woo, So much time outside this week. The calorie counter says that 3 hours of gardering is over 1,000 calories. I'm not really believeing that, I did work 5 hours out there, So I just rounded it down to 3, still seems really high. I just need to get that fence finished, because I've lost like 2 pumpkin plants and a squash plant to pooka's clumbsy feet. Poor girl doesn't even know what she's doing.
dalma: it's been a long time since someone ate everything, and left me nothing. I almost forgot what that's like. It's also true, I like to avoid thinking about health problems that I could be sliding onto nicks plate, I should really stop, and take smaller portions. I feel ya. thank you!
don: I don't think there is an average weight. I mean, lookit me, I'm like a 14 at a hovering 185-190. stuffs insanity, especially sine there are girls that are lighter and heavier, same height that span the size categories. You'll find out how much when you get there. You might even find you like your body at a 16 or something. I'm down for hitting it, I'm like 191 today, crazy up and down. Also, protein shakes, I have no idea, but I would like to try them out. I sometimes think of them like milkshakes. They used to be sold as a health drink when someone first invented them, and protein shakes seem like the same thing, only not as tasty. great job on that muscle, isn't it great?
watchme: glad that your mom is doing ok, and that you have a job lined up.
tall/big ex's: right? One of the things I used to love is he could pick me up like it was nothing. I want nick to be able to do that...lol.
anewdana: maybe if things get to much for you, get a drink to hold you over. Once it gets rolling, you probably will forget about food.
migikal: I think one of the things that is nessisary to keep going, and to maintain, is to accept yourself. That's a lot of pressure when there are girls that are teeny tiny walking about. I have to say, it's quite a feat to have lost 80 pounds in the first place, that amazing. The point is you, and you shouldn't forget that. congrats on going to the gym for the first time.
dutchess: you're a quick thinker making good of a bad thing. My lucks been pretty high, I'm sending you like 2/3's of it, and keeping you in my thoughts.
ally: glad you guys had a talk, it must have cleared some tension for sure.
elf: I've done it a few days in a row, I think it's fine. There are people who run like 10 miles a day or more, So doing a little bit each day won't kill you as long as you remember to rest.
sonini: if a person really loves you, they love you in all sizes.
muppet: have fun swimming! That section you wrote to sonini, is perfect. There's being ready, and then forncing yourself the rest of the way. I've fallen off the wagon so many times. good greif. I can honestly say, I've gained and lost hundreds of pounds too.
shapie: I'm sorry, you're get over this photography hump.
*hugs* for embalmer! for both the good and the bad. I get scared I think, high 170's and low 180's is basically a big chunk of my life, I also had a stint in the 160's, but that felt really skinny to me. I might have a fear of getting down. it could be why I struggle so much, and seem to have this crazy 2 month stall in the mid 180's. It's a comfort zone, I feel you.
Shapie, I grew up on leftovers! I wouldn't say that I love them (although lasagna is WAY better the second day), but I love having lunch and dinner for the next day without having to cook! I totally do the straight to fridge thing with my leftovers too... Otherwise I nibble as I clean even if I'm full. Isn't it funny how we pick up little coping habits along the way, and just do them without thinking? I'm SO sorry about your photographers... That BLOWS. Especially since it always feels so great to cross something off the list, and be done with it. I think Akasha's right though; they're not as professional as they should be if they'd do something like that. Do you have a B list?
Dutchess, you're like a total rock star! I don't know how you cope with all your in-law ish, and still keep right on trucking with the weight loss! You're awesome, lady! :-)
Muppet, maybe that's what my difference is the the FH, that maybe I never was actually addicted, but just liked the habit. Like you, it was something I just did... While stuck in traffic, while sitting on my porch spying on the neighbors (hey, I was bored!)... I've never tried to quit, struggled all day thinking about it, go buy a pack and then hate myself for smoking... It was more like, I missed the habit, find someone that was a steady smoker and bum one. Or I'd be drinking at a bar and buy a pack from a machine. But it never was like, I HAD to have one NOW or I couldn't think about anything else. I quit full time smoking basically in a week by not going out, keeping busy and not buying a pack. The FH on the other hand, is with smoking like I get with food. I obsess over it, and it's all I can think about sometimes. When I give in and have something I shouldn't have, I feel like crap. It's gotten better, but it's battle sometimes. And I think that's what it is for him... A daily battle. But then, he's been at it over half his life. Poor guy... Have fun swimming!
Elf, I've been wanting to try those! I'll most def have to go get them now 'cuz I LOVE mousse!
