Given up.. Not sure why im posting this here...

But i guess i just want more people to take a look into my dilemma. Have some comments or maybe some insight, or advice. It's very long, but its a journal entry of mine that i felt the need to get off my chest publically, since i know not many people visit my page. I wanna hear what you guys have to say about this, and if you can identify with it.

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I think im just doomed to be fat.

I've been off the "wagon" since the end of november. Gained 6+ lbs.

I cant lose weight. My body physically is not releasing the weight. No matter how good i do. I dont know why. So i tried to take december off. And look what happened. I weighed in at 191 last wednesday.

I was 185 2 weeks ago.

I would love to lose more weight, i need to. It used to be so easy, thats why i was so motivated. A 3 month "plateau" kills you mentally.

Im still in the obese category. Your body isnt even supposed to resist weightloss until you're at least in the healthy weight range. Or battling the "last 10".

Well i have about a "last 40". So i dont see what the deal is.

I dont know what this gain has done to my body's ability to lose weight, but i hope this weight comes off as fast as it came...

Its just so hard. You think "whats the point of restricting calories and exercising if im not losing weight anyway?" Its demotivating.

I just wanna live. I dont wanna be a health freak, i dont wanna stress about my weight, trying to pretend im a health concious gym rat. Im not. I dont care about being healthy, if it had no consequences, i wouldnt be healthy.

I just wanna be a normal weight, without having to be a health obsessed freak to obtain that.

I only eat healthy to lose weight, and i only exercise to lose weight. Im not gonna lie to myself and pretend i do it for the other health benefits. I could honestly care less.

So when im doing these things, and NOT losing weight, you see how quickly it wipes out my motivation?

I had my blood checked, im fine. So why is my body not losing weight? I dont understand. I've taken about 3 weeks off of everything, trying to keep up my exercise, but thats slipping too.

I hope i get off this extra weight. I call it my "give up weight". I used to be SO motivated. But thats gone..

I want this extra weight off, plus the rest i wanna lose. Is like im doomed to be fat. My body refuses to change.

Im not apathetic, i've given up. My weight cant go anywhere but up.

Nowhere but up..

Up up up.

Thats the way it likes to go.

Im gonna eat 1700 calories this week with 3-4 days of exercise and see how that affects me. No one on here cares to tell me how much to eat, so im guessing that number should be ok, it helped me get off the weight i've lost already.

I start tomorrow. I know i've said that everyday this week. But i havnt been home, and as everyone knows, its not exactly easy to be on a diet away from home, especially with a best friend who's an enabler.

By that i mean "You're soo pretty, you're not one pound over the weight you're supposed to be, you dont need to lose any weight. I wish i looked like you. Its okay to eat this, its ok to treat yourself every once in a while, You dont look fat, we're almost the same size!"

She's like 145. and Im 190. She needs to quit that because its demotivating. I know its ok to treat yourself every once in a while, but  not everyday, like she suggests. She doesnt make it any easier, i know she means well, trying to raise my self esteem and make me feel good.

But she's enabling me for failure, sabbotaging me. " Wanna make a pizza? Wanna buy some candy while we watch this movie?" I say no most of the time.

But its not easy when you're best friend does what she can to sabbotage you. Im not saying she's meaning to, but its hard to explain. She doesnt want me to think low of myself, so she would rather lie to me to make myself feel better, instead of encouraging me to get healthy and lose weight.

I just dont appreciate that. I told her today that she tries to find beauty in the ugliest things. And she replied; "I only find beauty in the beautiful things."

So if you can understand where im coming from, i know she means well. But its ruining my willpower.

Because its making me think; "Maybe shes right, maybe i do look good, and that i dont need to lose any weight."

But i know i do. She's just a small factor thats added to my demotivation. I just need to spend less time with her, and focus more on me.

I dont know. My heads not in the right place. I can see my weight gain. Its placed itself in my mid section. My shirts are a bit tighter.

I need help, with what, im not quite sure yet..

Sounds like you have more of an emotional issue than body issues. Your problem isn't your body, its your attitude towards yourself. I think maybe you should seek some help. It's a hole that is hard to crawl out of, nothing wrong with seeking some trained help.

