Girls in their 20's who want to lose about 100 pounds

hello Loves. i feel good. went for a 50 minute jog in this wonderfully cold and rainy day. good stuff. puts me at 220/200 go me!!! did it 2 weeks in a row.

I just made the best hot wing pizza! wow, I'm sooo full!

march madness: 195/180! hell yeah!

fallon: WTG! 

March Madness: 376/210

I made a whole $33 in the yard sale. lol Oh well! I am $33 richer. I haven't weighed myself in 2 days and been too busy to eat. I will catch up and re-post later.

Muppet- Beautiful darling ;) Your a trooper for sure :) Longest tattoo i've done was about 3.5-4 hours.. Go you :)

Soni- I wanted to respond to you sense I didn't see(may have missed) a reply. That's (unfortunately) something you'd have to talk to him about. There are choices though, including a surrogate mother if worst came to worst(and you weren't cool with adopting). While it's a deal breaker for me(wanting children at all) it may not be with others. I'm sorry if reading the responses upset you dear. I certainly wasn't trying to offend anyone!

Weigh in- I forgot... But i'm being such a cry baby this week... and I kept seeing 236 on the scale ALL week. Up .4 from last week. I think it's Pre TOM. :( Stupidness. Either that or working all the time has drained me emotionally(and it's why i'm all teary..) In which case I actually did gain :( ...   I cut my hair again. Took pics mainly for me to see the cut/weight loss... I may or may not post them... Just to keep track of my rolls haha! <3 you girls!

I work 10 hours again tomorrow.. Booo!!

hello lovelies!  busy, tired, need a vacation... busy weekend too.  but i am doing ok.  a little better.  talked to my law school bff and she put a lot of things in perspective.

morning girls!

busy busy weekend. i went bowling, broke up with jay, and now i'm headed to brunch in a couple hours.

about breaking up with jay: i feel free. i knew from the start that i was only with him out of charity. he wanted someone to stay with him so bad. what i mean is, he's been in relationships that constantly crash and burn for the last 20 years and he desperately wants someone in his life for the rest of his life. 

anyway, i was trying way too hard to be his One, totally disregarding my life and what i wanted out of it. before i met him i wanted to spend my life traveling and enjoying life; i ditched my entire plans for him and was gonna sacrifice myself to be the partner of a narcissistic, self-centered ass.

i knew from day one that he and i had nothing in common, but i thought that i could make things work. i arrogantly thought that i could make a successful relationship with anyone, but i wasn't happy for most of that time, and i lost myself. which was my greatest fear getting into a relationship. but that's okay; it's over now.

the real tragedy is that his greatest fear was that i'd lose the weight and leave him. well, that happened, but only because he pushed me away. his loss. i feel unburdened. he was bringing me down, so i'm glad it's over. 

Good job girls, you are rocking March Madness!

Dalma: I'm happy for you. I feel like Im going through the same thing. Except its a little tricky because we have a child together - and I know that shouldn't and I don't want it to be a reason to just "stay". We have been through so many ups and downs and the last time was really bad..up to the point where I had a woman call me!!!!???? Yea, you read right! Now its not that I am passive but I am just so tired of the BS that I don't care anymore. Now especially since I told him that I got the job I interviewed for, going back to work, and that I am planning to leave, all of a sudden he wants to have random talks about the relationship. Before we didn't really used to talk but its to a point now we are friendly. I've reached a point now that I am comfortable with us being friends and not being in a relationship. But now with all this talk and all this crap is just confusing me. I can't pretend and be fake and let everything be all good again. Its gotten to a point where I just can't do it anymore. Yesterday we took our daughter to a birthday party and he was just all weird and googlely-eyed and smiling and all that stuff and Im just like uh huh. Now he's all asking for hugs n kisses and Im saying "Why?" Yesterday he did it and his answer was "Cuz I'm your man". Now, he is the type of person that will say what he wants to get what he wants without regard to anyone else. Im not saying that I am perfect but its confusing because Im not sure if he is saying this stuff cuz he's "coming around" and realizes that I am REALLY leaving and he doesn't want to lose something good or just that he just wants me to stay-he doesn't want to be alone (which I've told him if he doesn't change he will end up old and alone).