Don, oh, I totally know what you mean... I was DYING to get into "normal" size stores when I was plus size... I dreamed of going into any store and trying stuff on! And now it's like my hobby, lol! So I most def understand the drive to a 12! You'll get there soon! :-)
Sonini, yeah, Dalma said it... The FH is m fiance! :-) And way to go with the salad! That makes me want salad for dinner, actually...
Welcome Tinacox! :-)
Embalmer, yeah, I also did that stall out thing... I think sometimes our minds have to catch up with our bodies... Like Coinstar machines or something! You'll get through it soon! :-)
have 2 minutes before i have to run to a meeting but just wanted to say "hi."
ally, meant to tell you that your friend seemed kinda bitchy about the weight loss thing. i've had friends who haven't said anything (which makes me mad) and other friends who have gone the other way and HAVE said something but have been like "yeah, good job, keep it up, but you still have what? like 150 lbs to go?" not so encouraging.
sonini, welcome back, chica. i am starting over (soon) too. mom has ovarian cancer (again) so things kinda suck for me right now. i am also looking for a new job (though am still at the same sucky job i have been at for the last 4 years) and finally have some prospects. hope to be in a new place by the end of august but that may be wishful thinking.
dalma, thanks for the pep talk over the phone the other night. it really helped. i may need another one soon though. in the mean time, i went and got waxed and threaded and have been straightening my hair and painting my nails... all of which, has made me feel less fugly.
all.... thanks so much for the well wishes and prayers. they mean a lot.
Embalmer: OH NO!! Take care of Ms. Bear!! Waffles is ALWAYS trying to eat these chicken bones that people throw on the groung around our apartment complex, instead of putting them in the trash. Let me know how she is! (Waffles eat/puked part of a corn cob last night.) // 230-235 is my lowest too. Except the 229.7 I reached for ONE day. I'm ready to move on. Let's do it together.
Ally: I feel you with the smoking. One of my chain-smoker BFF's will come around and I'm dying for one. I could chain-smoke for days--and then not touch them for months. It's so weird.
Holy crap you guys are talkative today! 20 posts to catch up on!
shapie: I'm sorry to hear about your photographers! I really hate when stuff like that happens to me. I wish you the best of luck at finding someone just as awesome. Still sucks balls though :(
don: Yeah, my friend Trevor has chron's and I've already interviewed him about it and I talk about him a lot in the paper. I added a couple more paragraphs about that and how it feels to be anemic, so hopefully she'll say it's better.
Also: good for you for not worrying about the size 12. You WILL be a smaller size this New Year's Eve, and that's the important thing. Smaller and healthier :)
fallon: Mmmmm pancakes...Now I want some. I'm just hungry in general though so everything sounds good!
Muppet: You are so right on with the excuses talk girl. That is my biggest advice (albeit harsh advice) to people I know trying to lose weight. STOP IT WITH THE EXCUSES! They're what got me to 255 pounds so I try not to make excuses anymore PERIOD.
Awww I'm your inspiration. I'm all blushy now :P Also, I'm mad jealous that you get to go swimming all the time! I love swimming.
dutchess: How many pushups can you do? Are they for real pushups or inclined ones? I can only do one or two. I think that's going to be my next fitness goal: 10 pushups!
Welcome tina! Good for you for making a positive change in your life.
embalmer: Sorry to hear about Mrs. Bear :( Let us know how she's doing. Also, congrats on your all time low!
timid: Yeah, we'll see how I feel tomorrow with running again, but it felt great today. You said you're on week 6 right? I'm a little scared to do week 5...I think I might spend a week doing just the day one part, what do you think?
Work sucked today. Glad to be home. I hate working with those back stabbing vultures. Women are terrible. I am sooo happy I have a 4 day weekend this weekend. I need to take days off from there once in a while otherwise I feel really miserable there.
Anywho, after writing this paper has made me realize I want to be a parasitologist. I really love talking about them, learning about them and telling other people about them and how cool they are. I have a professor at the college I got my bachelor's from who teaches parasitology, so I'm sure he has some contacts and info for me about it.
no prob watchme! whenever you wanna talk, call me! :) and YOU ARE NOT UGLY!!!!!
Had a productive day stayed on track with my calories and even had room for a hot krispy kreme original glaze doughnut. Sad that I almost wrecked my car to get across the highway when the hot sign came on but it was well worth it! I don't even understand why they wait till 5pm to turn that sign on like rush hour traffic isn't bad already. I am 99% sure that they put crack in there dough. The way that hot sign comes on and people damn near kill themselves for DOUGHNUTS..... Something is in that dough girls!