Hey. I'm sorry it's been so tough for you. But don't give up! Today I'm starting fresh, too! I've been trying to lose weight for 6 months now, and I started at 188, got as low as 181 and as high as 194. Now I am 189 again. It's really really frustrating. I have trouble sticking to the diet and finding time to excercise. I think your diet and exercise plan looks really good. I am planning on starting the same kind of thing. Since we are both 5'5" and the same weight, maybe we can help each other stay accountable everyday. What do you say? Feel free to PM me whenever, or you can send me an email.

Original Post by octo-luv:

Sounds like you have more of an emotional issue than body issues. Your problem isn't your body, its your attitude towards yourself. I think maybe you should seek some help. It's a hole that is hard to crawl out of, nothing wrong with seeking some trained help.

What should i seek help for? General self-esteem issues? I dont have low self esteem, i just feel hopeless like i cant lose any more weight. I've tried positive self-talk, and that im just in a little rut and that my body is in some kind of weird freak-out period. Do you think i have a bad attitude towards myself or weightloss in general?

You've already lost a ton of weight, remember? This is just a blip. You'll get there.

The way I see it, there are two choices.  Make healthier lifestyle changes that you can stick with forever or make temporary changes and gain the weight back.  If you make lifestyle changes, it's not a diet anymore.  Not caring about your health is probably something you should take a closer look at. 

I agree with octo-luv.  It seems maybe you need a little help with understanding why you feel that way.  You are important as a whole...inside and out.

Good luck and I wish you the best.  :)

You say that you only exercise to lose weight - is there anything that is technically exercise, but that you enjoy?

For me, finding a workout that didnt really feel like a workout made ALL the difference in the world - I had been hovering around 145 (on a tiny five foot nothing frame) for literally years. Sometimes I managed to shed a few pounds, and always managed to gain them back.

Then I randomly signed myself up for a pole dancing class one day - I cant for the life of me remember how I got it in my head that I wanted to try it, but I loved it. A few months later, I was down to 130-ish, and (in my mind more importantly) down two pants sizes. Not long after that, I was finding myself at the studio taking some of their other, much more "hardcore" fitness classes a few times a week as well...

Of course, now I really AM fighting with that last 10 pounds, but at this point, I kind of enjoy the fight!

I am looking at a similar dilemma with the weight loss, but have not lost faith or determination. I refuse to do that.  at my highest I was 280, with health issues and bad back. after back surgery I lost 70 lbs down to 210, and have fluctuated between 210 and 215 for over a year now. I am actively ( trying) to lose weight, but so far I have only maintained.  I have lost more inches since the weight loss stopped.  maybe we are both gaining muscle... which weighs more. I know that my problem is I can't seem to keep my calories below 2000-  but don't usually get much higher above it. I exercise 5-6 days a week now for an hour and a half a day ( but not long ago I was exercising 7 days a week..)  I have decided to not to get discouraged about no more loss and enjoy the loss  I have maintained.  I do want to lose more weight, I mean hello 160 would probably be my ideal, but I  don't want to let the incessant quest for the goal overrule my ability to enjoy my life or whatever. I eat healthy most of the time, but do allow myself to indulge in things I love from time to time, without doing so life would be pretty dull wouldn't it.   I do write down all my calories everyday, ( except when I am on vac. - where I have learned I do much better when I do write everything down)  I know it is frustrating. I too have my days when I wonder... is it all worth it, the exercise everyday and all. then I remember... I have lost 70 lbs. I can walk 3 miles without getting winded. I can do 40  mins. of pilates and not be in pain after. I sure couldn't do that 70 lbs ago... take some time and reflect on how far you have come, and then reinvision where you want to be. sometimes we work so hard at achieving the GOAL we forget that we have life to live along the way.   I hope you continue to hang in there...   feel free to add me as a friend... penny

Original Post by healthisinplease:

Original Post by octo-luv:

Sounds like you have more of an emotional issue than body issues. Your problem isn't your body, its your attitude towards yourself. I think maybe you should seek some help. It's a hole that is hard to crawl out of, nothing wrong with seeking some trained help.