All this is just ridiculous. One minute we are "like oil and water" (his words) and the next "Im your man". I'm over it but I still do love him. Love SUCKS ****! 

I still plan to leave by the way, whether or not it works out.

Morning Divas!!!

March Madness: Only 10 Days left!  

I hope to lose at least another 1.5lb - 2lbs before the end of March. It would be nice to be under 175lbs. 

Hey girlfriends.  My friend Lauren left early this morning.  And now I'm just generally exhausted.

Having trouble with the gym, since I can't really wear a sports bra right now.  Or really any bra.  Wondering how to fix ths issue.  May skip PiYo today, but I DEFINITELY want to do Zumba tomorrow.

Am SOOOOOO glad I have an extra day off from Job #1 tomorrow.  I need it. 

Had really horrible dreams last night. 

At 248 even today.  So--down from yesterday, still up from Friday.  Totally cool with that.  I have like--a week and a half to lose 2lbs, which would make me super happy. 

Happy Sunday, ladies

I just did the whole head shake, double-take action thing, when I read your post, dalma.  I know it didn't come from out of nowhere, but wow girl, you are brassy, sassy, and amazing!

Ok, I'm going to read the other posts now :)

EDIT: Read the remaining posts.

reddy- I'm sure you're going to get through this.  Get yourself happy, healthy, and make any changes necessary to get there.  I've felt this before too, but my problem is that I haven't figured out what it is I want or feel like I'm missing in my relationship.  I haven't completely given up on him yet, since, like I said, I'm not sure what it is that's missing, and it very well could be filled by him if we can both figure that out.  BTW, yesterday marked 10 years of us being a couple.  SCARY!

dutchess- GL on those few pound to end your March :)

muppet- Can you wear a couple of tight tanks?  Or a lightweight hoodie (maybe even short sleeved?)?  No Zumba would make me feel very bummed.

tina- You're doing famously!  Hope that cold goes away real quick.

I'm off to work today.  I ate badly last night and besides that I'm at high tide w/TOM, so I'm feeling pretty ishy today.  Any happy, un-bloat juju you can send my way would be much appreciated!

Wow Dalma: If you made the right decision for you and you feel free and liberated, then more power to you!. I know exactly what it's like to lose yourself in a relationship with someone else and try like mad to make someone happy while being totally miserable yourself. You are awesome for recognizing it and bailing.

I didnt' see it this way at the time, but my ex cheating on me and leaving me no choice but to kick his sorry ass out was the best thing he ever did for me...I'm finding me again and I'm freaking awesome!

Reddy: Good luck with whatever you decide.

Muppet: AWESOME TAT!!...Are you going to get something on the other side too?

I wanted to go to the gym Friday, yesterday, and today, because I wont be able to go again until Tuesday, but...what I thought was allergies was really a cold, and I want to rest so my cold goes away! I'm now down 11.6 pounds from 3/7/10 and 24.6 pounds from November! WHOOT!

muppet--- Love your tattoo. Looks great!

mladdy--- Thanks for the well wishes. I really hope to lose the last couple of pounds.

dalma--- I am glad you are happy with your decision to end your relationship. I hope everything works out great for you.

Mladdy:  I do have a tank with a built in bra--but it's a little big...but--maybe I should get over it being unflattering and get over it. 

Who would have slept for so long? wow, this is normally my work day, but I switched. The whole permission thing is working swimmingly! I hope that it become a habit, I really need it.

dutchess: you are a MM rock star!

dalma: I totally had to read twice, then I was like O.O. If it's a good move for you, then alright.

DALMA:  WHOOOOOA!!!  I was totally skimming and place-keeping and only now have read what you said.

