world and be sure to visit Ireland, England, Scotland, Bora Bora, go horse back riding, publish all of my poetry into a book, have at least 2 little kids, go ski diving, go snorkeling, go diving in the ocean and look for a ship wreck, go on a cruise,

Target Calorie Thingy Hmmm. I'm currently 195.8, I have my goal set as 170 by October 10th. My calorie coach says if I remain on my current trend I'll reach goal by September 20th. That's right around 1lb/week, which I'm cool with. Maybe it is a per person kind of thing, either way it seems pretty accurate to me.

akasha It wasn't THAT bad, it was just...off. And I feel fine. // And I think that you can eat more and still lose your pound per week, do it up your way girl!

kari Well atm I live eat, and breathe design...in one way or another. Hooray for your manfriend wanting to walk on a consistent basis! // WiiFit: I have it and use it from time to time, the yoga poses are pretty intense. I think muppet does it more often and can give you a better run down but I can totally see how consistent use could help.

bucket list I have a short term bucket list (my 101 things to do in 1001 days) and I'm way behind on it. But my long term list includes a lot of reading and a lot of travel/museums/adventures. I want to go everywhere: Alaska, Ireland, Hawaii, Aruba, London, Dollywood, Paris, St. Petersburgh, Australia, New Zealand, not to mention Yosemite, the Grand Canyon and other places in the states...the list goes on and on.

kari My dad used to have a darkroom in his house in Brooklyn. I was so jealous that he had it growing up!

kari/iwill You ever get to NYC to see a show you let me know, I'm right around the corner :) We'll do lunch.

mupps I totally want to see what your tat looks like now. I'm thinking this might be the year for me to get my tattoo on my foot. But then sometimes I think I should wait till I'm 30 and get it then. I'm a baby. I finally decided what I want, where I want it and exactly what I want it to look like...now I can't decide when to get it. // Also, okay okay, if you don't ENJOY the class then don't do it. I wouldn't want to either, spend the time doing something you like! // Jeffrey Dean Morgan is totally sexy, I agree. I have a huge mega ridiculous crush on Mike Piazza and I have since high school. I don't care about the ridicule I've received, the man's sexy.

mladdy You can totally steal muppet's snuggles. But I didn't get to the gym last night...I went dress shopping instead.

beachbabe Ignore them. Don't let them get you down. I know it's rough and it grates my every nerve when people are mean and gossip or whisper but don't let them see how much it bothers you.

ana Even with the bad angle I can tell how fantastic you look! Brava! Cute top too :)

dalms The top is adorable and you look so happy in your cheestastic photo :P And HOORAY for Jay finally handing his closet over to you! I hope the first thing is to get rid of all those white tube socks! I think I finally convinced Jason that those are fine when wearing pants, but NEVER okay when wearing shorts. And hahahaha about the reverse psychology to work your will on Jay's ego!

christine Woah! That's intense! Congrats.

timid Glad you think you did so well on your midterm! // Last summer when I was running there was this skinny old man marathon runner on the boardwalk constantly...he was a very Scott Glenn kind of looking man and he lapped me ALL the time. Here he is this marathon runner just doing his own thing running up to 4 miles in the time it takes me to run 1. At the time I was doing the c25k challenge so I was interval running. One time I was just coming out of a running interval as he was passing me and he just quietly said, "nice run" as he passed. It made me so happy because I knew he wasn't being obnoxious or mean and he was actually encouraging me. Long story short, I totally get you when you talk about that awesome comradery feeling when you're out on runs :)

Oh and my vagina totally doesn't wear a beret, that's just the example I remember from the Vagina Monologues.

My vagina wears a tiny top hat. You know...cocked to the side all cute like.

As for confidence: Fake it till you make it ladies! I swear by it!

Fallon: No worries - it was a "Biggest Loser" article about undereating. It bascially said don't do it - and then listed reasons why. But since you assure us we don't have to worry about you - it's all good :P

Muppet: That is awesome! I wish I was taller :S I'm pretty sure that's why my burn is so whack :S

Awwwww Beachbabe! You KNOW that isn't true and screw them for not seeing all that is wonderful about you. Console yourself in the fact that they haven't matured since highschool and ignore them. Childish bia's. You only have to deal with them at work, they have to deal with themselves allllll day!

Ana: 500 pairs of earrings?!?!? You know what that means? One of these! SWEET!

Challenge: I'm at 90/190

Christine: That is crazy mileage!!! You go girl! I doubt you even need Biggest Loser! (Though I wish you luck getting on, cause I'm sure it would be a great experience)

Mladdy: I don't know about that. All the stuff you already do, if you cut it out and only did p90x, it'd be a cakewalk!

Dalma: I love shopping for Jay - grown men's clothes are so awesome :) Have fun!!! (P.S. You are so hot :)

Celebrity Crush: Jude Law (still, I can't get over his accent), Edward Norton (I just LOVE him), Adam Brody (I watched the OC SOLELY for him)... and a few others but those are my tops!