What should i seek help for? General self-esteem issues? I dont have low self esteem, i just feel hopeless like i cant lose any more weight. I've tried positive self-talk, and that im just in a little rut and that my body is in some kind of weird freak-out period. Do you think i have a bad attitude towards myself or weightloss in general?

maybe i over stepped the line but things like 'i don't care about my health', 'i've given up' just sounds like maybe the problem is a bit more than your body. but only you can decide that. i can only go by what i've read, that's all we can do on these forums. if i've taken things out of context, only you'll really know that. 

there is so much information & stories here on this site where people have had problems with their weight and ways they have overcome them. if its something you really want you can work on it day by day, but it has to come from within you. we all have challenges like your friend, believe me everyone has their problems and things that are holding them back. its just taking it step by step, knowing that its the best course for yourself.

or if you really think there is a physical problem, and im way off the mark, go see a doctor, could be your thyroid? could be a hormonal issue?

You may have reached a "set point" in your weight loss.  This happens sometimes and the best way, I've found through personal experience, is to go on maintenance calories for about 6 months.  Keep logging your food and pay attention to your analysis page to make sure you're getting a balanced diet.

Ask Mary wrote about set points here

Original Post by octo-luv:

Original Post by healthisin please:

Original Post by octo-luv:

Sounds like you have more of an emotional issue than body issues. Your problem isn't your body, its your attitude towards yourself. I think maybe you should seek some help. It's a hole that is hard to crawl out of, nothing wrong with seeking some trained help.

What should i seek help for? General self-esteem issues? I dont have low self esteem, i just feel hopeless like i cant lose any more weight. I've tried positive self-talk, and that im just in a little rut and that my body is in some kind of weird freak-out period. Do you think i have a bad attitude towards myself or weight loss in general?

maybe i over stepped the line but things like 'i don't care about my health', 'i've given up' just sounds like maybe the problem is a bit more than your body. but only you can decide that. i can only go by what i've read, that's all we can do on these forums. if i've taken things out of context, only you'll really know that. 

there is so much information & stories here on this site where people have had problems with their weight and ways they have overcome them. if its something you really want you can work on it day by day, but it has to come from within you. we all have challenges like your friend, believe me everyone has their problems and things that are holding them back. its just taking it step by step, knowing that its the best course for yourself.

Your journal post sounds like me a few years ago.  I started seeing a therapist for a load of reasons and one of them was the weight factor.  I was seeing him for a year before I even attempted a change in my eating habits.  Its not always just about self esteem, its about control over our lives, its also how we talk to ourselves, how we see ourselves and who we surround ourselves with.

I had a friend like your, and enabler, for 10 years.  At first we were dieting together and then as I started being successful she started making more statements like ur friend. A long story short is she didn't like me losing weight because she liked having a 'fat friend' to make herself feel better about herself.  (this came out in a fight) Now please don't think I am suggesting that is what ur friend is doing but if you talk to her and ask her to stop and she doesn't.....something else is going on.

Don't give up you have come so far! I know you don't want to, you just don't know how to get out of this "blip". 

I read this great book In defense of foods: an eaters manifesto By Michael Pollan.

He makes a few amazing points about food, its not a diet book. A few things that I have adopted (please note this is my extrapolation of what he says) is to pay attention to the quality of the food I am eating (more whole foods, home made when possible, less food like substances, pay more in money and time, eat less ), spend more time with food (from prep to the table, even when I eat alone I serve courses and make myself slow down and sit down), eat more plants.  Since I have been doing this I have changed the way I shop (mostly produce, beans, raw ingredients or foods that I can pronounce all the ingredients) and initially my weekly spending went up a  little but now its actually less.  I still watch my cals because I need that double check but I have been eating at a maintenance level of cals since I started this and am still losing weight as fast as I was in the beginning.

all of our bodies are different, we all react differently to diets and exercise and everything and what worked 4 months ago may mysteriously stop and now ur at square one with figuring out what ur body wants but ur not starting over weight wise.

Let us know how ur doing, even if you 'give up', coming back and talking to others going threw it may help you get re motivated.

You say you just "wanna live." Would you feel the same when later down the road you have serious health issues that stem from your obesity?

I'm not trying to lose weight to restrict myself and my enjoyment. I'm trying to lose because I want to be healthy and have that opportunity to live. Think of it that way. Plus, haven't you noticed that eating a lot of unhealthy food makes you feel gross and sick? And eating a lot of healthy food makes you feel energized and free?

Your journey sounds a lot like mine. Heck man I even hired a personal trainer and in 7 months of working my behind off, well, my behind stayed and I only lost 7lbs.