If that's how you feel--then great.  But what made you come to this conclusion?  I know you'd had a lot of little dramas--but I TOTALLY didn't see this coming.  What was the wake-up call?  Sometimes it's like we're completely asleep throughout a relationship--until there's one big ol' BAM.  I assume there had to be one--because only a few days ago, you were talkin' about how sweet he was being.  Give me the details!!  (Please?)

dalma: I'm remember old post you wrote and talking about jay. You held in there for a long time and gave 100%. So unlike muppet--I did see this coming..... I'm glad your doing what is best for you. You go girl and keep that head high..You got a place to stay? Take care of yourself.......((HUG)))

March Madness: 135/180

The hike ended up being way more challenging than I thought it was going to be. It was on a mountain by the ocean. And it had big hills that went up and down and up and down. To say the least, we did a lot of climbing. So I did not make it 10 miles. I made it 3.6 miles, which was a great feat!! Even my very fit husband was sweating and saying how proud he was of me for not turning around a long time ago ;-) It took us 2 hours and 15 minutes to do 3.6 miles but again it was not a straight shot by a long haul. Felt like a good accomplishment. I'm paying for it today, so sore.

dalma woah!!!! (did i sound like Joey lawrence? haha) as long as you are doing what is best for you and what makes you happy rock on girlie!!!!!!!

boots good job on your hike homie.

reddy  only you know what is best for you. child or not, do what is better mentally, physically, emotionally, realistically, whateverly. always put yourself 1st, well your child of course, but you know what i am saying. hope it works out.

dutchess good job on the yard sale. was that for the event or just for you? either way, you got money, sweet!

had some chinese food and spent time with the family earlier. now time for Billy. gonna do the whole 90 mins today.  wut wut!!! haha i am so gangsta son!!!!

fallon---The yard sale was Jason's moms. I just had some stuff I don't fit into so I tried to get rid of what I could. The money was just for me. I think for the fundraiser I am going to do a bake sale then do a concert type event. I am planning on doing it before the end of next year. Before then I'd like to get some shirts made, bumper stickers, and some art work hopefully to sell as well.

Original Post by reddytogo: Now, he is the type of person that will say what he wants to get what he wants without regard to anyone else. Im not saying that I am perfect but its confusing because Im not sure if he is saying this stuff cuz he's "coming around" and realizes that I am REALLY leaving and he doesn't want to lose something good or just that he just wants me to stay-he doesn't want to be alone (which I've told him if he doesn't change he will end up old and alone).

All this is just ridiculous. One minute we are "like oil and water" (his words) and the next "Im your man". I'm over it but I still do love him. Love SUCKS ****! 

I still plan to leave by the way, whether or not it works out.

i feel like i wrote this. jay has been calling me constantly since 3 this morning, and i finally started talking to him this afternoon. he is confusing the hell out of me, and i seriously don't know what to do either, reddy. is he coming around? does he "get" it, now that i've left? he says he has, but god, i don't know. i'm just gonna have to take this one second at a time.

muppet, last night i was trying to tell him that i hadn't been happy lately. i hate that i hold things in when it comes to him, so i decided to nut up and just lay everything out on the table so we could work on making things great. well, he was in a pissy mood b/c i was mad at him earlier in the day for his rude phone behaior (diff. story). anyway, i'm tryna tell him how i'm feeling and he immediately takes offense and is like, "if you're so unhappy why don't you leave?" 

i told his ass a long time ago not to say things you don't mean when you're angry, b/c i will not be tested. so, i left the room, packed my ish, and rolled out. so he's been calling me on and off since i left. it took him until this afternoon, and a morning of crying over his parents' house, to see how effing stupid he was, when i was just trying to talk to him.

so we're gonna talk some more tomorrow. i told him everything that bothers me about our relationship and i told him i can't come back to someone with a temper like that. i'm still not saying i'm going back to him; he can say he'll change till he's blue in the face, but that's not actually changing. i'll see what really happens over the next few days.

I wish you the best of luck with whatever you decide to do dalma.