guys im scared...... for the past 2 yr s .......... yes two yrs i have not had one day off exercise......... not even on b days or xmas...... today i decided on a limb that i was staying in bed........ pls reassure me that i have done a good thing:(

I'll tell you a story... Two men challenge each other to cut down trees in a forest.  The one who can cut down the most trees in the allotted time-span wins.  One man is quite young and the other is much older.  The starting pistol fires and both set about their task... the younger man flying into it with gusto, the older man more steadily.  When the final whistle sounds, the felled trees are counted and the older man has won the contest.

"But I don't understand how you won" complains the younger man.  "I'm much faster, much stronger and every time I looked at you, you were sat down on a log doing nothing"

"Not so" replied the older man.  "When you saw me sitting on the log I was doing three things.  First I was sizing up the next tree I was going to chop down, working out the best place to start so that every stroke counted.  Second, I was taking a rest because I'm older than you and need to conserve my strength.  And last, I was sharpening my axe..."

Sometimes we all need time to 'sharpen the axe'.  Enjoy the rest.

your body probably just fell in love with you for staying in bed one day!  :)   Don't feel bad!!!  Enjoy it and start fresh when you feel better!!  :)

thanks guys:)

yes you'll be okay.

if anything you would stop excessivly excercising if you truely want to recover...

Not exercising is probably one of the best things you can do for yourself given the history that you've posted.

I know you've said that your doctors don't know what to do with you but I would imagine that they are telling you to exercise less and eat more for your body to function at all let alone begin to repair itself.

Wow.  My post was deleted.  I didn't think I said anything harmful, just that I I hope spek is getting treatment/help.  I guess it was because it was a reply to feanor's negaitve comment.  Anyway, spek, I do hope you get well soon.

Pls dont make me feel like a freak........ i have been sick for 10 yrs now and i know myself and that i have a eating disorder yes i KNOW how thin i am and am recovering ....... its a freakin day to day bloody struggle and it the hardest thing ive ever done!

Original Post by spek:

Pls dont make me feel like a freak........ i have been sick for 10 yrs now and i know myself and that i have a eating disorder yes i KNOW how thin i am and am recovering ....... its a freakin day to day bloody struggle and it the hardest thing ive ever done!

The last thing I'd want to do is that.  I wish there was a (((hug))) smilie.

I don't have an ED, but getting over being severely overweight was a huge struggle for me, too.

Hi Spek, I've been bulimic for 15-odd years and finally said enough is enough at New Year. I haven't been sick since, and am encouraged that my food demons are subsiding at long last. Its like any other addiciton though- YOU have to want to do it for YOU, no-one else, and you're 100% right- it is one day at a time- I appreciate that. You're going in the right direction though- set yourself small goals (don't exercise for one day, eat X calories this day, write down 10 reasons to get healthy & re-read them over & over etc.) You are a beautiful person and deserve to be healthy & happy. Good luck?

 

BTW- I'm 175lbs at the minute and have NEVER been a 'normal' weight- always overweight/obese- even with my ED.

Spek,

I think it's great that you took a day off of exercise. I'm sure your body appreciated it, our muscles need time to heal now and then. Not exercising is really tough at first but then you start to appreciate the extra sleep/time to do other things. I hope your recovery is going well!

congrats spek! that is such a huge accomplishment. i know how hard it can be to take a day off but like everyone else has said your body will thank you. when i finally started letting my body rest, even for a day, and then slowly giving it the food it needed-it was like night or day.

 

this is a tough battle but youre not alone. today is a very good day :) hang in there girl. youre not a freak, youre not alone, were all here and so many people understand where youre coming from ::hugss::

oh im sorry if i sounded rude ........ its just ppl judge me all the time thinkng im some spoilt too thin brat and they look down on me.......... i really want to get well and wont stop untill i do......... i dont care how long it takes me:) thanks all so much for sharing your stories and support it mean oh so much to me:)))))

spoilled? I think you are probably confused... I am pretty sure people don't assume that you are spoiled if it looks like you haven't be fed in months. (trying not to make that sound too offensive)

what it comes down to is respect... people respect those who respect themselves, and yes sometimes you have to earn your respect from others. So point is that if you don't respect yourself then if makes it hard for others to.

this is like me towards the obese or unkempt... because to me it looks like they dont respect themselves enough to take care of themselves, and so my attitude towards them is determined, whether I show it or not.

I have a HUGE amount of respect for people who look clean, healthy and that they take some time to make themselves look half decent... maybe I am superficial, but the theory behind this is based on evolution... even newborn babies are drawn to 'beauty' as they will keep eye contact with a good looking individual as opposed to, well, one who's not so much.

ooookay I am getting kinda off topic, but you NEED some days of rest, it makes you normal, it makes you healthy, your body needs time to recover... so good for you, now lets hope you can keep respecting your body enough to let it get better.

Staying in bed and not exercising was the best thing you could do! From your picture you're severely underweight and I find it hard to believe family or friends haven't forced you into a recovery clinic. If you don't stop exercising and eat to gain weight you will die.

and to answer your guestion: will I be okay?

that really depend on what you are asking from us... if you take one day off excersise it WILL NOT kill you, make you gain weight, or even prevent you from dying.

you are still severely underweight, if anything that day of rest was good... but will only benefit you if you allow more days like this to come.

I know you have been in and out of hospitals but seriously if you actually do want to recover this time, you will go back, you obviously need the most help you can get.

like its great that you are eating and all, but you are still not eating enough to make you better... maintaining is one thing, but maintaining at such a disturbingly unhealthy weight is another.

please get more outside help.. this annonousmous site can only do so much...

You'll be okay! You'll probably feel better, in fact. Your body can use a rest. You should skip the exercise more often and have a relaxing morning. :)

thanks so much for the replys ........ PLs understand that i DO!!!!! know how sick and thin i am.......... i see myself and know im very unhealthy......... so just know that i am agreeing not thinking otherwise:) it doesnt make recovery ne easier after a long 10 yr battle thou im starting to see things clearer:)