I've had all the tests done too, according to them, I am good to go. I've tried to lose weight, but the scale went in the wrong direction. The problem is ME! I caught myself being dishonest with myself because I wanted a fast fix on weight loss. I am not saying this what you are doing, I am only sharing what I discovered about me.

I have every exercise machine on the planet but still have a sagging behind and arms that are starting to wave in the wind. Why? Because I discovered in myself that my thought pattern was, "IF I had the machine the weight comes off and my body got tone." Well, NO! I actually had to use the darn thing!

I just found this site on Dec 8th! I found another area I caught myself being dishonest about which is the amount of calories I was taking in. I was floored to say the least.

Do a mental check list and be honest with yourself. You don't have to tell anyone or share with anyone what you find out about yourself. Just purpose to change. It's helped me tremendously figure out why I not losing weight. I can only hope and pray that the calorie counting thing is the last tool in my war chest to begin taking off the weight.  

Stay with it! You can do this! The time will pass by anyway, you may as well pass the time with counting and exercising! You can do this!!!!!!!

The one thing I did is decided to never tell anyone, that I know, that I am trying to lose weight nor do this with a weight loss buddy! If I fail, I fail alone and that's okay. I pick myself up alone and carry on without the added pressure. If I gain or lose there is no one there to try to sabbotage me or make me feel bad for losing weight.

I can come on here, log in my blog, cry and moan if need be and then I am good. If I lose a lb or two, I can celebrate and then I am good. Trust me I feel your pain! I am there with you, but I cannot give up because I cannot image what I would weight if I weren't atleast giving it a go!

you cant give up now you have come so far!!! 62lbs down is super impressive and although I have just started my journey a few months ago I would be absolutely ecstatic to lose that kind of weight!, think about it, you have lost a third of what you currently weight, thats amazing!! this is not suppose to cause you pain or sorrow you should be happy about what kind of life your leading. I would say to up your calories and workout more, stregnth training and cardio, maybe it will kick start your body again. Please dont give up its people like you on this site that make me motivated and committed!!!

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Original Post by cichlidgold:

you cant give up now you have come so far!!! 62lbs down is super impressive and although I have just started my journey a few months ago I would be absolutely ecstatic to lose that kind of weight!, think about it, you have lost a third of what you currently weight, thats amazing!! this is not suppose to cause you pain or sorrow you should be happy about what kind of life your leading. I would say to up your calories and workout more, stregnth training and cardio, maybe it will kick start your body again. Please dont give up its people like you on this site that make me motivated and committed!!!

 

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Thank you, i cant work out more, or else i'll go into major depression as i already hate working out, so i've decided 3-4 times a week should please the weight-loss gods. Theres no point in killing myself by working out more, just to eat more, only to maintain the same deficit. I do strength train. 2x a week, even though i hate it. I also dont have time to spend an hour and a half at the gym every day. Student here :]

I know i've been good about losing 62 lbs, but i did it by eating as little as i could. 1200-1800 calories with an hour of light exercise a day. My whole life was weightloss. I would cancel plans, deprioritize important things just so i can get a workout in. My whole life, thought, actions, revolved around weightloss.

Was i unhappy? No, because i was getting results. Now that im not getting results, i am unhappy.

I dont know if i believe in the set point theory, because whatever you do, your body tries to bring you back to that set-weight. My body isnt exactly trying to bring me back down to 185 lbs, its happily gone to 191 without problems.

Its not that i dont wanna get back on the wagon. I just dont see the point in getting back on and not getting results. It has nothing to do with laziness at all. And i actually have noticed that eating crap food makes me feel crap. Eating healthy food just makes me feel refreshed and satisfied.

I mean, of course i care about my health, to a degree. But im not the person to be a health freak. Its just not me. Im not the person who goes out of her way to be extra healthy, to stick out like a sore thumb because exercise is top priority and so is eating lean meats and veggies.

I dont want healthy eating and exercise to be the most important things in my life, im not that person. I once ditched my boyfriend one night to swim in a pool for an hour for exercise. I hadnt exercised in 2 weeks, so i felt like i needed it.

Thats not who i want to be. I'm no jillian michaels, and i dont want to be. I just want to be normal.

Isnt eating healthy on a normal basis and occasional exercise enough? I kind of feel preassured to be an extremist. Eat only healthy all the time, work out as much as i can (or as much as everyone tells me to).

I wouldnt mind being an extremist in weightloss, i used to be one. I wouldnt mind being an extremist now if i acheived results for my hard work.