Bucket List: Get proper portaits of myself (at goal), record a (self-written) song, Perform for a crowd, Travel to Europe, Jamaica, Brazil, Africa and Georgia, paint a picture that I actually WANT to hang in my house, Get a masters degree, find a career I love... there's more, I actually wrote a list a month or two ago!!

I've never seen the Vagina Monologues - but can mine wear Beyonce's lacefront?

Hi everyone!  Work is nuts, nuts, nuts...

Muppet, yay for tattoo consults!  I was thinking about having the one on my wrist changed/expanded, but it's already kind of big, and I'm worried that at some point in my professional life I'll need to be able to cover it.  It's not that bad, though the lines are kinda crooked, but seeing as the guy who did it was probably under the influence of something, I'm lucky it doesn't look like a total hot mess.  I have to admit, I'm curious about what yours looks like too! :-)

Beachbabe, it's easy to let other people's negativity get to us, but the other girls are right: they wouldn't be talking about you if you were really a waste of space!  Jealousy pure and simple... Eff 'em!

Ana, you look fabulous!!! :-)

Timid, I hate that men can lose just by, like, drinking beer only two nights a week instead of four.  I bust my ass for a one pound loss, and the FH could drop five by just cutting out chips or something.  Jerks. :-)

Christine, Good luck with the Biggest Loser! :-)

Bucket List: Finally learn to play my guitar, sing with a live band, tour Europe and bits of South America, road trip on a motorcycle, get my Spanish back and finally become fluent, learn to speak at least some conversational French and maybe Italian, master the butterfly stroke (better get on that one before I'm too old, huh?)... There's more, but I haven't thought of them yet, lol!

Mladdy, lol, thanks for the kick in the rear, chica!  I'm actually STILL at 40/180, but I'm going to the gym tonight, and I'm determined to finally try a spin class!  I'm terrified, but I'm trying to challenge myself to one new thing a month, and spin class was last month's so I need to get on it! I'll have good things to report tomorrow, hopefully! :-)

Dalma, that's so awesome about Jay finally giving up the ratty clothes! And I think ya'll are ridiculously cute! :-)

Celebrity crush: I've had a major crush on Tom Selleck since I was like four.  He's kinda old now, but I still see reruns of Magnum PI and swoon, lol!  I LOVE the man's man type... And chest hair... LOVE chest hair on a man!  Mmmmm, 1980s era Tom Selleck is the most perfect man ever! :-)

Okay, back to work for me...

Wii Fit:  I barely use it now.  It's a great beginner-tool.  There's some fun stuff on there.  I step on it every once in awhile.  But it just isn't the same as a REAL workout.  I mean--the difference is definitely there.  BUT--I recommend the rhythm boxing.  I'd say it's one of the better workouts on there.  But if you aren't gonna join a gym...go for it.  I mean--it basically costs what a yearly membership costs for the Wii and the Wii Fit.

Shapie-poo:  Sent you a tattoo pic.  Basically, I like the idea that I originally had--it was just done really poorly by a sucky artist.  I wanted this big, bright flower contrasting with this smaller black-n-grey tattoo I already had.  I was thinking like--Wizard of Oz type color pop.  And it turned out awful.  I'm hoping the guy I talk to tomorrow (whose work I've seen and it's AMAZING) can think of something to save it.  Honestly--it can triple in size, add color, add black and grey, add objects, whatever.  I just want to have a GOOD tattoo.  Period.  I'm SUPER open to ideas. 

Akasha:  I totally blame you for my period starting a week early today.

Ally:  I was thinking about getting other tats on my feet.  But at this point, my tattoos are VERY coverable.  And I wear a lot of dresses.  So the foot/ankle region is a little scary.  But my friend Brooke and I are getting matching tattoos soon.  So I have to pick a place ASAP!

I really want a tat. But I'm hesitant about when to get it. When is a good time? idk...

I'm in love with the placement of Joss Stone's tattoo on her foot and that's the kind of deal I want. Something that pops out ever so slightly when I'm wearing heels.

I have a design as a jumping off point but I'm curious to see what a tattoo artist would do with it. I mean I am an artist and I'd like my own art on my body but there's just something unique about that look that tattoo artists give their tattoos.

I have some photos of a henna piece I got done over the summer on my foot to test out how I liked the design. It's not perfect because the woman did it from a drawing and the placement isn't what I wanted but it is pretty sweet.

Oh, for those interested my design is a spring of lily of the valley and a few bells wrap around my ankle bone.

hey ladies!

Just came back from Pilates. I still suck at it, but I got the best compliment ever from my instructor who says that I'm slimming down :). Thank you again for the compliments it's nice to hear them because IF MY FAT COULD TALK it would tell me that there's no way I'm ever going to finish losing it.

Re: tattoos, I want to get a henna one to show off during Spring Break and know if I wouldn't chicken out if I ever decide to have the real deal.