I'm so sorry to hear about your photographer Shapie happy thoughts that you find one even better. That was unprofessional on their part for not telling you someone else was interested in that weekend as well.
Girl Dutchess I would have been all over there butt. You are strong and bc of that things will definitely work out for you!!!
Wow Muppet you so hit the nail on the head.... Definitely food for thought and yet inspiration bc it is an everyday struggle and "motivation" does wear thin but we have to just push past it.
WELCOME TINA!!!! Jump right on in girlie, can't wait to get to know you around the thread!
Still praying for you and your mom Watchme! I have "friends" like that so they are mostly associates now. You will find out quick who really supports you and those that don't. So I stopped telling people or looking for people to comment. It's like some people don't want to see you succeed. Would it kill you to say, "hey you are looking good keep up the good work!" They come with, "you look ok" and then had an attitude. I respond with, "bitch I look GREAT" with a smile!!! sorry for my lil rant(had a moment)
I'm sorry to hear about Ms Bear and stay strong Embalmer. Im pretty sure you are stressed as all get out. Way to go on your all time low, you are almost in the 220s!!!! Don't get discouraged I'm sure it's new to a lot of us losing weight and seeing those numbers drop. Every time I see the number get lower I get nervous bc yes it is new and takes me out of my comfort zone. I "loose" myself everytime I get on the scale bc I have always been the "big" girl I don't know how to be anything other than that. But it's also exciting bc everytime I step on that scale my confidence grows, my determination grows, my self esteem/respect grow! Hang in there lady and when you feel discouraged just jump on here that is what we do SUPPORT each other!
Go for it Elf! Hopefully the added paragraphes will pacify your teacher.
Hey everyone else *WAVING HARD*
Work was slow and boring!
don: Well I'm not losing any weight at the moment but I am trying to. There is no point in getting into it with his parents, they are jerks!
elf: I do girl push ups. I do 30 total but I do 3 sets of 10. I am working on doing real push ups.
shapie: Couping with the inlaws is a work in progress!
Well I am off to bed ladies! Just a tad bit tired.
keeping my place
Thanks for all advice on dealing with my mum.. To be honest, she's been like this all my life, I try not to let it affect me anymore. It's just how she is, and she is so supportive, I'm lucky in that way. I dread to think what size I'd be if she wasn't!!
My friend's mum has always battled with anorexia, and even though my friend is tiny, about five foot and really petite frame, she has issues with food. I guess it just gets passed on like that.
I have to say girls, I've looked at all your pictures and you all look amazing! Whatever you're doing, keep it up.. You look great! Hopefully if I carry on on here I may look like yous some day..!
Went swimming last night and had my first salad! This probably sounds odd to you guys but I really really hate vegetables.. Especially raw. So that first salad was not an easy thing for me!! I didn't enjoy it, but I ate it. Just gotta keep trying I guess..
Hope you all have a fabulous day!
migi First off YAY on the salad. Getting Jason to eat veggies it a chore sometimes so I'm glad you buckled down and did it! Secondly, and this is pretty much only because you told us you were from England, but I tend to read your comments with a British accent...is that weird? I also tend to read most of the other girls' comments with southern/Texan accents since that's where the majority of them are from...I guess I'm just crazy.
photog Still looking, but I have a bunch of people gathering info for me as well. Which is nice. Even Laura's photographer Jeff is helping me, which is awesome, he didn't even ask me why I wasn't asking for him :P (In reality I liked him a lot but his photography is more romantic and less artistic than I'd like). Emailed a bunch of photographers and hope to hear back from them sometime today. There is one that I like a lot and is priced well, we'll have to see if he has the date open. // I do have back-ups but one I love and is super expensive, like almost three times the price of the one I missed out on would have been. And the other girl I liked her work, but her personality is a little mousey for me. I'm going to need someone who can direct people firmly...you know? We'll see what happens...I mean I know it'll all work out, the paper worked itself out fine, so maybe the photographer will fall in line too?