I kind of feel like i've messed up my body. Losing weight, then gaining 3 lbs, losing it, maintaining even on a calorie deficit, then giving up and gaining 6 lbs.

I just dont wanna hurt my body, i want it to do what its supposed to do, lose on a deficit.

I think so many of us have run across your posts here and there and have read how you encourage others and how you've been an inspiration to them. It's awful to see you in such a low place, emotionally.

Mind you, I only lost 40 lbs, but I would plateau about every 10 lbs down. I even plateaued for two months, so I understand your frustration.  Every time, I was able to break through the plateau by upping my calories temporarily. I do believe in the "set point" theory because I experienced it. I think your body is holding on to a higher set point. I think you would do best to eat maintenance for about a week (maybe 2, your choice). Then, resume a 500 cal-ish deficit. I would lay money down that the scale will move in the right direction.

About exercise...I personally hate cardio. It took me a while and lots of DVD's to discover that there is none I'm going to like. My exercise regimen is based on efficiency:what's the least I can do with the most effect? My answer: for cardio, I simple work hard around the house, take occasional walks, park far from whatever store's entrance and walk in, etc. For more formal cardio, I do HIIT twice a week ( I'm in maintenance now and hardly ever do formal cardio, but I did HIIT twice a week before). Using a stationary bike or elliptical (or whatever you got), go for 20 mins, switching between a sprint and recovery ( I do 8/12 secs). What I prefer to do is strength train, though (paced right, it has cardio benefits also). Once again, little time invested, huge benefits. If you hate exercising, you need to find something that doesn't eat up so much of your time and maybe you'll hit upon something you actually enjoy.

Hang in there! You are not meant to be fat. Your body is resisting your efforts now, but you need to mentally outlast it. You ARE healthy right now in so many ways. Your efforts have not been for naught.  Also, let your friend read your post. She needs to know how she is undermining your efforts, and I think you said it very eloquently.

(((hugs))), Tammy

According to your profile you've lost a buttload of weight already.  On the set point theory (this is kind of my own "theory") your body needs time to adjust which is why it gets more difficult to lose.

When I read your post you sounded as if the "healthy" lifestyle is a real misery for you.  I would recommend incorporating more activity into your everyday life rather than more working out.  Less sitting around, more moving.  That could be many things like house cleaning, window shopping, walking or taking the stairs, not using the remote, etc.  I firmly believe in momentum and once your body gets it's momentum going it's easier to lose weight.  

As for your "friend" what is her effing problem?  Just laugh in her face and don't let her make everything about food.  Life shouldn't be all about food.  Read a good book, go to a movie, explore art galleries, so so on.  Obsessions with food, letting food dominate social events, these are things that get people into trouble weight wise.  Same with dieting, don't let it be about denial and reward.  

Good luck!

I understand your frustration and although I think you need to make permanent changes to keep the weight off, you don't have to be a health freak to do it.

However, when trying to lose weight you do have to give it a decent amount of time and energy. Maybe you were doing too much before. Maybe you feel like it takes up your whole life because you hate it so much, so even a little time feels like a lot.

No offense, but I think you sound kind of whiny. Losing weight is awesome, the changes you make ...not so much. Deal with it.

Do you honestly want to be fat the rest of your life and risk health problems because of temporary discomfort? If this is something you really want, I mean TRULY want...then you will find a way to make it work and will work hard to regroup and give it another go. Maybe it is time to try maintanence for a while until you've regrouped and are motivated again, even until after the holidays. It might just not be the right time of year for you. I don't know where you live, but where I am its snowing and cold...I know I definitely get out and moving more in the summer, but now I have to rely on the gym.

I don't like to sweat...but in order to reach my goals I have to get over that.

I think what you need to do more than anything is look on hte bright side. Yes you hate exercise, but don't you love that it is making your body stronger and healthier? You love the weight loss from it but that is only one component.

I remember asking my counsellor if he liked his job and what does he do when he doesn't like someone he has to do therapy with. His reply is that he finds a positive in working with everyone...he's learning to be more patient and attentive, it's improving his tolerance for people he doesn't necessarily jive with, etc. He doesn't just quit therapy with that person because he doesn't like them. If he was only at work for the money he might burn out quick. Just like you only being in it for the weight loss...without the weight loss you don't have any other motivating factors.

