Hello to everyone & thanks for looking at my thread. I need to talk with some people who can understand what I am going through with my weight loss. I gave birth to my daughter close to 4 months ago on November 15th. On January 5th I started healthy eating & exercising - I weighed 139 pounds. (I am 5ft 3inch)
I now weigh 125 pounds and want to keep going until I reach roughly 114 - 118. I have always had a problem with my self image & my weight. Pregnancy was hard on me because I kept getting bigger & bigger, by the end I weighed a whopping 143pounds. Everything about me was big except for my belly which was quite neat & round, I only had stretch marks on my hips.
I had so many expectations for what my body would look like when I reached my pre-pregnancy weight. Unfortunately I have lost muscle tone & have a lot more fat than I did this time last year & it is such an anti-climax now that I have attained this half-way goal. I expected to look like I used to. I always had a very athletic physic.
The problem I am having at the moment is that every time I eat something I feel so guilty - even though I know I eat healthy foods. Its driving me insane. I look at my body and I'm repulsed by what I see & its not getting better the more weight I lose. Does anyone else feel like this? At what point & I'm finally going to be happy with my weight?
Reason: Moved to Pregnancy & Parenting for better response.
Thanks guys! Really means a lot to have support with this! My partner tells me all the time how great I look but I always feel like he has to say it - especially because I just carried his baby for 9 months!! I went into my old workplace today (my partner is a manager there) & everyone was complimenting me on my figure which was a HUGE boost!!
I think my problem may be the weighing scales. Its an old-school dutch one & weighs everything in kilos. So if I loose a pound it doesn't show up on the scales. I have to lose roughly 2.2lbs to see it move down. I am used to using a weighing scales that uses stones or pounds as the measurement!
I am currently doing the Tabata workout on Mondays, Wednesdays & Fridays. I was hoping to do yoga on Saturday & Sundays but I don't think my body can cope at the moment. I'm so drained from the exercise, breast-feeding & the weight loss that I can't do any more than I am at the moment! Once I have reached my goal weight I am going to cut out the Tabata & maintain my body with yoga - hopefully when we move back to Ireland in the next few months Ican start Bikram! I also still have one of my horses at my parents home in Ireland so I can begin riding again!
Beautiful, listen to some Ella Fitzgerald, "Accentuate the Positive!" and dance some Nia (an exercise form I practice and love, highly recommend to learn how to appreciate your body and all it's strengths.) You've created a gorgeous little human, and that is ongelofelijk! Also pretty amazing that you're dropping weight steadily so soon after having your baby, a testament to your strong sense of self and will to reach your goals. Patience for change is never easy, but with every day you eat healthily and honor your body, you're improving your heart health, cholesterol levels, blood pressure, and bio-chemistry balance- all great things!
Speaking of bio-chemistry, have you considered that you may be experiencing post-partum depression? Progesterone that your body produces when you're pregnant can drastically drop off once you deliver. It's a happiness boost to cook progesterone that, alas, can really sting when it goes away.
Above all, love yourself in this one life you've got, and take it day by day. When you start feeling really down, make yourself a list when you can that you can focus on just one thing you know you do right, even if it has nothing to do with your physical form. Body + mind + spirit, they all count in balance toward happiness.
Blessings across the pond to you~