So I'm back from my hiatus (or however you spell that). Still not doing well with the week's caloric intake, but hoping it will get kicked to the curb this weekend. The encouraging part is when I say not doing well, I still am netting out to negative calories and a burning day, but I'm not doing as well as I'd like sticking to 1400 a day. Part of the reason is... I GOT THE JOB I INTERVIEWED FOR! And I've been scheduling lunch with everyone at my current job so I can try to get to see everyone before I leave. I'm terribly excited - first thing I did was start shopping for gym memberships that included zumba classes but holy heck they are more expensive than I thought - the one I like was $50 a month with a $40 registration fee... I'm used to the one I have at work which is about $20 a month. Oh well... I'm not settled yet, but I'm excited to have that option coming in soon. Adam has dinner with his parents (by himself since they hate me) once a week so I figure if nothing else, that could be my workout night and I'll build on from there. So pumped. It's a massive pay cut and the benefits aren't as good, but it's what I need for a lifestyle change.
So on that note - I didn't have the time to go back and read everything yet. Muppet, did you hear anything?
Migikal - don't worry about the salad thing - I hate it too but it gets easier once you find what you need to put in it to spice it up enough for you. I find I love raw cucumbers and baby carrots and especially tomatoes because I grew up snacking on them, but I still cringe about eating salad (it's the lettuce that gets me). I've never eaten salad dressing (tried a bite once in my early 20s but definitely not a fan) but I like croutons, bacon bits, those little fried onion thingies, cheese, those chinese noodle thingies, meats, etc. in with it (not all at once or you might as well just have the burger, lol) and it helps not to see the lettuce. You just have to find what works for you - I'm actually excited to try these new sliced almonds that have been flavored to be like croutons I found in the grocery store... not sure yet but they look promising.
Timid - You're so right - I have always preferred that my exercise come in the form of something that either gets something done at the same time or is just plain fun like games and sports. I love playing soccer (gee, that was a shocker I'm sure, lol) and volleyball, and at the lake, the guys and I usually play stupid games like one person hits a baseball out into the lake and the closest ones in the water race to get it and throw it back to shore (I said it was stupid, but you're treading water, swimming, and having fun...imagine the calories you burn without realizing it). But everything I like to do except gardening (and all my plants are already in the ground until my fall bulbs and rhiozomes arrive) requires someone else to do it with - at least one other person - and none of my friends are nearby anymore. So I think the gym might be something I need to do and just make it a routine - if it's a routine I think I'll feel better about it. We'll have to see though - I'm sure for a little while I'll just want to come home and chill out with my newfound time (this new job cuts down 3 hours of commuting time a day).
So on news I'm reluctant to share for fear that it'll go away with all the crap I'll be eating between anniversary cakes, goodbye lunches, etc., I lost my first 10 pounds! I don't really feel the difference, but the scale keeps telling me it's there. Oddly enough Adam notices - he says my boobs are starting to get a little smaller, lol. Of course, he's worried about that. lol. Oh well, serves him right.
Well, have a great day ladies!
Shapie: Hahaha that's so funny.. I read all you guys' comments with an American accent (only in my head, I can't do accents at all ha) and when I read through my posts I'm like 'Awww I wish I was American. Stupid English accent!'
migi: Not sure if I'm the crazy one on the thread but I love salad. lol Sometimes I've been known to eat it for breakfast.
work rant: Well work was not fun last night. There was so much that needed to be done and it didn't seem like we got any of it done. There was like 15 or more boxes of shoes that weren't tagged and ready to be put on the shelves. There were still tones of stacks of shoes piled around the store. So I spent my night trying to make room for shoes and run them into the shelves, I also helped tag some shoes. Bottom line the managers really don't have their **** together at all. Some of the stuff they were supposed to have done (took them 2 days) I honestly have done it before and it only took my like a day (if the store wasn't too busy). I will just keep my smiley face on and go about my work!
soccer Yay for the 10lbs! I'm still waiting for the scale to be that nice to me again...we've been fighting lately.
migi Hahahah, excellent, we have the same type of crazies! What's super funny is my friend Laura and I speak in this ridiculous accent and everyone around us winds up joining in as they hang out with us...pretty hilarious when all of a sudden everyone in the room is "talkin like dis". The accent that Steve Carell puts on the evil mastermind in Despicable Me is totally our accent, he stole it from us.
dutchess I've never eaten it for breakfast, but I LOVE salad.
I know it's only 10am but I'd really love an email from a photographer...like now!
The meeting with my thesis advisor went just fine. I asked for a toasted english muffin, no butter, and with just a package of jam (small). I also took timid's advice and drank a cup of tea before hand. Unfortunately my advisor is into breakfast meetings, but he recently gained a couple of pounds (apparently the thesis team he had before mine was into tacos) so I'm going to aim to change his restaurant meetings into Starbucks meetings.