I agree with some of the other posters (but it took me a lot of words to figure out what I was trying to say). Its your outlook that needs to change.

Original Post by thinisthenewblack1:

I understand your frustration and although I think you need to make permanent changes to keep the weight off, you don't have to be a health freak to do it.

However, when trying to lose weight you do have to give it a decent amount of time and energy. Maybe you were doing too much before. Maybe you feel like it takes up your whole life because you hate it so much, so even a little time feels like a lot.

No offense, but I think you sound kind of whiny. Losing weight is awesome, the changes you make ...not so much. Deal with it.

Do you honestly want to be fat the rest of your life and risk health problems because of temporary discomfort? If this is something you really want, I mean TRULY want...then you will find a way to make it work and will work hard to regroup and give it another go. Maybe it is time to try maintanence for a while until you've regrouped and are motivated again, even until after the holidays. It might just not be the right time of year for you. I don't know where you live, but where I am its snowing and cold...I know I definitely get out and moving more in the summer, but now I have to rely on the gym.

I don't like to sweat...but in order to reach my goals I have to get over that.

I think what you need to do more than anything is look on hte bright side. Yes you hate exercise, but don't you love that it is making your body stronger and healthier? You love the weight loss from it but that is only one component.

I remember asking my counsellor if he liked his job and what does he do when he doesn't like someone he has to do therapy with. His reply is that he finds a positive in working with everyone...he's learning to be more patient and attentive, it's improving his tolerance for people he doesn't necessarily jive with, etc. He doesn't just quit therapy with that person because he doesn't like them. If he was only at work for the money he might burn out quick. Just like you only being in it for the weight loss...without the weight loss you don't have any other motivating factors.

I agree with some of the other posters (but it took me a lot of words to figure out what I was trying to say). Its your outlook that needs to change.

I am dealing with what it takes to lose weight, by god am I. How can you say I'm not? Are you saying i have to be this "extremist" that im talking about?

I was doing too much before. Way too much. Making myself workout for an hour and a half  6 days a week, eating between 1900-2200 cals. Not getting results. I was only doing so much because i wanted to start seeing results again. Then i started working out 3-4 times a week instead, and eating a bit less, and getting the same results. (none) changed up my exerice regimen, added new foods into diet, tracking every morsel, upping cals, lowering cals, cycling cals, still nothing.

"No offense, but I think you sound kind of whiny. Losing weight is awesome, the changes you make ...not so much. Deal with it."

Of course I'm whining! I was eating on a deficit every day for 3 months with no weightloss! Wouldnt you be whiny too?

I dont like exercise, but i do it anyway, and i eat healthy, i dont need scolding or being told i need to "deal with it". I have been dealing with it since day 1. I've always known that weightloss = making sacrifices. I would just love results from my sacrifices.

I should applaud myself for getting back on the horse and not giving up completely. Its not easy to stall for 4 months after being used to losing a lb a week for a year, kinda makes you wonder what the h*ll is going on.

I took a 3.5 week break from weightloss as reccomended. Hopefully that did something to my metabolism and can get me losing again. I started back up again today with the same amount of effort (plus some) i've had in the past to lose the rest of this weight at a normal rate again.

Its not that the healthy lifestyle is a misery, its kicking myself at the gym that really gets to me.

I can mentally outlast this. I can I can I can.

I didnt much mind exercise before. Especially not in the summer. I guess im just feeling so low because i feel my efforts are for naught. Its hard enough to make those initial sacrifices to begin with.

I have to keep my chin up, i know that. Thank you for all the commentary <3

Now that sounds more like it!

I wasn't trying to be scolding, I was just being frank. I am not usually that way but I just can't stand whining, even if it IS precedented. I am just not the type of person to whine ever so I guess I just don't understand that part. And my whole point was that you DON't have to be an extremist. That getting in activity, in and outside the gym plus lifestyle changes can yield weight loss too, but from what your saying is you don't want to put in any effort because it isn't paying off. It doesn't have to be all or nothing. I truly believe in small changes make big results.

You sound sooooo much more positive and energetic in that last post. It sounds like you are "looking on the bright side" a bit more.

You have accomplished so much with your weight loss so far to just give up now. I think the breather will do you some good.

I havent lost any weight for two months, but I am not going to let it stop me. I am glad you are not going to give in completely either.

I wish you luck getting back on the horse.