A little anecdote about confidence. (This is kinda long, but bear with me.)

The school my mother teaches at is closing so she's going out on interviews for new teaching positions. Little background she's taught at this school forever, she started teaching there in her 20s and then left when my older brother was born...stayed home till my younger sister was in 4th grade and then went back to teaching. After about 5 years at a public school she got her job back at the original school and has been there ever since. This school is a big part of who she is. Anyway...she has people observing her classes as part of interviewing processes and she's been all flustered all week long.

My mom knows her ish. She teaches high school science and the only thing that ever gives her trouble is O-chem which she rarely ever really need to teach. She's smart and has a great rapport with her students but she's so NERVOUS about this whole ordeal. I personally would be jittery, but I wouldn't be as nervous as my mother is and I think a lot of that has to do with confidence. My mom isn't a confident person, she never has been. She lets my grandma and my aunt walk all over her all the time and I know she could be so much more at peace and organized in life if she were more confident.

One day a few years ago my mom basically told me, "I'm so glad that you're so confident" honestly, before that point I never thought about it. I never realized I was a confident person, I was just me...and apparently I am a confident woman. And before then I never realized how un-confident my mother was, it never crossed my mind but it makes so much sense now that I think about it. It was like she turned a light bulb on. My cousin calls me the Alpha Woman sometimes because I have a level head and can make decisions easily. Even if I've made the wrong decision I live with it and I don't dwell.

I know for a fact that my mother's life would have been a million times easier and more enjoyable if she was slightly more confident. It pains me to see her struggle but I guess it's a small consolation that she raised two very strong confident women.

I swear confidence got me my current job. My boss has told me that out of all of the candidates for the position I was the most confident even if I didn't know all the answers. People are attracted to confidence. Even if you're wearing something ridiculous or you feel like you don't fit in, if you walk into that room confident, people will respect you. And if they make a snarky comment, brush it off, because you're better than them anyway.

I guess what really got me on this topic is how every once in awhile one of you lovely ladies will say something about your self esteem and how you're feeling horrible about yourself. So let me just say this. All of you, EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU are amazing. Seriously. I can't even begin to tell you how incredible I think each and every one of you are. Each in different ways, you're all beautiful, intelligent women and I'm glad I have ya'll as strangers friends and we're making this difficult journey together.

So screw people who affect your mood. Shove off those feelings of remorse or regret about something you didn't get done or you didn't do well. Stand up tall, shoulders back, chest out, and strut...errr...wrong tangent...but really you ladies should all be confident in yourselves and know that you're beautiful and wonderful and all those words that end in ful. I'm grateful to have this forum/thread.

It pains me to see you ladies let yourself get put down by people or even put down yourself. Yes, we all have horrible days where we just feel worthless, but as long as you know you're NOT worthless it's okay. That day will pass and you can just forget all about it and get on with your fabulous life.

I'm beautiful, I'm intelligent, I'm honest, I'm charismatic, and so are all of you!

And, I'm confident that we'll all get to our goal weight and achieve everything we want in life, let's start ticking things off those bucket lists, shall we?

omg the vagina monologues are so much fun. Its wild and cazy my bestfriend and i go see it every year. if you like things like that you should also check out rocky horror picture show live thats the best!!! i grew up with that my mom was actually in it when she was young the first thing i want to do when i lose this weight is actually to audition for it.

shapie--- You are so right!!! We all should fake it till we make it!! Thank you for your post. Def. made me feel sooo much better.

christine--- I LOVE Rocky Horror Picture Show!!! Lets do the time warp again! Lets to the time warp again!

Shapie:  Uhm, you better think I'm hotter than everyone else, because I'm pretty sure we're dating. 

Today is going by SO slowly.

Things that will make me feel better:  dying my hair.  (The red is getting lighter and lighter and needs to be re-dyed with a darker red.)  Meeting with this tattoo guy and hoping he has some brilliant ideas.  My skin clearing up. 

.........and that's pretty much it for now.  I'm wearing a dress today that I haven't been confident enough to wear in a good while.  My skin's just broken out, my hair is washing me out, and I'm antsy about tattoo work. 

If I don't meet with tattoo man today--then I need to dye my hair.  And possibly do some laundry.  And if I see him today--I need to do that tomorrow. 

I painted my nails/toenails last night.  And tweezed my eyebrows.  So that's a step in the right direction.  And I have a mini-facial scheduled for the 22nd.  I need to be beautified!!

I'm really confident. I haven't always been this way, I sure wasn't in high school. But somewhere in my early 20s it hit me. I was like who the h* cares what everyone else thinks, this is my body and my life, I need to live it and be happy. My hubby does say I have a big head sometimes too dalma and he says I would hate to see how you act at goal weight but I blow him off because "yes" I do catch him looking at himself in the mirror just as often--lol

I had a restless night of sleep and I'm ready for Friday. I got 1 day of exercise under my belt and 3 more to go. Not much else to report. I'll catch you all later :-)