I used to smoke, not much but enough to be considered a regular smoker (3 per day). I was able to quit during my freshman year but when I'm depressed or stressed I feel the urge to grab one. But I usually don't.
watchme, sorry your life is stressful right now. And I agree with dalma, you're not ugly, you just had a ugly feeling day.
elf, glad you found your calling, good luck!
don, lol with the krispy kreme rush hour XD
soccer, congrats with the new job!
migikal, I used to hate raw vegetables but slowly my taste changed. And there are good side effects too, in my case fresh fruit and veggies improve my mood :D
dutchess, rant all you want about your work... Better out than in!
shapie, hope you get a new photographer soon!
Shapie: Hahaha that sounds hilarious.. Good call! I think if you heard my voice it probably wouldn't sound anything like you imagined.. I went to New York in March and was talking to a guy who was like "You're not British. You don't sound British" I was like.. "Erm.. Well.. I am..? Where do I sound like I'm from?" and he said he didn't know, I just definitely didn't sound British. Everyone else in the world seems to think we all talk like Hugh Grant! And that is definitely not true.. Hugh Grant is so posh/southern..
Dutchess: Lucky you on the loving salad thing! Maybe one day I'll get there.. Fingers crossed!!
Soccergirl: Yeah, I'm trying to start on quite plain salads.. I think if I put too much stuff on in the end I'll start having like, mounds of cheese and bacon bits and croutons, one lettuce leaf and be like.. Yeah, that's a salad, why aren't I losing any weight?! Haha. Well done on the ten pounds, that's amazing!
Anewdana: Yeah, I read somewhere the other day that if you eat something fourteen times in a short period of time, your tastebuds change and you learn to tolerate it. So I'm gonna test that theory!
Tina: Welcome shorty! I’m 5’2 as well. I started on cc at 230 a year and a half ago. I’m wavering between 197 and 201 now, but I had dropped down 193 so it’s possible. These girls are a great support team and a hilarious bunch :D
Watchme, hang in there, chica... It sounds like your friends are kinda bitchy too... I swear if I didn't have you guys in here I'd be a sobbing mess! Maybe it's just that people who've never done it can't understand how hard it is. I'm glad you got your hair done and did some pampering... You're gorgeous, girl! Things'll get better; just keep your head up! *hugs*
Elf, a parasitologist would be pretty badass! :-)
Don, your post made me giggle 'cuz before they took Krispy Kreme out of Houston, I definitely pulled across several lanes of scary traffic when I saw the sign come on! Those things should SO be illegal!
Migi, okay wait, excuse my American ignorance but... You don't sound like Hugh Grant? Is he not typically British? And I have no clue why you'd want to sound like us; I'd much rather sound like you! I dated a Brit once (born in England, going to school in Scotland), and his accent was awesome! He liked to tell me I was wrong when I spelled "color" without a "u", though, so clearly we were doomed to failure as a couple, lol! YAY on your first salad! It's totally about finding the right things to go in it... Like, I'll eat Romaine, but I'd much rather have Butterleaf lettuce because I think it's a touch sweeter and I enjoy the texture more. Also, I'll throw raw spinach in my salads, and I LOVE red cabbage. Yum! Good luck! :-)
Shapie, I hope you're not reading me with a southern accent... I was born and raised in the midwest! I've got the most nondescript, mid-American accent ever (except when I slip a little old school "Clueless"-style Val-speak in there... Or when I'm around the FH's family and start dropping my g's... REALLY trying not to fall into that one, though!)
Soccer, congrats on the new job!!! That's awesome, chica! And double congrats for losing the first 10lbs!!! Good for you! :-)
Ana, I'm glad things went well with your adviser! I DO think switching to Starbucks would be a good idea, though! :-)
Wedding stuff: I meet with my first photographer tonight! I'm excited, although the one I REALLY like we're meeting with next week. The guy we're meeting tonight is the cheapest, though, so we'll see how it goes... I'm nervous for some reason.
Happy Thursday! :-)
migi: How WAS the salad? I've always liked salad--but other veggies I've only gotten on board with the last couple years. They say your taste buds change every seven years or something? I'm open to WAY more stuff than I was 5 years ago. Also--I LOVE English accents. In fact, I would go as far as to say that Americans generally love English accents. So ROCK IT.
Shapie: DO NOT read my messages with a southern accent! I lived in the north for awhile and THEN moved to the south. I am basically accent-less.
soccergirl: CONGRATS on the job!!!!!!!!! I'm so jealous. // I have a second job interview on Wednesday. So I probably won't know anything until after July 29th.